Aahana

Aahana 2d

Pouring

Guess I wasn't hurt
When your hands cut through my skin
When i made the mistake of thinking of you as my healer
Every inch and every corner
Those hips you wish you rode
And those thighs you always adored
You bled me out
Wish it would've been just blood
My soul evaporated from my body
As the dense clouds of your ghosts appeared right in front of me
And when the shock became too unbearable
I fell down, pouring every part of you that was ever me.

Aahana Jul 19

lifeless

I wish I could go back
Stop me from trying to fall for someone
Who'd ruin the means of survival in these lifeless never ending days
You pulled a trigger to my heart to make it all yours
****** all the love away
As you complained about the taste of my bitter heart
Every inch of my cell lingered with your name
All this for a man who wouldn't be touched by anyone without a 6 inch stick
And now I'm left lifeless
Breathless
Loveless.

Aahana Jul 19

tears

Tears glisten into my eyes
Like a bookmark to the ghosts of my haunting past
The version I burned and buried
And left deep behind in the past
Treated my tears like ecstacy
Holding onto each drop
Till they turned holes into my throat
As they burn marks all over my face
The ashes gathered and breathed through the mist of my helplessness.

Aahana Jun 29

name

If it were up to me
I would've laid under the sky everyday
Counting the stars as they call upon your name
Maybe I'd become one too
Before you call upon my name.

Aahana Jun 17

The last dog

10 dogs line up in a lonely street
As the gun reloads with only 1 shell
why should I save you? They roar back
All of them bark one by one
Someone is smart, someone is pretty
One barks better than the others
One fetches, one helps out others
As the 9 dogs give the explanation to why they don't deserve this gruesome treat
The last confused dog can't even bark that well
"I don't know what I'm good at, I don't know what to do with my life"
As it utters the last word, Death knocks on the door of his life as it leaves a terrible world behind
All the 9 Dogs laugh knowing it wouldn't have survived anyways, A clueless confused dog is as good as dead in a world where one second can decide the fate of millions of people
the dog was maybe a born loser or destroyed by those who envied it
Who'd know if it didn't know what to do itself.

Aahana Jun 17

Clueless

Birds chirping out the window
Rain washing away all our sins
in between all these my dreams rust
as the sunlight hits my eye
Everybody is on same pedestal of high's and low's
But I'm stuck here in the middle
Being too good for the ants
And incapable to roar as loud as the lions
Is this who I'm gonna be the rest of my life
A clueless mediocre stupid deer
Waiting for the day a car runs over me
As all the rest of them did.

Aahana May 5

Wondering why

It's all over
And I'm here again
those 5 months of complete sorrow and helplessness
A need to prove myself
just to get stabbed in the chest by those 3 painful words
"You messed up"
Was it really my fault for giving my everything and still not being good enough?
Or am I destined to suffer in every walk?
My mom says that God puts me in these situations because I'm strong
But maybe, I'm not strong enough to make it through it all
Maybe life was better when the only thing I was worrying about was Academic pressure
Now it's almost morning but I'm out here wondering where did I go wrong?
Certainly I wouldn't have made it even if I gave my everything
So should I leave it as it is
Leave my dream behind
or should I step into the war again
I will keep wondering why
I will keep wondering why