No one knows what it's like
to truly be lost
to truly be lost in space
space of which was your home
I don't know whether to miss you
or to erase you
All I know is how much I care
and that the thought of you gone
is too much to bare
I wish you were simple
I wish I were simple too
But now I'm just surviving in the big old blue
without a paddle
without a boat
Without you

I wish I could fix the world
One error at a time
But looking past my own wall
With light passing through
Brick exteriors
I am just another thing fixable
But what more can one do
When all hope is gone
When all love is gone
What is there left to live for?
To sink or to let it be
To close eyes or to see
The little pieces left beautiful
Or the things left unsaid

Looks like this is the only time we'll get to talk
But there will be no response, no chance to go for a walk
This will be the one time you will have to listen
Hopefully I cover it all, and don't leave any importance missing
Here's what I wish I'd say
Here's the inside of my heart on this very day
I wish there was something I could do
To make you see that it was all true
Everybody knew
Yet you did not have even a clue
I wish I could of saved your drowning soul
It was once so beautiful and pure as gold
I hope you know I have a piece of you with me all the time
But if you knew who I was now, it would be such a crime
I'm not the person you raised
In fact, most of the time I'm confused and dazed
I don't have the respect for myself that you taught me
I'm not the person that I wish I could be
I wish you didn't leave me in my time of need
Maybe then you could watch me succeed
Into the beautiful flower that I strive to become
But day after day we were slowly left with none
And here I am.
I am here, standing looking up at what's left of you
I hope one day my dreams come true
Maybe it would someday make you proud
And you'd set free rain unleashed from the clouds
And I'll just close my eyes and smile

I wonder about you
What you must be thinking
If the memories are still lingering
Through your cluttered mind
Maybe they aren't easy to find
But I hope they are there
Because in all honesty I cant help but to care
You were my all
Now you're like a bridge that I've watched crumble and fall
Do you see what your doing?
Don't you feel your heart spewing
And gasping for air
Or is this all too much to bear?
Do you block it out like a barbed wire
Every time you touch the piece to see your desire
It stings.
It burns.
The pain overturns the thought
The memory
So even though you don't know what was said to me
I do, and I feel it
Like a lost commit

Can anyone hear me?
I promise you it's not just what you see
It's a trick, a gimmick, something to search for
It's under the surface and deep through my core
Watch the contentment burst out my seams
And notice how desperately the butterflies want to scream

Its hard to label when one can relate.
Especially when the factors they carry are qualities within yourself that you've grown to hate
You know how they feel.
You're aware of that adrenaline rush when you watch them steal.
You know the sensation in the pit of the stomach when you see them kiss
Its the fulfillment of loneliness, forever dreaded to miss.
When you gaze into those glass eyes and toothy smile,
You recognize the small sense of happiness you wished wouldn't leave after a short while.
When the scars shine through the skin to reveal the freshly cut wounds
You remember that fragile feeling of being trapped in your own little thought cocoon
If only one could escape

We have that sudden silence
That sudden random silence
All due to your acts of violence
that not only damaged my mind
But put bullets through my heart

You think that relationships are an art?
Not exactly.

You give what you can take, actually
and as a matter of fact
you don't give enough to deserve me
You see, I'm like a tree

I have branches, and layers, that not everyone can see
and because of your foul misconception
of choosing someone in the opposite direction
you'll never see my leaves.

You'll never touch the heart on my sleeves
Because people like you, don't deserve trees like me
People like you deserve grime
People that have the inability to shine

And you don't care
Why?

Because finding something meaningful, you wouldn't dare
All that matters to you is the next satisfaction
Treating people as your tissues in this chain reaction
You're right when you said you weren't worth fighting for

*Because you're the last thing I would waste my time to adore