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1.1k · Sep 2013
calm turbulence
Alice Kay Sep 2013
Some vortex
or a twist in time
a mistake you can't change
Your favorite memory that you forgot.

One moment passes
as you watch it go,
another one is already gone.

Never stop looking forward
you never want to miss what's coming.

because it might be your new favorite moment.
I know I said I wouldn't post here anymore, but this is one so the Alice Kay part of me doesn't die yet :)
1.1k · May 2013
Dandelion
Alice Kay May 2013
Every bit of air is spent on that one breath
to blow away a dandelion

Every seed scattered will come to rest and then grow
becoming a bright yellow flower that is a symbol of spring.

But do we let them all grow for wishes to be made?
No. The older people learned that dreams don't come true.

So they cut down the flowers before the children can make wishes
and so they can't hope that their wish, something held dear to their heart will become a reality.
1.1k · Dec 2012
nostalgia
Alice Kay Dec 2012
nos•tal•gia |näˈstaljə; nə-|
noun
a sentimental longing or wistful affection for the past, typically for a period or place with happy personal associations



happy personal associations...
                                                 ­                                                                                  ­         you
typically for a period or place...
                                                        ­                                                                last year...in love
a sentimental long or wistful affection...
                                                    ­                                                        my heart constantly aches
for the past...
                                                         ­                                                             *we had everything
1.1k · Dec 2012
Happy birthday stranger
Alice Kay Dec 2012
Is there any point anymore?

You don't return my calls

and I end up sounding like an idiot

talking into the phone as if you're actually listening.

~

So here's the birthday card I made you in advance

back when we actually talked and laughed together.

It's like inside I knew it would fall apart even as I hoped it wouldn't.

~

Happy birthday to a face with a name and a personality I don't know.

Hello and goodbye, stranger.
1.0k · Mar 2013
Trust
Alice Kay Mar 2013
If you keep trusting,

in anything, anyone

you're gonna end up getting hurt.
1.0k · Dec 2012
Stupid
Alice Kay Dec 2012
I'm stupid,
it takes me longer to understand something then you.

When I'm halfway done with a problem set,
you're done.

Is it just that you guys are insanely smart?
I don't think so... there's others that do better.

It's like I'm constantly getting this message
that if I'm not the best
then I'm not going to ever have life.

I'm just taking my time for now...
is that such a crime?


Just don't isolate me and send a message

that I'm stupid and worthless.

Because I know that to some people,
I'm not
Stupid people make stupid people look stupid....stupid....
981 · Apr 2013
Crossfire
Alice Kay Apr 2013
Caught in a crossfire,

and I can only say something

if it supports your argument,
970 · Nov 2012
Innocent
Alice Kay Nov 2012
I guess you really did it this time
Left yourself in your warpath
Lost your balance on a tightrope
Lost your mind tryin' to get it back

Wasn't it easier in your lunchbox days?
Always a bigger bed to crawl into
Wasn't it beautiful when you believed in everything
And everybody believed in you?

It's alright, just wait and see
Your string of lights is still bright to me
Oh, who you are is not where you've been.
You're still an innocent,
You're still an innocent.

Did some things you can't speak of
But at night you live it all again
You wouldn't be shattered on the floor now
If only you would seen what you know now then

Wasn't it easier in your firefly-catchin' days?
When everything out of reach, someone bigger brought down to you
Wasn't it beautiful runnin' wild 'til you fell asleep
Before the monsters caught up to you?

It's alright, just wait and see
Your string of lights is still bright to me
Oh, who you are is not where you've been
You're still an innocent
It's okay, life is a tough crowd
32, and still growin' up now
Who you are is not what you did.
You're still an innocent.

Time turns flames to embers
You'll have new Septembers
Every one of us has messed up too
Lives change like the weather
I hope you remember
Today is never too late to be brand new

It's alright, just wait and see
Your string of lights is still bright to me
Oh, who you are is not where you've been
You're still an innocent.
It's okay, life is a tough crowd
32, and still growin' up now
Who you are is not what you did
You're still an innocent.
You're still an innocent.

Lost your balance on a tightrope.
It's never too late to get it back.
this is by Taylor Swift. I've recently been completely obsessed with the song, and for some reason, I get a lot of poem ideas from it. Hope you check out the song for yourself.
967 · Oct 2013
Turmoil of choices
Alice Kay Oct 2013
When you are caught between two choices
you can be

good           bad
and say a prayer            and get angry
                            try to find the best in the situation          blame everyone because you know it's their fault
                                                           act like its fine           let them know that you hate them at the moment
             try to live on and be the better girl by peace           prove you are the better girl by causing them pain

always wanted to go the bad way
but striving towards the good.
My best friend really hurt me recently and I'm trying so hard not to lash out because I know it will just make things worse. But it's so difficult because I can physically feel my heart tightening from hurt.
Alice Kay Dec 2012
I used to be able to see my future
just as it was supposed to be

Get good grades,
work hard through hard classes
you come in and out of my life,
because i knew i loved you
but that it would never work out
graduate with high honors
and then take off from there.

