do you wanna see the stars tonight
turn off the lights look in the mirror
your eyes ll shine so bright

Hello, my name is Dennis Drain, I am 17 years old and currently attending Silver Creek High School as a junior. My school has officially made changes to its curriculum to fit a big picture school. In this form of schooling students explore there interests and gain high school accreditation threw the real world work they do in the community. In speaking to my advisory teacher Mr. Topp we have found that having an interview with a musician who knows the business would positively impact my career. I have great interest in the rap industry. I have allot of lyrics that I have wrote and would like to start recording. As part of my semester goals I would like to start to build a foundation of musicians, lyricists, company leaders, and producers. You can contact my advisory teacher Mr.Topp during the hours of 9:00 Am and 3:30 Pm at the schools number (208)-578-5060 or through email at [email protected] . I would be able to do the interview via Skype, Facetime or Googlechat.  Please help me in attempting to chase my dream through hard work, persistence and the community you belong to. You can contact me personally via email at [email protected] facebook or by phone at (208)-720-0961 ask for Dennis. Thank you for your attention to this email, I look forward to speaking with you in the near future.
                                                         ­                                                                 ­                  - Dennis Drain
                                                           ­                                                                 ­                  ZtickZ

when night comes around i turn that frown upside down
i know its time to party
even if im sittin in my room
thats 1 person to this 8th of shrooms
smokin **** in the bedroom    
i got a back door so i open it
straight up i be scopin it
no 5O then im smokin it
get to the homboys house
they ask me if i got **** to smokin em with
pullin out a half ounce
and tell em we can start with this
40 sippin me and my ****** dippin
smashin on these ******* that be trippin

Open up the door to a better world.
What can I say, it looks a lot like yesterday.
Where I cant see anything but a better way
Livin is simple and killin isn't a thing

From a dead sleep

what if i die 2night who would cry or even lose sleep at night
a worthless ******* livin life by the gun and the knife
im lost never to be found spittin lyrics so profound
****** know not to **** around
im ready to die and straight props to the man who can do me in
cuz aint no easy feat to **** a G. like me
thats why i ride the way i do
i fight the dead but i dont fear the livin cuz ***** im down with the killin
ima die young for the words i speak im just waitin for my time to go
when i do the ****** who did me in just know im comin back 4 you
one by one you ****** gonna be done
**** life like 2pac gonna live it even when im gone
death before dishonor im ready to live it a lil longer but im goin soon
babby G's. how

past and future mixin in the present
makin everything we do and say more relevant
slippin could mean enden the lives of the innocent
the ones who live side by side by the life but ain't in it
never did the dirt we done but to often there's a crying mother holding her dying son
who was truly too young
never wanted the fight and was afraid of guns

Look.... Look
I see it an you dont,
Fame is my antidote.
Blowin, smokin, oh my god!
Livin life like I won it all.
While I struggle on my way
Turnt looks remindin me that I was ment to be the entertainer
Cuz I attract attention like a celeb.
Sittin on corners tradin money for product so I can get ahead...
In the struggle every day.
Afraid this waight is gonna make en take my life away...
But 1 day my face is gonna be what you see when you think of takin less than nothin and turnin it into to a dream....

Look,
          in my homies ride i see through smoke half the time,
burnin down ounces faster than gas soaked houses.
catchin attention from every person we pass, reakin of grass
Police on our *** thick smoke makin em laugh,
can't hear **** over the bass,the knobs stuck on max.
Treble don't exist in this 96, playing instrumentals while i roll  joints thick with the flick of my wrist
This ain't our last ditch effort its what we doin daily *****
Black hoodie crew goes hard all black and red no blue

Lets make a choice, To use our voice,  be a nation, who prides its self on patients. And personal relations.
Lets stop the politics of presidents and leaders who's voices are conceded. Making speeches that teaches greed  and preaches concepts of needed conformity  of the minority to to the majority.
Lets start voting art into the office that questions normality and helps young minds blossom and think extraordinarily.
Stop with the  concepts of currency over humanity. Our people are what matter,
let's make the world free instead of lying for popularity pleading  that were still. A great country

Yeah,,... Everywhere I Go people asking me to prove that I am down as f* a real as I say
All I can do comma espoma red Breakout take two steps touch chest to chest let you know it's on one and ask you if you m**** want to throw down cuz I'm always G. If you want to fight boy put them up I'm going to put you in your *** tonight boy

