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215 · Oct 2017
Her Zone
Alan Jimenez Oct 2017
She's afraid but of what?
Afraid to let some one in so she keeps that door shut
Shut tight so no one can get in not even the light
But she's smart, oh so smart, so bright
But she doesn't want to get hurt again
She doesn't want anyone to see what's in her head she hates all men
Every man she gave her trust to just used it and showed no appreciation
So now when she talks to some one she talks to them with so much caution
But she goes in thinking she's already going to get hurt
She disappoints her self before she let's them in so she just goes as far as a flirt
In the back of her mind she's tells her self "he's the same"
And she's probably right or she could be completely wrong but she still plays the game
Love is something she just can't believe in anymore
All the times she's herd it, it has no effect but at night she wonders why while she lays on the floor
She remembers everything they told her and how they got into her head
Now she can't sleep at night because she remembers as she rolls around in her bed
She has trust issues and I don't blame her after all she has been through
She build a castle for her self to block everyone out because she thinks nothing is true
Trust issues drive her into a corner where she stands on her own
A place where she's by herself with no one, in her own zone
213 · Nov 2017
Why?
Alan Jimenez Nov 2017
**** I feel so stupid
Why didn't I listen
Why did I let it get this ******* far
I knew it shouldn't have been this hard
I almost let you in
I should have learned from back then
I almost gave you my trust
But I was blinded by your lust
I had a feeling you where playing a ******* game
I had a feeling you didn't feel the same
This is why I don't ******* trust anyone
From the start I should have run
I shouldn't have let it get this far
But I gave you the benefit of the doubt at the start
I thought you where honest
Now I feel so ******* useless
What did he give you that I couldn't give?
You are some one now I just can't forgive
Was I not good enough?
Why wasn't I good enough?
I've lost all love
I just feel so stupid
Why didn't I listen?
207 · Dec 2017
Confused
Alan Jimenez Dec 2017
Before you came into my life
All happiness inside me had began to die
Than you came out the blue
Resurrected what I thought would never be true
Brought that feeling back in me
And I just don't know how that could be
You forced your way in
How did you get under my skin?
But I'm glad you did
There's no one out there like you I'll admit
And I'm not afraid to tell you how I feel
Without you knowing, you helped me heal
You took away the pain
Washed it all away like the rain
But then you said you only wanted to be just friends
I was afraid to lose you so I said yeah but this will soon end
I don't know how to win you back
Those words hurt and then everything went black
Afraid to give it a chance because of someone from the past
But you started this, I was just trying to make it last
At the start we where both all in
Then it was just me, now I'm wondering what happened
**** this ****
That's why I don't let anyone close, I hate it
Where you just a lesson I needed to learn?
Or maybe you where a blessing I have yet to earn
The happiness you made me feel
It just all felt so unreal
That's why I didn't want to let go
But you ended it, now I just don't know
How long will this hurt?
Right now I just feel so subvert
202 · Jan 2018
Beautiful Life
Alan Jimenez Jan 2018
Life is beautiful
Not perfect but we all have our own rituals
We wake up and do what we got to do
How far we'd get from where we once where who'd knew
But there is still along way we got to go
And what life will bring us we will never know
But life is beautiful
There are so many things we got to learn about it still
Every day is a new experience
A lot more than what we knew back then
We were only kids
Just having fun even if they where sins
Life is beautiful
But at the same time it can be so cruel
#beautiful #life #cruel
182 · Jan 2018
No More Fantasies
Alan Jimenez Jan 2018
I thought you where my "happily ever after"
But you ended up being the worst disaster
I gave you everything I had to offer
And you took it all and stood there watching me suffer

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