I didn't count on it hurting so bad
when you left.
I didn't count on the fact
that i would become so confused
with every little thing going on in my life,
that grades would drop,
and so would my level of caring about anything.

Friends, family, grades, music, reading, the many smiles.
Everything that has been the focus of my life
everything i lived for.

But now there's nothing to live for...
what's the point?
my parents wouldn't have to pay for college
my friends all move away anyways,
at least, not the real ones...
grades? people get by without them
there will always be someone better in music
it's not like i'm going to make a career of it,
so why practice?

What will reading do other then learning?
it doesn't matter...
someone will always have read more.

This isn't a goodbye...
i don't know what it is...
but i know theres no purpose anymore
and this was the only way to say that.
Sorry Dad, I'm not my perfect sister.
941 · Nov 2012
Judgment: Parental Version
Alice Kay Nov 2012
Ok, so a guy I was talking with used a "bad word"

OH MY GOSH HE MUST BE AN AWFUL PERSON

He was playing around, having fun jumping off a short wall

OH MY GOSH HE MUST BE A GANGSTER, A DANGEROUS PERSON

I laughed because he said something really funny to his friend

OH MY GOSH YOU CAN'T LIKE SOMEONE LIKE THAT!!

I rolled my eyes at your senseless over-reaction

OH MY GOSH THAT BAD KID IS INFLUENCING YOU!!!


Seriously Mom???
My mom is the kind that think's it's awful if I say "dude, that *****!" cause it's "bad" Just kinda ranting how she was freaking out over a friend of mine that's a good kid...

Sorry Mom, but it's ok to be cool sometimes
940 · Apr 2013
A 9.0 Earthquake Force
Alice Kay Apr 2013
Don't let me crack again

this time might be earthquake force

Please share some of this new-found peace


I've forgotten how it feels,

but I know it was wonderful.

Help me get there again.
939 · Nov 2012
Feather on the wind
Alice Kay Nov 2012
I swoop down suddenly
my stomach drops

then I'm blown on

over dry fields
and cracked riverbeds

dust stinging in the wind
928 · May 2013
Top
Alice Kay May 2013
Top
All those idols at the top.

They have . . . everything

How boring that must be
906 · Jan 2013
Pretending
Alice Kay Jan 2013
"if you'd just pretended to understand that one time"

sorry, but I don't pretend....
no matter what it costs,
and if I have to pretend for us,
none of it matters.
894 · Dec 2012
Family car ride...
Alice Kay Dec 2012
My brother and father are talking the the front of the car.
About some cool twist in mystery my brother learned about in school,
or maybe about a latest buisness plan.
My youngest brother is sleeping next to me in the very back of the car.
My middle brother is listening to music,
like he always does as he falls asleep.
My sister is sleeping as well.
She can't read, because she always gets car sick.
And I'm sitting awake in the back seat,
as I always am on this long trip.
Staring out the window...
just thinking about everything going on in my life,
trying to find anything in it to grasp...
trying to fight back the threatening tears.
This is how it always is at 1 in the morning on this never ending trip.
We are all in this small space for a long time.
But no one will ever know me like they think they do.
Even if they asked...(which they never will) why would I tell?
I'll just be told I'm being silly,
and then a lecture will start on how they grew up,
and how that's how I should as well...

Not that i'll ever listen.
873 · Jan 2013
Maybe this time
Alice Kay Jan 2013
Maybe if you really knew how much pain I was in,
and how sorry I am and how true my words really were,
you would give me a second chance
and maybe you would stay this time.
866 · Mar 2013
Raisin
Alice Kay Mar 2013
The fight in you eventually dries up.

And you are left with a shriveled up defeat.
859 · May 2013
Child Star
Alice Kay May 2013
Forced into an adult world

so early, pushed to soon.

When will he ever be a kid?

Not have to run away from the flashes to have some privacy?

And thus we come to the important question.

Even though this is his dream,

should he wait before giving up his whole life to the cameras?


No longer is it a question.

Ready of not he will be forever pushed up onto the stage.
843 · Dec 2012
Connection
Alice Kay Dec 2012
Internet used to be really fast.

Messages to each other were sent and received right away.

But slowly, four bars turned to 3, then 2.

Every word lagged a little,

and every response started to come late.

Now theres just one bar.

And there's hardly any connection

for any length of time...

soon there will be none
842 · Dec 2012
Orb of Life
Alice Kay Dec 2012
Have you ever thought the sun

as an orb of life?