There's a reason I do drugs,
Weather it because my mom did em when she was carrying me,     OR,
If it was because my mom was to young, her friends were all crazy and as much as i yearend for a sibling i was the only one.
I don't mind that i spend all my time and hard earned money on them,
But everybody says it's just a hole,
I'm 18 and one poem can't tell the world my story,
I eat em, smoke em, drip em, or snort em till they're all gone,
I wanna Wright a song but sober it fells like i can't turn on,
Blond hair and blue eyes, if only the world would uncover all my lies,
I have this one friend of mine, she's not to much but when she's around i stay up all night thinking of the fame and city lights,
Once when i was 10 i found my good friend, spent some time together, then i started telling her i was gonna make myself famous.
if you were around i would hide her and even when she was yellin at me you couldn't here a sound.
Id conversate with her when it got late, I'd tell her all my young thoughts and i would keep speaking until i heard my grandpas snoring stop.
i have a few other friends that help me out they all smoke, snort or and when im broke and with em i feel ***** and poor.
My mother and her friends introduced me and we've even had some talks together.
my grandpa always kept my friends away he he said the were bad and could turn and **** me one day. But i loved my friends so i kept em close.
As i got older i meet some other friends kept some and lost some if i liked em they were mine till the end.
They love me just the same and when im not around the look for me till we reunite again.
This morning i ran into crystal she's not always around and i didint meet her first but **** she's got me so down to earth. I can tell the world anything, and she always promised to get rid of the haters and keep me on high alert.
When she was getting handed to me out a window she needed a blanket so nobody saw her naked. I rushed her him and tucked her away.
I have a girl friend and unlike my friends she's a real thing. When we met I had to hide some friends cuz I love her and care what she thinks. Almost 1 year together and crystal was in the living room with my aunt and her husband. My girl knew but she didint understand, so i spent all knight defending her so that we could hang. An hour later i was sneaking in our room i introduced the 2 and put my friend away comfy.
My girl has become my world and when she meet my friend she was kinda frightened. But we spent some time and i showed my love how to treat her.
When i brought her home i didint wake my girl up i made sure we had a peice to smoke from.
When that was done i woke her up and we kicked it by ourselves for a minute in in the shed. Taking turns with her, filled my head with brilliant things i saw my girl smile and my heart spead up and grew wings.
I love all my friends and im not sure how i would make it if i told em to leave. I've known em so long and were so close it hurts but it's time i be real and admit im broke as dirt. They made me give all my money away so we could talk. I hide my blue eyes and keep quiet  all the time, i love my friends and im not ready yet but when i great a life im gonna have to say good bie.

They've been by my side my whole life and for a wile my little ray of sunshine wouldent pay them any mind. But every time im asked I promise I'll be a better dad. So what happens when they find were my friend is stashed, even under lock and key if there anything like me they'll be full of curiosity.
The one time they find the key i know my friends will invite them in without asking me. Were all chill now and crystal is still around but on my life I swear my child won't ever see me up all night or asleep all day. I know I mean what I say I just pray for the strength to be a man about what I say.

There's a reason I do drugs and  im done thinking about how I started but as long as my friends keep me smart and not retarted when iv created life I will have no hesetation to say goodbye.
even if it hurts like a knife to the chest my child will be the best for my choice to quite ****

My mind sticks to itself, shall of mush inside my head.
My family and friends only think they know all my life has been.
I was born to stay hidden and while I've been seen its only because im hifey
Grew up as the only kid, abandoned by my parents was how it began.
A lighter for my drugs in  one and a pipe in my other hand.
Authority is easy to define but tie me in its twin and I'll cut it off every time.
you can't expect to tell a child raised in hell to stay away from what they will.

Drown me I'm evil...
Make me die slowly and painfull.....
I try to be an angel on the side, smile nice and be polite,
But I keep hurtin people  
Stealin what people work for
Say in things that are hurt full
No remorse for how they may feel

I wanna know why,?.... I put my hood up as i walk under lights. Can't say i won't  but i know i got some time before i die. So im creasin up my pants , fresh shirt first class flown from France, same shoes that i wore way back in class, i like wavin to the police  with my ******* like an angry bee stinger  im a hifey little ***, work every day but im still strapped for cash, dress like look like act like a business man, im the boss of some back ally business plans. Walk round town like a ****** gangster man. I got props from the big boss i handle business better than the mob. Never back down never run home to mom. Get my *** beat stand back on my feat cuz i ain't one to get robbed

In'a basement, waken up in'a a dream....
Lookin round seein every thing seein what I'm gonna take an what I'm I'm gonna leave
Melt down and breath, roll aroun blow smoke,N- fall asleep....
Havein a bad dream that I'm all alone smokin tweak
Playin pool wit out an 8 ball for about a week , 250 Cash goes fast when you trickin a tweak, bag in a bag in a bag all ******* and And taped  up neat, what's inside?, you don't wanna know mo-*****, it ain't powder and it ain't green,
Bag of glass an a snow white dream for a sleepless week,

Till I pass and I'm buried deep
Don't count me out I go hard  
Roll deep with a crew of 2  my girl an me
Truest mofuckers you'll meet
Ain't got friends cuz I don't need
A Heep of punks tryina ***** me
Police tryin hard enough but they don't see

Yea, .......
Walkin in the dark, black suit and stompin boots ,
Breakin in jackin cars, strip-em and sell em for parts
Take what I make and pay for a place to stay
Take and buy a burger wit the change I make
Rob a food chain and use the cash to buy a pack
Go back to the homies on G. Street and pack
Take my **** to my new pad for a week and I'll be back

Look,
      ....... I ran around with the wrong crowd,
Broke laws and snuck out, prided my actions based on if I got caught.
Taught myself how to act, stole what I needed, and always wore black.

