Have you ever felt so fluttered,
That you need to dream?
I once saw an Angel,
With warm blonde hair and soft cream cheeks.
Freckles were scattered all about the face,
And his eyes were peaceful through his glasses.
Did I mention his tone?
A gentle lilac of laughs and no harm.
His bandanna holds the sweet sweat that lays on his forehead.
Hair pushed back,
And mouth full of silver goodness.
Must I remind you,
This angel wears whatever he wants to wear.
From ugly sweaters, to rugged band shirts.
Hair so blonde,
It hides within his skin.
You look around,
You won't find this type of angel.
This angel seeks peace like any other angel,
But yet differs.
This angel makes me dream soft,
Makes me flutter.

Take a breath,
scratch those meaty pecks and arms.
Pantyhose, hot air, sweaty heads.
I feel the anger in my fist.
Cheese, secured doors and rooms,
Nothing but yelling and screaming in my head.
Liquor, ice, cold floors.
I hesitate, bare to move a muscle on the bed.
The cold winds freeze my fingers, I can't text you back.
Rough nights, feet fights, lip biting parties every Saturday.
I punch the room, you think I'm clingy.
Hungry for everything,
Yet don't want anything.
I sit back and watch destruction of bombs and nudes from my window.
Isn't thou so lovely?
Churned stomach, gasping for air, gasping for school to end.
God. Has. A. Plan.
Lingerie silk on the kitchen counter.
Feeling on the gold.
Static TV wrecking my ears and mind.
I love the smell of liars in the air.
Does this make sense to you?
If not, look within yourself.
Everything has a symbol, irony, metaphor.
Slap that lion for attention,
He'll roar till the moon is full.  
Think what you see on this page.
I'll catfish your soul and succulent body.

You only like me when you're bored.

I crush hard,
Let me admit that.
I try not to flounder on it,
Or procrastinate on it.
Nor do I want these feelings.
These feelings only lead me to destruction.
If my feelings do have a positivity on it,
I let them flourish.
I just go too deep in too soon.
Without having a caution sign.
I try to stay low.
Away from my feelings.