I fall asleep with my head resting on your chest

Everyone needs time to step back and take a look at their life

To try to understand the action of him/herself and those around them.

The dark rolling clouds
surround me.
Each dusty contact
burns.

I try to run away,
but in which direction?
Stumbling and tripping
over hidden obstacles,
I run towards the only patch of color in the black,
A field of grass before a setting sun.
But it slips into the engulfing darkness
as the sun sets.

The clouds sting my eyes now,
my vision blurs and fades.

How did I even get here?
I think, as I fall the final time.

What's the point of asking,
when we could never be?
Everything we had
was blown away in the wind.
I don't think I'll get over the fact
that a single mistake ruined us.

All those plans....
wiped out.

Even though we are just friends now..
I can't help but want more

Because I'm still in love with you're old self

and your new personality is alien

Now I can talk about your favorite band,
without seeing your face,
without thinking back when we used to sing their songs together.
Now I can do what we used to with someone else,
without becoming lost in thought and regret.
Now I can sing to a sad break-up sing,
without wanting to cry because it was just like us.

Now I can smile without you.

Now I can live without you.

Thanks for teaching me that I don't need a **** to live.

Look out for that boy that's always running.

If he stops for you,

he won't be there for long,

it's against his nature.

For once this is a pure happiness.

For once, please don't ruin it

Don't complain about you're awful life

when half of it is you not letting yourself be happy.

He's my new chapter,
a new favorite song to memorize

I can ramble forever about everything we had,
everything we could have been,
everything we had going for us.
I could write dozens of poem about everything that we lost,
and I have.
I could ramble on forever....
and never have said enough.
It's one of those things you can never describe...
no matter who it is speaking.
But the one thing I must come to face eventually
is that your gone forever...

                                                               ­                                  and there no way to get you back.





                                                      ­                                                                 ­                                      ´ *ever

Out of habit I sign into my email
just to click on an empty inbox.

Heartbreak?

what the hell have I been talking about
all this time?

Have I ever thought of the true heartbreak
felt by the loved ones of the soldiers
sent over seas to fight
for spoiled people like me.

Heartbreak?

ha, yeah right...
I don't know the word

Not when I see little kids
who's dad's are fighting
across a wide and stormy sea.

We are at a stand still

neither of us want to put down our masks

but maybe that's just my imagination.

For me this is just another normal day

for some girls, it's a day where he proves his love to her

gives her a little extra something like pointless chocolates.

Stupid girls... he's just doing that because he has to.

Roll down all the windows
and blast the music

Let your hair loose
and go full speed on a freeway

We're young and wild and free babe,
In a sunshine state with no parents around

Although I don't regret my decision,
I'll always miss you,
and wish that you gave me a second chance.

I don't know why I can't stop smiling,
everything has been going wrong lately.

But maybe its just because
you've come into my life

Why do you keep hurting me like this?

Let me be now,

you've had your share of joy stolen from me.

Leave me be and pick on someone who can take it.

I can't handle this anymore

Stop taking anything I might have left and try to fix your broken morals first

I walk on a lonely road .   .   .

the faces and memories pass by

before fading behind me...

I cannot ever stop walking

no matter how tired I am

nor can I        ----------------->         run               --------------->                           ahead  <---------------

...again
                                   ­      (of course)
in time...

and I walk alone.

You were like that old, worn out toy that everyone keeps from their childhood.

That thing that you keep in a box in the attic, that just takes up space,
but you don't have the heart to throw away because of all the memories that come with it.
But everyone has to throw it out or give it away at some point.

And now is that time

Stars collide
creating a brillant light show
in the skies

Another one gone without a tear,
or even a frown,

What do I keep doing wrong?

With each tear drop

another cherished memory of you

fades.

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Instead of saying time heals everything

tell me something that actually works

I want to change everything about myself

But that's just a want I can't have.

So I guess I'll just deal with the mess I have now.

With her on your side

I'll never win.

Now I'm the bad guy.


But at least tell me what I did wrong.

You're one of those people

where it doesn't matter if someone cares.

**** YOU

yeah, I'm talking to you two.

the one time time and one way that i can be free

of your ****** up judgment

Oh sorry, did I offend you by swearing?

that's right, you guys have to be perfect

and no one else is perfect

especially* if they swear.

Guess that makes me a devil

So why don't you let me be and live in my own hell?

The blinding lights
form spots when I blink.

They're always with me.

I need to break out from these white-washed walls
and polished floors.

Let me feel grass under my feet,
and the heat of the sun.

See the soft light of the evening
and the slow-rushing waters.

But no...
They will never let me out of this straight jacket.

And so the cycle continues

her life is fixed as mine falls apart

it won't be long be fore we switch places...




again

Such a tiny speck...
in the middle of no where                                                            ­                                             literally

Suddenly, from no where,
it explodes!
***** of fire,
flames of passion                                                          ­                                                            Erupt­

My! What a sight to see!

But no one is there to see it

This started the universe


yet it remains...                                                       ­                                                             
                                                                ­                                                                 ­               Unseen
                                           ­                                                                 ­                               unproven.










                                             ­                                                                 ­                  Lost...

I'm tired of it all...

the jealously,
the hurt,
getting back,
the anger..

just...everything!

Why can't we just start over

be friends,

and just be happy you came back?

The wind is howling outside, they say.

I wouldn't know,

it's not cold in here with you,

and I couldn't hear the wind,

not with this perfect music playing.