as time speeds up
the world slows down

as the world slows down
the people lose hope

when the people lose hope
the music goes quiet

the curtains close
the doves stop flying

the world isnt sleeping
the world is dying.

i am exactly like you mom
i have your blonde hair
the curls
the long lashes

i talk just like you
to be frank
i am your mini me
but something about me is different

where you seek love
i seek to lose it

three words
i havent said in probably 3 years
maybe longer

compliments
i dont do compliments
i do insults
or complex
complicating
evading
  
being elusive and ****
with a dark sided twist

i dont know
i feel like the world
always owes me
like ive been robbed at gun point
by my own silver bullet

sometimes i wish that
i could just **** well do it

get it over with
you know

load it
point it
**** it
blow it

but the problem is
i'm just like you

i'm too afraid of
jumping hoops

picking them up
and setting the rest of the world on fire
spinning the rings
on my left thumbs
typing up poems
because in person
i just sound dumb
........

i stopped writing
when i realized the world stopped reading
i stopped singing
when the world stopped listening
i stopped living
when the world offered me
dead beings
slobs
addicts
worthless
a-holed
throw me in a hole
dig it so deep that
it could fit me you and your dog
before we both get old
too old to ****
too old to love
too old to reason
too old to stop and
feel the season change
the world painted full of flowers
the kind my mother put in my hair
on the day when love was born
little did she know
that love was never sworn
in
it didnt last
it never lasts.

Family
Friends
Coworkers
Strangers
Partners
Rings
Wrongs
Rights
Why's
Tries
Lies
Goodbyes
Thighs
But still
Alone
Single
Lonely
Little

The storm is brewing
The wind spits parked cars left right and center
Sometimes I'm in the middle of the universe
Wide eyed
Confused
And lost
Alone and scared
Locked in a cage like a bird
Gripping to metal bars
And poor sounding electronica
Dancing all night
And sleeping all day
Hands blistered
Trying to hold on
While the world spins too fast
Change is too hard
Time is too short
Kids are too young
Adults are too old
Something has to give
Because standing in the middle
Makes me forget the reasons
Of why I should live

I always think drinking solves everything but the only thing solved is realizing that everybody is always drinking with others to have fun and I'm always drinking alone to ....
Exist.
Escape.
Erase.
Arouse.
Unwind.
But it never works.
It.
N   E
  V
    E
R
Works.

When people talk does it hurt you too? The stares the glares the smirks the curses cross your heart and stick a needle in your eye not your arm although sometimes blood is beautiful like a river until its running down your legs and you can't seem to stop it

Please stop it
(To be continued..)