To the girl that never came
I would like
You to know
I am still waiting

They told me
Something better
Around the corner
Is just waiting
But she never came

I have been waiting
By the window
Around the corner
On  the phone
And on my own
But she never came

I wish she only knew
I have been weeding
A very sacred place
For our love to grow
On a daily base

As hope ran away
Some where dark
I would rather , not say
Did she ever hear
The song of my
Humming bird heart

Now lost its voice
I wish she would
Consider me a choice
bended  knees  
I am still asking

Oh God
My friend is now helping
Dignity needs saving
Catch me God
My heart is breaking

As I am still waiting  
For the girl
That never came

I am a floating weightless rabbit
So let me bring a soft spring
As my fury pads
Softly pass like a
Silky silent stream
Still in silence you must be
If you ever wish to see me
As I am so very shy
And will soon fly
As I meet the world
With a gentle touch
While I dance and play

Many lords and land owners
Clumsily wade and trample
Over life and emotion
Colorful cars and coats
Controlling , as I am bulldozed
Out  to societies edges
Sharing land with farmed animals
Who have long since lost
Their control on fate
As we are left like
Miserly maggots just surviving

Looking up at grand stately home
A  bubbling , curdling
And Blood thirsty envy
Rises  up in me
What am I saying
Have I lost mind  
For  I am vegetarian
No jealousy in me
As I can only lightly nibble
At the great green abundance
The world always offers me

Never seeking to change
The outside world
Like stampeding ego's
Building boundary fences
I spend my time only
Seeing and understanding
As i borrow deeper and deeper
How deep can  go  
Breaking away from above
I feel as free as a dove
Sinking searching deeply
I love this hidden world
A deep internal Love
Exploring many pathways
While always feeling protected
From the clashing worlds above
As i feel the earths embrace
My heart unfolds into
An unlimited space

Very many are we
Common are we
So common you see
Wearing our grey coats
We are a mediocre day
We have such an ordinary way
As I  vanish into grey
Such a blissful way
As there is more expansion in
Grey than there is ever in
The confines of great expectation
As nothing warms my heart more
Fondly than the simple life on
The edge of town , where
The grass is green and tender
So in this blending  relaxation
How ordinary can I be

In a humble state
I pop in , pop out
Pop up , pop down
Never needing to
Challenge and conquer
As I live lightly under
Softly accepting and accepting
As the world drops my importance
I am found completely free
Listening and listening
I drop into a watchful silence
As I navigate the world
With the most delicate  foot
As I lightly tickle the world
I hear the earth's laughter

Living life like a weightless Rabbit
We find out life much easier to face
As we humbly embrace our place

Turning into peach
I feel a tender baby
My young ****** heart
Unspoiled by the world
Like a seed it carries
All my future growth

Living within an empty casket
A vessel of infinite space
The hardest peach stone
Two half's , In GODS two
Hands he holds me tight
Within the hardest rock
I feel cradled and protected
Trusting the whole
As it carries me safely

Shinning brightly within
My blistering white core
Curled up deeply
My space , I site silently
Contemplating peacefully
As all attacks from the
World can not touch me
My chest expands with the
Growing space inside me
Where I feel the world
And my love ,which
Sit beside me

Rolling outwardly I radiate
Yellow like the sun
Shining brightly
As I feel many flavored
Layers of delicious juice
Wrapped in my body
Bathed in a fleshy beauty
I am rich in blissful
Golden bounty

As I reach out
I touch the world
With a delicate hair
On my furry surface
Of soft carpets and sofa's
Fluffy blankets and cushions
Where hearts and souls
Collapse into lovers arms
With abandoned minds

As we roll around
In each other charms
With the ease of
Bended knee's
As we hear resonatingT
Tones of humming
Heart strings collide
As our empty center's
Can only attract
As we fall and embrace

As together in Intimacy
We turn into delicate peach

I am the lazy
Laid back surfer
Lounging and living
Drinking cocktail martini's
With my disheveled hair
My parent despair
For what is the hurry
Making no impulsive decision
For why the hurry
With so much of this fun
In this beautiful sun
As I talk to Dave
Waiting for the perfect wave

When forces of financial
Destruction smash against me
Wave after wave
Wash over me
As I am a rock and
Nothing penetrates you see
As I am the cliff that pushes
Back at rough sea
As a thousand years of
Character are washed
In my rock face
For I am the perfect surfer
Simple needs, dry perspective
As it is only really money

Standing on my board
I remain on top
As I am always objective
Swallowed by no
subjective under current
I keep myself in balance
Never engulfed by emotion
Like the many that fall
As I sail over emotion
Like the eagle sails over sky
Wiped out before
I now stay on top
Because I know where to stop
And remaining alert in
These financial waters
For there is a slight risk
Of meeting great whites

I am the perfect surfer
And surfs up today
Well rested I move swiftly
As I seek the giant wave
The perfect cycle
As I slip into the tunnel
Of the perfect wave
With water and emotion
All around me , I remain
Dry and objective
As i enjoy the thrill and spill
As white waters splash I dash
And dance and play
On the waves today
Effortlessly gliding
I feel the blissful froth
As i am taken further
And further

