What got my attention were her thighs
But what I fell for were her eyes
Looking at her lips
But her voices brings me bliss
She knows what it's like to struggle
That's why I know I can't lie and have to be loyal
And when I run my fingers through her hair
Ain't no place I'd rather be but here
While I touch her soft skin
I'm just wondering "where have you been?"
When I hold her hand I hold it tight
I don't want to let go because it feels so right
And when she kisses me I lose my mind
She got me hooked and blind
All I see is her beautiful face
I just want to stay in this place
But then I wake up in my bed
It was all just a dream in my head

She's asking me "Alan why are you so depressed?"
And I'll say "lifes a *****, the time we live in isn't the best"
Every night I'm getting a phone call
Saying someone I love is in the hospital
It's like I'm losing all my people
Karma is coming back to me and she's evil
No one standing next to me just the devil
Everything I touch falls apart I'm losing my mental
Funny how in a crowded place I'll feel so alone
But when I'm alone I feel so comfortable and at home
It's like I don't even have a circle anymore
Everyone has walked out and closed that door
Not even a look back to see if I'm ok
It's like from me they are just trying to get far away
Yet I won't show it to the world

She's looking and asking why
She's sad as she's trying not to cry
But she can't hold back her tears
Her worse nightmare her only fear
She remembers when you where small
How you would get up after every fall
Scraped knee and small scratches
And how you'd run to her for bandaids and patches
She'll kiss your cuts and brusies and make them feel better
But this one injury that she never be able to fix ever
She remembers all the times you told her you love her
And the times you told her you hate her
It hurt her but she knew it wasn't true
And through everything she still loved you
This might not be the same for every person
But when a mother looses a child they regret it because it wasn't worth it
The bond between a mother and child is like no other
It's not even the same between a child and a father
I'm sorry mama for the wrong I have done
I can't repair it so we just got to move on
Please don't be mad at me after tonight
Just know I didn't go out without a fight
But I'm not coming home tonight or tomorrow
This is the the end this is as far as I'll go
Tonight the devil caught me off guard
You lost a child tonight but you got to stay hard
Be strong mama don't break just yet
The things I did weren't always the best but there's nothing I regret
Just keep moving mama don't forget
You still have your life you're still set
But to lose a child is to lose a part of you
It's ok mama I'm with god so you still have to be you so stay true
And one day we'll see eachother again
And you'll be able to hold me in your arms like you did back then

I remember riding around in your vic when I was 3
Had me on your lap felt like I was driving, it felt so free
Your the reason why I'm so into cars
Going on late night drives just to look at the stars
I remember always being in your shop teaching me
Why does life have to be a ***** and not let things be
You we're my role model but your life was taken to early
Funny how things turn for the worse so suddenly
3 shots to the head
2 days later you were pronounced dead
I was only 16 when I lost my grandfather
Wasn't my mom's real dad but he played the role for her
And even to this day it still hits me every now and then
I wish I could talk to you and tell you how lifes been
But your voice is gone
Your memory still lives on
It'll never be the same
And we all know who's to blame

I think about you more than I should
I don't know if it's a bad thing or if it's good
You're constantly on my mind
I just want you here next to me at my side
These feelings I have for you are unfamiliar
But when I'm with you I see things more clearer
I was told once that there is a person out there who will take away my pain
Washing them all away just like the rain
I didn't understand till I met you
Please believe what I'm saying is true
You say I'm smooth with my words but I'm just being myself
I just want you to be comfortable then you told me "don't be anyone else"
Why are you on my mind 24/7
Whenever I'm with you I'm in heaven
When I'm with you my problems go away
Because of you I wake up happy everyday
Yet I still get defensive
I won't show my feelings I hide them
Because I'm afraid you don't feel the same
I don't want to ruin what we have because I'll be the one to blame
I get this warm feeling when you're around it's true
I'll do anything just to see you
Even if it's just for a short amount of time
Because every second with you lasts a lifetime

I just can't help but stare at you
I'm just sitting here enjoying the view
That's when my imagination starts to run wild
If I say I don't want you then I'm indenial
Your eyes show innocence
But you have a guilty pleasure in essence
Tell me what is it that you want
Or let me show you what I got
I'm just trying to get you alone
No need to play games we both grown
If all you want is ***
That's fine by me I think that's best
That's our business the world doesn't have to know
It'll be between us like how it's suppose to go
I'm not here to play with your head
I'm just trying to get you in bed
I like your body and your size
And all I want is to get between your thighs
Because everytime I see you I get these urges
The feeling of wanting to be inside you emerges
So tell me where I'm at let me know where I sit
You deserve to be treated right you've earned it