I used to wake up from scary dreams but now my dreams have become reality
And dreams are the great escape

It's scary to feel alone
But more scary to feel alone
With someone
With friends and family
She's swept under an old rug
Dust particles dance in the wind
And the rhythms dont match
Her clothes neither
Some odd denim jeans
And a torn shirt
She hated new
And embraced the old
Experience and wisdom
Like an owl calling out
From it's perch

The grass isn't greener on the other side
That ***** is dead
Dead like the leaves crusting over on the sidewalk
Dead like the heart you don't even bother to acknowledge
I heard you
You know
I listened
You know

A friend is like a ball
You bounce it and it leaves but it always comes back

A lover is another story
It leaves and when it's gone it's gone for good

People need to learn the importance of a friend

Would you rather a life where you are guaranteed joy and laughter everyday

Or a week holiday banked with amazing *** and pure ecstasy
Then gone the following Monday

A friend is a ball with a plan
A lover is a plane with no landing

If you could
Hold onto love you would squeeze it
Suffocate it
'til it's capillaries are bursting
Pretty blues and purples would rise
Coating the reds and oranges that we're used to
Ud grab it by the neck carelessly
Sink your teeth into it
With no second thoughts
Your heart would be racing
And the passion
spot on
Legs vibrating from excitement
' not wrong !
Not wrong until the birds stop their song
And the bees stop their buzzing
The silence grows long
And the love is just gone

it was that moment
when pain conquered health
and she realized
i need help

uneducated
illprepared
not ready
going no where
buzzing noises
shakes
heartbreaks
realizations
interpersonal
internalize
you dont even understand
or begin to see
the ways ive tried