Life would be so much easier
If we could all learn from
The perfect surfer

I am the queen of the sea
And when you swim with me
Hightoned is your awareness
As my super senses spill over
And danger catapults you
Into higher states
As I hunger for life
With a ferocious appetite
As my jaws propel me forward
As I bit into life I clamp
Myself into this precious world
loosing teeth as I bit
With a detailed precision
But the power of my hunger
Replaces tooth after tooth
Feeding desire I swim freely

All flee from me as they
Build higher and higher
Towers far above
But no one escapes me
As I will always swim faster
For I am the Queen of death
They only wish to meet me
In a cozy bed space ,a sleepy place
Unaware that they are even alive
But they miss the marriage
Of life and death
As I am both black and white
And offer Life and death
As I am the GREAT WHITE

My eyes black holes of nothingness
Swallow the world of life
So dare you stare into me
Eyes , a bottomless abyss
As I am the black sphinx
So I hope you have done
Your homework like
Jesus and budha before you
As I am the ultimate test
The perfect mirror
And most honest voice
As only the biggest souls can
Look and find the bottom of me
As they transcend all
Because in their death
I offer them life

Great are those who stare at me
Greater are those who look and took
For death is my very nature
As my being will feed  
On  your ego with
Every day you stay near
Often hunting alone as the
World see's  me as a devil
But I truly only follow my nature
For if i am not supposed
To be this way
Then why did GOD make me
The world tries to shoulder me
With expectation
But I swiftly pass through
As I have no shoulders
For I am totally free
As I glide and float
Never hurried but always fast
As I Go for it and Go for it
No shackles on me
I am just free

No where is the marriage
And spiraling dance
between Life and death
Seen so clearly than in the
Black eye of the GREAT WHITE

Caught in the snares
of beauty
I am a willing victim

As I lie next to Tate
Naked in many ways

As I am lost in every
Curve and lock of hair

             As she proclaims
               " YOU ARE ****
                  YOU ARE **** "

I paint over my nerves
with directionless words
of work and horses

Returning  to me a bright smile
with  sparkling eyes
she climbs onto me  giggling

          And says  
           "YOU LOVE HORSES
             YOU ARE A GOOD PERSON
              AND YOU ARE **** "

Dumbfounded by her words
But i feel no need to question  
For i am wiery soul that seeks rest
So gather your lies around me
So I may shelter in your branches    

Tell me your
       Sweet lies
Take my money
  I will close my eyes

As I bury my sight like
A mole in his hole
A dark insecurity
Eyes shut like a baby mouse
Not ready for the world

But on opening my eyes
I see her unmoved
Striking eyes fixed on me
Wide open like nets
As though collecting
All my past mistakes
Grinding them into two shiny pearls
As she looks back into me            

And with a russian accent she says
              " I  NO LIE
                  I  NO LIE"
she shakes her head
                "  YOU ARE **** "
Fumbling hands reach out of my heart
Wishing to catch such words
But they are spilled
As my disbelieveing soul
Is already full with  rejection
Mine or the worlds
It has all become blurred

But I care not for my heart rests easy
As I am filled with  gratitude
Letting  my Love just flow and flow

As Golden Eagle soar
  Elegantly I do glide
Within a weightless pass
As I hold no heavy heart
Burdened by this world
chest leaning towards the sky
As my heart seeks heaven
For why would I worry
About my standing
when I
Already
own  the sky
For I seek the highest perception
  As I float on my expansive vision

Earth bound legs
With jealous eyes may
Hold me in their sight
Seeking to entangle me
In their ego nets
But I see all curves and corners
With my laser sharp vision
With my hooked beak
I penetrate
Into hidden places
And why
when I
have
Divorced the earths pain
As my silky soft underside
Feathers breath a harmonious
Silence which they can not hear
And my white under coat
Disappears high up above
As my ego vanishes
For they can not see me
But I can
still see them

I removed the temptation
To work to hard
By being born without arms
As I sail through life
With an effortless embrace
But do not think because
I speak to angels
I can not survive
For when the time is right
To feed on this earth
My focus falls like a stone from the sky
As I let gravity do my work
Remaining conscious that
My shadow does not disturb

Even when I feel the
Winds of the world
Blow against me
I never say NO
NO NO NO
To this world
Digging myself into dark
Unforgiving narrow caves
Where I bury myself in an early
Grave as I turn my back on life
For the more ferocious
The turbulent winds of change
The higher I fly
As I can not be defeated
By the fiery breath of wolves
So huff and puff
And blow my sails some more

As I remain open and open
So very OPEN
As I stretch myself freely
I say YES
AND YES  
To any chaotic winds
That blow my way
As I collect and proclaim
TO THE WORLD
Yes Yes Yes
As I am lifted HIGHER
AND HIGHER
AND HIGHER
With every breath
Of my open heart
As I sail far and beyond
As though strings lifted me
By angels in heaven
As I avoid emotional perils
As I blaze freely
My feathers Glaze in the sun
And I soar higher and higher
As I sail over every storm

When listening to an Eagle
golden wings , floating freely
We become a witness
As we rise in waves of natural bliss