When the sun sets,

it's ****** down a drain.

Although often gorgeous,

it's such a sad scene.

The sun rising is like

it has come back to life.


Every.

single.

day.


Just a reassurance that we are alive as well.
didn't turn out like i wanted it to..but oh well
839 · Dec 2012
Melting.....
Alice Kay Dec 2012
All winter I've been wondering
where all the snow went.

But today I realized

that the heat from our fights
melted it all.

Now I wake to a drenching rain
instead of a magical snowy landscape.
Last bit doesn't really fit...
832 · Apr 2013
Arrogent
Alice Kay Apr 2013
You've really done it this time, son.

You may think that you're so good, so smart.

But you will get burned out just like the rest of us.
831 · Mar 2013
Mark the Date!
Alice Kay Mar 2013
"Don't forget the date!"

Oh, I won't forget.

I'll be counting the days with a happy heart
(detect the sarcasm?)

I don't need a trip to the doctors.
It won't help none,
just bring up the past I've almost forgotten.
You really don't know what's the best for me
811 · Mar 2013
Existing
Alice Kay Mar 2013
Tonight I'll try not to cry,
straighten myself up,
take all the crap thrown at me,
quit this pathetic pity party,
and actually exist.
791 · Jan 2013
Snow Days
Alice Kay Jan 2013
After sleeping in until 11,
I get to act like I'm 10 again.
Play Lego's with my brother
while blasted music we both love.

Rediscovering imagination and old memories.
While new are being made.
idk.....basically how I'm going to spend my snow day. Playing Lego's with my "younger" brother. :P
777 · Nov 2012
Glue
Alice Kay Nov 2012
Why can't we stay like this
just how we are?

If we want more,
it will just fall apart
if you leave
everything will be broken again
And I won't have enough glue to put it back together again
776 · May 2013
Web
Alice Kay May 2013
Web
I don't know why I'm surprised.

We were never a circle,

more like a spider's web that was constantly being stretched,

tested to see how strong the threads really were.
775 · Mar 2013
Metronome
Alice Kay Mar 2013
tick    tock     tick    tock

faster     faster     faster     *faster
772 · May 2013
Past 12
Alice Kay May 2013
3 o'clock and not about to fall asleep with my eyes open.

It's gotten easier and easier to stay up as long as possible to live in another world

better then the one awaiting in the morning
772 · Jan 2013
Music coma
Alice Kay Jan 2013
The music won't stop
I can't think.
Why does my head hurt so much?

Cold ground...
It shakes from running footsteps.
Where did everyone go?

Blank, white walls
a beeping heartbeat
a new present.
770 · Mar 2013
Parents
Alice Kay Mar 2013
When are you two going to stop being kids?

Grow up,

see those looking up at you,

and at least act like you love each other.
763 · May 2013
Losing
Alice Kay May 2013
Another mouthful,

I wonder how many calories would that be?

How long do I have to run to burn off this meal?

When will I look like I want to?

How long do I have to keep this up?
759 · Mar 2013
Dreams
Alice Kay Mar 2013
A final yawn
a kiss goodnight
Fantasy comes to life
744 · Dec 2012
The Moment I Knew
Alice Kay Dec 2012
You should've been there,
Should've burst through the door,
With that 'baby I'm right here' smile,
And it would've felt like,
A million little shining stars had just aligned,
And I would've been so happy.

Christmas lights glisten,
I've got my eye on the door,
Just waiting for you to walk in,
But the time is ticking,
People ask me how I've been
As I comb back through my memory,
How you said you'd be here,
You said you'd be here.

And it was like slow motion,
Standing there in my party dress,
In red lipstick,
With no one to impress,
And they're all laughing,
As I'm looking around the room,
But there's one thing missing,
And that was the moment I knew.

And the hours pass by,
Now I just wanna be alone,
But your close friends always seem to know
When there's something really wrong,
So they follow me down the hall,
And there in the bathroom,
I try not to fall apart,
And the sinking feeling starts,
As I say hopelessly,
"He said he'd be here."

And it was like slow motion,
Standing there in my party dress,
In red lipstick,
With no one to impress,
And they're all laughing,
And asking me about you,
But there's one thing missing,
And that was the moment I knew.

What do you say
When tears are streaming down your face
In front of everyone you know?
And what do you do when the one
Who means the most to you
Is the one who didn't show?

You should've been here.
And I would've been so happy.

And it was like slow motion,
Standing there in my party dress,
In red lipstick,
With no one to impress,
And they're all standing around me singing
"Happy birthday to you",
But there's one thing missing,
And that was the moment I knew.

Ooh, I knew.

