I'm falling behind
and I can't keep up.

Everyone else is leaping ahead
while I'm just trying to find my balance.

A breeze knocks me down again
but everyone else embraces it.

what's wrong with me?



maybe it's better i just give up

The only one that would understand

doesn't want to listen

There it is...
i wrote everything i ever felt about everything
and gave it to the world
I don't know if it was worth it,
or ever will be.

Now it's almost worse...
because I'll be waiting
with knots in my stomach
until i get a response

Please help me find the smiles,
the happiness,
whatever is left of the joy,
and if there’s any love left,
please show it to me.

The many happy memories are the cause of my tears

Maybe this year will be better.
Vacant of heartbreak and disappointments

Maybe this year the smiles will reach my eyes
and the laughs actually real

These love songs' lyrics

are only missing a name

Another one joins the family,
to share ideas
and to receive them in return.

To grow in imagination
and writing ability
and not to mention,

to meet some of the best people ever!

Everyday, a tear is driven to the edge
'til it's about to fall off the edge of the cliff
it often does
I miss going to sleep with a smile on my face...
please come back

You made me want to die of heart break

but you were my reason for living.

with every casual goodbye...




                                                                                                                        ...I wonder if it's the last

How can you read the last thing I sent to you

and think I don't care?

When so many battles are fought

and energy dies with each blow

both given and received

you begin to wonder

if this war is even worth fighting.

Autumn...it's the kind of color memories are made of.

A little dot of red appears on my cheek.

soon it is joined by others,

they grow from the scratch.

I watch as each one slowly becomes a bead

of rich red color.

They are so close together, that many merge

and become larger, heavy

to heavy to stay on my cheek.

I watch my face in the mirror as one by one

they roll down my cheek, leaving a stain

they reach the bottom of my cheek

and hang there for just a moment

before dropping to the carpet.

Joining old rust-colored dots decorating the white carpet.

A testimony to the pain hidden deep inside my soul.

Shut up and move along, boy.

'cause you've just been replaced.

It’s one of those nights
when I can only describe
how I feel about you
with a tear.

I feel like some over attached girlfriend...
I hope I don't seem that way,
but if we aren't even going to be distant friends,
then I want things to be left on a positive note.

reality sets in


and i realize he is still gone

It can get so tiring
fighting against air
when you are continuously falling.

Shruging like it's no big deal,
smiling and truely meaning it,
seeing other options...
better options then you were.

All part of beginning the process of letting go.

I try not to lose control now...

because I know this time I won't be able to recover

once I burst

Day and night,
summer and winter.
The years past,
memories fly by.
And yet,
no matter what will come,
I’ll never forget my first and last true home.

Everyone says you will figure out your purpose in life soon enough.

But that hasn't happened yet.

I won't cry!

I won't.

I won't...

I tell myself that over and over

as the tears continue to fall

Together we will stay,
'til the moon lit stars set

Tears are words
that the heart can't say

I just hope
that I won't stop
wishing you were here

One slip of tongue can ruin a bond

so close...

that it defied all laws of society

You don't understand...
you never will

Ever.

You don't understand that late nights
are all I have.

So what if it affects my grades?                                                          ­        (by the way, it doesn't)
At least I'll know that someone will hear me.
that someone will be able to relate

Because you never will.
As much as you think you do.

This is the only way to break out of my shell.
And if I have to fight you to get my hammer,

*so be it

"Losing" you
gave me the chance to see
what's really important in life.

I could tell you were hurting..

but from what?



You wouldn't let me help..


And that made us fall apart




**** whatever's hurting you
                              
*and come back to me

It's when you walk away with a smile on your face,
wind blowing your hair back,
a song playing in your head,
contrasting the usual depressing tune.

Just knowing that there's a chance for us...

                                                                                                                                              *maybe...

When you jump out

I feel that thrill of being scared

of the hope

that maybe you'll stay this time.

It's nice to know we had it all

thanks for watching as I fall