I, the star, scintillating in Morse.
Millenniums, I wait for a response.
"I love you," I cried to souls alive.
Searching for love, my heart's deprived
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Flickerin­g, I saw you,
the dark blue,
as you cried, as you replied:
"I love you."

I, the star, scintillating in Morse
said: "Who are you?"
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Light-years,­ my message traveled
Millenniums, I waited once more...
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Flickering­, once more, I saw you,
the pale blue,
as again you cried, as again you replied:
"Who are you?"
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Then I realized,
only on your dark horizons we met,
only when the sun has set
only on your indigo oceans do my messages
reflect.

An empty soul with nothing to lose

My father sees nothing
I don't let him in
I show him his little girl
The little girl who wasn't afraid to have her front tooth knocked out by the big kid next door
I show him the fake smile and let him hear the fake laugh
"How are you?"
I'm well, just breathing
"That's great kiddo"
I can see the worry in his eyes
He's catching on to my lies
He can see the void of emotion in my eyes
And hear the desperation in my voice
"It's going to be okay"
I wish I could believe you dad

My mother sees laziness
No effort
Someone who has given up
"You have to stop being so sad"
I'm not ******* sad mom
I want to **** myself
My mother sees shyness
She doesn't see me breaking down in tears
The fear in my eyes when I leave the house
"Stop being so anxious over nothing"
It's not nothing mom
I'm afraid to live
She doesn't see that
She sees what she wants to see
Not what the doctor has told her 800 times
That if she doesn't help I won't make it to see 25