My words must be chosen more carefully
Or rather the wording of the words I choose
I have to practise what you preach this time admittedly
Take a leaf from your book I have avoided and left recluse

Although questions grow tired from uncooperative interrogation
The aggravation gives fuel to my firing questions
So, no, I'm not yet throwing my hands up in resignation
For there is an infinity of other variations

So I'm not giving in quite yet as I said in frustration
And no lessons from our disagreement were learnt
Yet still I in truth have found elevation
And from the fires I was not burnt

My methods may remain unsuccessful
The conclusion always the same
So I speak in a language more celestial
To end our fight by taking all the blame

I loved you most of all
I admired all you were
Your greatness was unachievable
That there was no one I preferred

I was a child back then
And as a child were you loved
But now I am a woman with love renewed
And so I let you go, a Love unbegrudged

Another person stands by your side
Another space for you to lose yourself inside
But my outline still imprinted on your bed
Just with a different body in my stead

You have moved on, or so you say
Your grin apparently growing more each day
But I know her reflection of you is of no compare
To the mirror we held with our smile forever shared

I say sorry when fault is not mine
And speak thanks when not deserved
But now I come to think of it
Apologies and gratitude are to my ears never heard

Too quick to claim responsibility
Even if I have played no part
And not once do I point accusingly
Awaiting any confessions of the heart

So swift do they call me weak
To apparently bow down so far below
But in truth it is them who are trapped
By their weeds that continue to grow

Come to me once more
Let's meet in that place we know so well
Where I never leave but feels so foreign
And where you arrive but seem ever present

I always seem to call out to you
Even though I know you remain with and within me
I guess I just relish the fact that for once when I call
There is always you to answer and respond

You are the shadow that stays by my side when the sun shines down
And in darkness you are the light that always finds it's way into my eyes
You are the air I breathe in that is never breathed out
You are my life that refuses to die

If I could, I would take rather than give
I wouldn't give my life to you
For I do not wish my struggles upon you to pile
Just as I would never pass these gifts into your hands
As their burdens I could never stand to watch you bear
No, I could not give anything more than what I have given before
So I would choose to take once again
-Having taken that space within you
That now holds my love I gave so long ago-
I would take your sickness and cast aside my health
I would take what pains you have and release my safety that I hold
And I would take your fate feared and uncertain
So death may never part us.

We're in court, or so it seems
But who is the judge and who is the jury I'm yet to find out
Stuck in a nightmare that flirts as if a dream
Beckoning me with whispers that bombard my ears in shouts

In confusion a mirage appears so holy as if the Mother
Words of comfort and guidance ensue
Yet their meaning is without clarity and their message undiscovered
Rendering me with doubts that parade as if true

The fog eclipsing clarity washed away with the sunrise
To reveal evidence and proof of my unconfirmed assumptions
Yet still the spectators lean towards my demise
Grabbing at any morsel overruled for their personal consumption