scared
things seem like
they're going by
too
fast
everything is
a blur
what do i do
next
my mind isn't keeping
up with the rest of
the world
it's


lag   gin   g



still
.
.
.
l  o  a  d  i  n  g


p      r      o      c       e      s      s      i      n     g

sometimes

it
comes to

a

halt.
stops l  o  a  d  i  n  g
and
i'm [stuck]
in one place
while everyone around me
is moving fast paced
i take things
s
l
o
w
i like to
procrastinate
i am not quick to
strike
what if they move on





without me?

I've tried to change so many times...
Please just let me be happy for once in my life...

Some days I'm on top of the world
and other days
I'm afraid of heights.