Ashley Lopez

Aug 2014

AllAtOnce

it's 12:58
again
just like any other night
lying awake
because the night before
i dreamed of you
again
and then never heard from you
what am I in for?
what's my offense?
i'm so sick of this
who wrote the rules to this game
again?
well I don't want to play
but if I do I want to win

UUUGH.

#silence #games #again

Ashley Lopez Aug 2014

Untitled

It's hard to put words to feelings I don't fully understand
But it's like I'm drowning
And
Everyone is just watching
And the few times someone throws me a lifesaver
I'm too focused on me trying to keep afloat
That I don't see it

Someone asked me what depression is like

#sad #depression #help #drowning

Ashley Lopez Aug 2014

You are

You are...
Whenever someone asks us this, we all tend to start making a list of adjectives.
You are: loving, compassionate, outgoing, enthusiastic, funny, awesome..
SHUT UP.
You are more than a list of silly adjectives.
You are a galaxy, constantly expanding with new experiences and new hurt.
You have billions of stars burning inside of you, each with a different story engraved within them.
You are your scars, the physical ones seen on your body and the ones on the stars only you know are there.
You are the heartbreaks and the sleepless nights.
You are the bottle of ***** you drank to wash away all of your heartbreaks.
You are the pain you've caused other people and the pain other people have caused you.
You see I would keep going but I am no more than you.
It's time you finish this poem on your own.
You are...

#stars #galaxy #new #you #inspiration #motivation #inspirational #beginning #expand #youare

Aug 2014

rachel

Shards

I felt broken today
I felt as if everyone who looked at me saw how torn I was
As if they were counting how many pieces of him were stuck in my skin like broken glass
Little bits and pieces stuck everywhere he ever touched me
How can they possibly count them all

Aug 2014

elizabeth

addiction

you are cigarette sticks just lit,
you are a fresh wound on an old stitch.
a disorder spun out of control,
watching as madness takes hold - clutch
breaks - what happens next - your
life begins to unfold. creases form like
scars that never quite leave, mistakes
we break, we drown and we bleed.
i can't live without them is the greatest
lie: love kills you from the inside out,
toxic chemicals rampage fire through
your veins: hooked, hooked, hooked
lined and sunk; funny how we continue
to live with it only because we die with it.

#addiction #thoughts #ink #realism #tumblr #emotions #spilled #scars #trigger #12am

Ashley Lopez Aug 2014

The Me That Used to Be

He took me
He used me
He ruined me
From the inside out

All that's left
Is me standing in front of the mirror
Staring back at the shattered shards
Of a me that used to be

He took me
He used me
He ruined me
From the outside in

All that's left
Is me standing in front of the mirror
Staring back at a damaged reflection
Of the me that used to be

He took me
He used me
He ruined me
From my mind to my soul

All that's left
Is me standing in front of the mirror
Staring back at a reflection put back together using bandaids
And wounds washed away using cheap alcohol
A reflection that's trying to be the me that used to be

First draft. But I hate what he did to me.

#broken #abuse #shattered #glass #****