Days, hours and minutes pass
I count them, waiting for them to amass
my mind wanders around, believing in what could be
it crafted you in a fantasy
blinding me from what I didn't want to see
waiting for it to be pure, to be true
to reflect every dream I wished to get through
but do you count the days as well?
do I even ring your bell?
or is it quite instead?
unlike mine-always disturbed by your knocks
I stand there peeking
a blush sneaking
I smile, and wait still
to open when I know you will

I can feel it ,
another story that's about to end

I got comfortable and again gave too much,
then felt like to you my worth was nothing-
but a one night of fun

or was it my mind playing tricks?
always the same, fooling me more than once

and what's sad , is that I already know what's about to come
but I'll drag it out ,
just to prove myself right
that in the end, I was never worth the fight

I felt a need, you were the muse
a hunger too strong to refuse
it craved you, it stripped you
urging me to taste you
to devour your flesh
to consume you whole, leaving no crumbs

tingling drops of love escaped
begging for us to be near, for us to merge
making us complete

I let my tongue unravel the truth
heavy honeyed words dripped

but sweetness quickly turned bitter,
stinging my sight
drenching my cheeks in guilt, in fright
my love once pure , had rotten to filth

I prayed your eyes would shut there blinds
that your ears would fly , leaving my murmurs behind

I wished death would take you away,
if you ever knew what love made me do

why is it bittersweet
when you wander in my mind
since you sent me your eyes in a frame,
a moment in time, forever confined

you stared ahead , lost in the view
and I wished it was me you were looking through

so hollow and deep , it pulled me near
blurring my sight , dissolving my fear
my world grew smaller, my mind went still
a warmth that burned , yet gave me a thrill

I fear if your gaze ever met mine,
you'd swallow me whole - and I'd think it was divine

historians made it clear
that every moment we lived was dear

that each soul left ripples
shaping the world in ways untold

remembered or not
they had their time, both bold and slight

and just like a fallen fruit that feeds the ground
you too will leave, your echoes profound

when sadness is a lesson
so you learn and accept
                                                           
and when happiness is a blessing
stuffing a radiant energy within

when all you have is nostalgia
you become glad , wishing you could have it back

when you love
you worship something other than god

and when your heart aches
echoes of the past linger in all its chambers  

a core full of people
full of memories
full of life

Cheers to the mirror cracked and unkind
to the hunger that pampered comfort into my mind

cheers to the days when fullness felt like sin
when the emptiness begged and I let it in

cheers to the scars on my skin
ones I wish could fade
only to return
tied to my fate