everyday, i'm getting older
i feel less alive
and the days are getting colder
even in the summertime
ghosts upon my shoulder
i can't hear what they say
i have so much potential
i feel nothing but pain

nothing matters now
my world is upside down
i just want to give up
i'm already know i'm ******

pushing through it all
what's even the point?
it's a long tunnel
and nothing's at the end
nothing but death
take away my breath
because i barely breathe
i'm just a waste

all i want
is a release
the after life
a little taste

i know that
i'm not light enough
for you to love me.

it's not a secret
you have to hide.

I don't think
you ever realized
nor did I,
that after
every time
you used me,
you insulted me,
you mocked me,
you abused me,
after every time
you ignored me
and hurt me
and broke my heart
you manipulated me
after every single
******* time
you tried to call me
your ******* friend
afterwards
you never thought
that I'd turn around
and attempt
to try to ******* **** you.

If you were dead,
I'd feel relived
yet I'd be saddened
by the fact
that I can't feel
your miserable
worthless flesh
with more pain
and misery
and regret.

I have absolutely
no sympathy for you.
I'm cold
I feel nothing
I'm ruined
I'm destroyed
I'm violent

in my mind
in my head
it means i'm safe
it means i'm sound
it means i'm complete
it means
i can be intimate
it means
you see me
it gives me energy
you're my everything
it means
you love me
you love my skin
you love my scarf
you are my safety
i am seen
you are my joy
you are my light
you are my comfort
you are my happiness
like i'm a little normal
like i'm allowed to be a person
i'm allowed to exist
you are my partner
you are my everything
that's what it means
when you say you love me

from pagan origins,
to new found love,
a pigeon flies down,
or is it a dove?

my heart's desire
is bright and red
just as those
that have bled

i wish to leave you
a little note
so that you may ponder
on what i wrote:

as spring unblossoms,
new hearts unfold
like origami
out of my chest
i just want
you to know
that out of everyone
i love you best
although i think
that you are vile,
and that my love
is childish,
in my dreams
and imaginations,
my desire for you
is wildest.

with that being said,
sealed with a kiss,
i hope this letter,
finds you well,
and i pray to eros
and i truthfully tell you
that you are missed
and i hope
inside your heart
it does swell

inside your heart,
like inside mine,
i hope you feel
my love of thine
i ask of this
with a hope
of every kind;

will you be
my valentine?

I'm in my little corner
looking at your shadow
holding a red balloon
and standing perfectly still

In my little corner
looking out the window
waiting like a spider
waiting right at the window sill

I, won't bite too deep
I, won't bite too hard
I'll just rip your head off,
I'll just tear you apart

I'll just corrode your mind
I'll just break your heart,
I'll just your rip your head off
I'll just tear you apart

It's a mirror,
it's a reflection,
it's karma,
it's gone

your eyes and
your body
they glimmer
they've shone

shown theirselves
in my peripheal vision
I feel it
it's real

your humor
your pale lips
on my stomach
I feel it

Oh, oh, I, won't bite too deep
Oh, oh, I, won't bite too hard
I'll just rip your head off,
I'll just tear you apart

I wanna sink and swim
in you like a painting
of a japenese ocean
I wanna rock and grind with you,
******* in ****** motions
I wanna drown and sway with you
like tall cat tail grasses
I want my tongue in your mouth,
it'll taste like molsasses
and we'll go slow like molasses,
and we can see whose the fastest,
who the last is, who lasts the longest
whose the weakest, whose the strongest
who will be first to forgive?

And I, won't bite too deep
I, won't bite too hard
I'll just rip your head off,
I'll just tear you apart

I'll just corrode your mind
I'll just break your heart,
I'll just your rip your head off
I'll just tear you apart