In time apart my heart did not grow fonder
For there is no more fondness into which can be grown
Your absence from my side did not fade you from thought
For memory and foresight kept my loneliness company
My love did not weaken under the weights of doubt and suspicion
For the tricksters stupidly take refuge in my mind
That constantly changes, continues to run
Their images planted remain nothing but a blur
That even in my noticing would bear no detriment
For the love they seek to hinder is far from the battlefields they have chosen

They fight a war in the darkness of their shadow
Tripping themselves and killing their own men
Searching for the light they strive to put out
Their torches of destruction giving more flame to my fire
Burning brightly in the fields out of their reach.

You don't need to remind me
Don't you remember me?
That I am not one to easily forget things-
Good, or bad-
True- you did keep me off the streets
But the money you gave wasn't what I needed in the first place
I never asked for it in the beginning
-nor the many things that came along with it.

You constantly proclaim your good deeds
Which are satisfied by my genuine  thanks
As well as uncalled for honest words of appreciation
But it seems that words and memory are not enough for you
Because you continue to tally up the score
Scratching them deep into my now hardened skin
-No, I will never lose sight of that memory, my love
But the truth, will never be let go to be kept in sight

I don't know how to describe it
This thing I am holding on to
It's so complete in itself, a single truth
But at the same time it is so many things
I hold it so carefully, a crystal ball perfectly fitting my hand
And when I gaze through the absolute clarity
I witness a thousand stars within
Lights of hope that one day will illuminate our skies again
Little ***** of fire burning
So immortal as my love for you is
A universe that is always within reach
That I offer to all to gaze upon freely.

If I can hold onto unnumbered heavens
Surely we can lift up the one we already have

Sleep is not my friend
Yet I continue in my attempts to woo it
This unrequited love tires me
But I cannot rest for rest itself is my enemy
We remain star crossed lovers
Whilst separate we are pulled from each other
Yet when reunited our union is always bliss
Dreams are created as if children of our partnership
And hours pass watching them grow and flourish
In awakening I mourn the departure of the fully developed dreams
An emptiness flickers within that grows throughout the day
Sleep leaves me, for my longing pushes me to the verge of insanity
I am no longer attractive to its eye
And so here I lay as I do every morning
In hope that sleep comes home

Just by chance the taxi drove a little too far
Merely by impulse I decided to go inside
The fluorescent entrance was conveniently right in front on me
why not called temptation and my feet obeyed

Just in curiosity I strolled down unnecessary aisles
Simply by nature I left my soul bare
Swarms of negativity and hummings of positivity flew through me
so what my faithful reassurance comforted me

Just as always I returned insult with compliment
Eyes as ever looking deeper than fantasy
And then I saw her, shredded clothes and body worn
look closer winds whispered from a land unseen

Just in loyalty my eyes studied this woman
And in love I recognized purity that I strive to wield
The evil whisperers are hypocrites in their claiming her *****
and wrong they are too for all I see is light

Our conversations are scarce
But my love for you ever present
You respond to questions of silence unsatisfactorily
Answering in echoes of the question I just posed
You're right, I did not initiate conversation
And in an ice cold world I would feel blame for my loneliness
But, you see, or maybe you don't realize
That I am a woman who loves purely
Maybe I'm old fashioned but I have my smile to prove
That loving in its truest form gives happiness beyond belief
So I stay a woman, and you remain my man
Be a man my love, for I stand behind you always
Act first for I am busy loving.

I'm baffled at your confidence
I would have thought such cunning equaled in intelligence
You prove me wrong yet again
By assuming your words similar in advancement to manipulation

Your arguments have not progressed
As my ability to weave in and out of conversation traps
Like a robot your speech is limited
Triggered by topic of interaction

Your inability to compute my well devised arguments renders you repetitive
"You speak in riddles"Is a line heard much too often
As are those clever attacks questioning my mental stability
But they're too often, my dear, too much you *question your own