Sing me a song.

     Of how you love me.

Even if it's a lie.

      I don't care at all.

i want to be wrapped in someone's arms,
and told that i'm loved.

d.l.b.

Only after you lose

you realize

you hadn't done enough.

I cry in secret,
silent sobs shake me.
Tears roll quietly
and    fall    wasted around me.
Leaving a taste of disdain from showing weakness.

I resent what you have made me become.
You can beat me
damage me with your words     and      hands.
Ill never expose the impact of you
c r u s h i n g    me.

I cry
In secret
quiet sobs shake me.
You will never have the satisfaction of seeing me cry.
Or the realization of how badly
you     have     broken
me into pieces.

today at 10:55 a.m. a man died.
today at 11:00 a.m. I ate lunch
today at 10:10 a man was hungry for air.
today at 11:10 I was hungry for lunch
at 10: 30 a.m. a man was given morphine
at 11:30 a.m. i was given a prayer
at 10:50 a.m. a wife was cursing god
at 11:50 a.m. I was feeding someone who was dying in front of me slowly
at 11:00 am. a wife was dying inside alone
at 11:04 p.m. I was drunk
at 11:05 p.m. I was alone
at 11:05 p.m. I was

Back to my old ways
The old days
Life was simple
kids were little
Cooking for family
Sweet in purpose
Prime and reason
Family time best
Around the table
Struggle street
It was okay
Ends were met
Some days difficult
Love to play
Keep kids busy
Wear them out
Till lights out
Goodnight kids
Sleep tight
Sweet dreams
School tomorrow
You will be busy
I watch you sleep
Peaceful and sweet