take me and break me
a ragged doll
my porcelain skin cracked open and your shadows creeped in
i try to hold myself together
but it's hard when someone else holds the strings
        how do you do it?
i am full of holes
you spill out of me like blood from an open wound
        how could you do it?
you made me into nothing
i am still in awe
still curious
am i your muse or your monster?

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I'm shivering of cold
and I don't know if it's the fan
turned on in my room
or rather
the absence of you

When the pain become too much .... salvation may come in the form of unconsciousness

You are far but your warmth surrounds me as though you are lying next to me

Last night I dreamt of you
You were there alive and bold
And I woke up wishing you were there to hold
Although the dream ended with loosing all my riches
The happiness of you being there had me in stitches
The dream wasn't long nor was it short
It was just enough for me to feel your support
And when I awakened with a smile upon my face
It was the first time in ages I hadn't felt misplaced
So tonight again when my head touches my pillow
I hope you'll join me under the weeping willow

My Best buddy  
You claimed to always be there
my rock
We never knew it would happen
But then you changed
You outgrew me
No contact
No explanation
Just silence

Your silence has said more to me than your words ever did