And I'm mad in love
waiting on a bad love
always got a bad plan
falling for a bad man
i have such a bad life
giving such a bad vibe
people want a good time
i just want a good night

they tell such a good lie
there are no good byes
people want a good time
i just want a good night

always checking
always watching
just let me be
free
always waiting
always hoping
when you leave me,
really hit my pain point
my going insane point
twisting on the same joints
i don't really get the point
of ever being love
when it just leads to blood
when it just leads to
nothing

I cried
a little bit
but the tears aren't real

I was used
a little bit
but I can't even feel

even feel, even feel
no I can't even feel
no more pain, no more pain
cause' it wasn't ever real

I cried
a little bit
But the pain isn't real
I cried
a little bit
But the pain isn't real

I cried, and I cried,
I cried oceans and tides
I tried, and I tried
to ever find love
I cried a little bit to no avail
I cried a little bit just to go to hell
I cried a little bit just for a little help
I cried a little bit as if I were in jail
I cried a little bit for my ship to sail
I cried a little bit just to be impaled
I cried a little bit until my eyes turned pale
I just a cried a little just to not be helped
I cried a little bit just to not be held
I cried a little bit just to not be felt
I cried a little bit just to sit and melt
Like a glacier in your heat
I'm too cold and I'm too neat
Can't even feel my heart beat
Can't even breathe, don't wanna eat

god knows I need you
I see the vision with a clear view
I feel desires otherworldly,
my cloudy mind is seethrough
the pathway is foggy
i'm living in a fever dream
i'm drowning in a river stream
my limp body craves you
i want to enslave you
force you into loving me
the pain is pushing shoving me
what has become of me?
what has been done to me?
what will end with me,
and what has begun with me?

i dont care if he hates me
i dont care if he blocks me
god what if he forgot about me
what if i was nothing
i was always nothing
but i always love you

Don't wanna go outside unless I'm smoking.