You call me later,
And say, "I'm sorry, I didn't make it,"
And I say, "I'm sorry too,"
And that was the moment I knew.
Yet another song by Taylor Swift. this is my new favorite song :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qgy79coMcw8
743 · Dec 2012
12.14.12
Alice Kay Dec 2012
They will be waiting for those shinning faces
to come tumbling down the stairs in the morning.

but they won't come

Easter will come around
and they will be waiting to see chocolate stained cheeks

but there are no baskets to hide

What do you do?

Where do you go?

Who will you be thankful for at Thanksgiving?

There's nothing to do...

but to push onwards.
This date will forever be in our hearts. Our thoughts and prayers go out to the families effected, whether directly or indirectly from the massacre. If you have even a few seconds, please just send a prayer up. If you don't believe in a god, then please keep them in your thoughts.
729 · Nov 2012
Homecoming (10w)
Alice Kay Nov 2012
It's so nice having you home again...must you leave?
again........
727 · Jan 2013
Competition
Alice Kay Jan 2013
Those that need to matter,
to be absorbed, they cease to.

Everything that used to matter
now a competition.

Things that need to be well done
with high marks and approving glances
move down to the bottom of the list.

Things that don't matter,
like you,
as suddenly first.

All a competition.
To who will have the final say,
to who will have the final tear.
Idk.....just playing with different ideas.
724 · Dec 2012
Setting sun (10w)
Alice Kay Dec 2012
There's something about the

setting sun

that makes one wanna cry
724 · Jan 2013
Two mannequins in a window.
Alice Kay Jan 2013
We stand facing each other.
each knowing the other is fake.

the only thing that we can do together
is hiding that knowing from the outside world

We will just keep staring at each other
on display in the big front window.
Until the shop closes
722 · May 2013
Signs and Sounds
Alice Kay May 2013
Every teacher, producer, moneymaker.

They fly by with their huge signs and loud prints.

Everything is a constant cramming in

REMEMBER THIS!!

BUY THIS!!

DON'T BUY THAT!! THIS IS BETTER!!

DON'T FORGET TO STUDY FOR THE TEST!!


No one shuts up,

or burns down those signs.


Maybe someday things will get better,

But they won't.

One day our eyes will burn out

our ears blow.


And maybe then we'll have some peace.
706 · Jan 2013
School
Alice Kay Jan 2013
Not a single mistake surpasses
the lash of the pencil.

One small misstep
and the disapproving frown,
the mark on paper.

Life on paper
recorded in marks
in points out of the best.

Which I'll never be.
OMFG just found out I'm going to have a C (or...maybe two...) this quarter, and my parents hardly let me get a B. Ready to die. Help?
703 · May 2013
Final Song
Alice Kay May 2013
I cling onto each note,
each word like a life support system,
and I'm on the decline.
Thanks for paying the hospital bill with
the song,
the words,
the notes
you left behind for me to live off.
700 · Nov 2012
CD
Alice Kay Nov 2012
CD
Play

A sad song plays softly

Skip

Suddenly everything is light and cheerful

Pause

I have time to remember the words for later

Play*

The cheerful song continues on repeat
If only...
Alice Kay Mar 2013
I do think of you sometimes.

Sometimes I even wear the earrings you gave me.

I guess I just wanted you to know you are not forgotten.
I don't regret it. I just wish I said goodbye in a nicer way.
696 · Feb 2013
School rant...
Alice Kay Feb 2013
No matter the grades,
no matter the effort,
no matter the number of "Good job!"s.

Nothing will ever be good enough
for someone else.
696 · Apr 2013
Steady No-More
Alice Kay Apr 2013
Steady, things have been going steady,

starting to be someone new and improved

maybe actually be someone that another guy would like.

But then you appear somehow again

dragging me back into my dreary old life and mind
692 · Apr 2013
To: Skye
Alice Kay Apr 2013
I'm glad she was there for you,

even if it was only an illusion.

If she made you that happy,

then I'm forever grateful.
I'm sorry you have to deal with all of this Skye!!
Alice Kay Jan 2013
Let's all just sing a happy song
smile wide and get along?

XD

SMILE EVERYONE

SING AND DANCE

LIVE LIFE TO IT'S FULLEST

LOVE YOUR NEIGHBOR

LIVE LAUGH LOVE

SPREAD THE JOY TO ALL THE ENDS OF THE EARTH!

XD
Sorrryyy! But I'm really hyper, and like....woah......no way I'm 14, I feel like I'm 7!!!!!! WEEEEE!!!
BEWARE THE ALICE WHEN SHE'S HYPER AHAHAHHAA!!!
683 · Nov 2012
Run to the hills
Alice Kay Nov 2012
The dark clouds roll in
a silence rings about the plains

a silence that's not at all comfortable

suddenly, terror rips across the sky
lighting up all evil inside all living things
good scatters into the far corners of the distant hills
a chaotic darkness falls upon the earth
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