...... I had a hard time with rules I compulsively acted a fool, stole food, smoked **** and did it all on my own cuz I'm cool.

...... black hoodie an a snap back, white boy with a chest tat, unforgettable
.

Never found the path to neverland, never had the same helping hand,
A blind eye turned to a lost boy, a never man
But never can say he ever had a youth or will again.
an only child of two teens who never dreamed of abandoning a child of their of creative hand.
A mistake made to give a perfect chance for a perfect little boy to grow growing

I need to find a place to relax, a spot where I can chill with who I like and were the **** is always gettin passed.
no stress and no bull crap, somewhere I'm not gettin kicked out on my ***
Its hard livin bigga when you anotha numba fallin under  the government
If i had a spot where stress was irrelevant i wouldn't leave for any reason sit back lookin at the sun set drinkin old English and smoking green **** trimmed to be leafless.

Seen as a king by the friends around me
The boss of all bosses  nobody ***** with me.
I don't just play games and smoke ****
I was raised to handle business and never flee
I take punks with potential and teach
im not the best person to wanna be
im one person who earned my respect by movin  my feet
keeping my lips tight and if need be takin the heat.
I know random information that no one could teach
School wasent the place for me  but im smart as anybody
Knowledge taught about the streets is how we learn to live wherever we be

Hey **** it mischief on the track
They told me prison was fate
I turned to em an said I'ma make it to the top livin Hollywood soaking in fame
Ain't gotta worry bout the bills they always paied
Grew up wit holes in the floor now I got security at the door
Swear to God ima make it A million dollars a year that's what I wanna be banking
Doin theses drugs got my eyes looking vacant
Another shot to the brain I'm takin
Celebrate every second I'm free cuz I know how it is when the twelve take it
Love them bad ******* naked standin I front of me and they shake it
I smile they chill for a while then they take it
Girl we can go Rollin through a new city each night
**** it lets go from new york to Vegas
Atlanta to the Hollywood hills do Coke and some acid
Drink with a passion I'm sorry I love you but theses women showing me passion
I ain't perfect I love the feelings theses drugs gimmie when these beautiful women give me attention
I'm a rock star at heart just know that I'm yours
So sick of walking to work my feet ache I wanna sit on my *** and create
Sold so many bags just tryina keep food on the plate
God gimmie the chance I want outta this state it's eating me alive every real one is either dead or inside
I know some real gangsters that won't hesitate to put you on a t-shirt over what I you said
Round here in the 208 you might end up in the mountains no headstone and no one knows where you went
Big city's leave you in the street in Idaho we leave you underneath the earth outta sight outta mind shoulda shut you mouth round here we don't care where you from cuz we Idaho grown so live life free if I to it do like me smoke green trip on mushies and lsd
Drink a lil chill at the bonfire and keep your circle complete

smokin the hella the fatta the bowl
joints and blunts we role
pickin out the seeds and stems cuz we don't need them
just woke up and we smokin again

Listen up monkey,

.     do you remember how i yous to be ,
Back before there was a you and me
I wasn't looking for a chick for dating
I was a player and to other chicks you was hating
but you made the effort to connect
So above all those other hoes you was the best  
i never had to sneek around to cuddle with my girl,
just laid and waited for you to do the  u every night without shame I felt youpresence touching me and even more importantly I will never find  another girl that I love so dearly  I love you a monkey bunny

Yea,
.     i miss the simple ****, not that I had it simple back when,
I was a kid with no parents, maby that would explain my appearance.
wearin baggy clothes and Wal-Mart shoes filled with holes.
Told the kids at school i was a gangster,  before i even watch gangland shows,
I knew i had a path so i never chose goin back.
Grew up just a little fast, knew more about the underground than anybody in class

Throw my hoodie on...
an lace Up my stompin boots
My girls lightin me cigarette while I'm rushin for the door
She don't like it she just accepts what I do
Watchin as I run away outta view
Only thing she knows is that I'm a soldier
Just doin what soldiers do
If I don't come home she already knows that I'm either in the hospital jail or dead.
It ain't fair,
And probably weighs on her if she should have gotten knocked up with my kid

Yo,
    standin on point, crew full of black hoodies, red cherrys from a joint.
Heard you was snitchin, hence our position

Age 16

For my own peace I need to share a secret. but only to those who can keep it.
its gonna be hard but you gotta to keep it.
Its a short story, a walk ill describe in words.

somewhere in a forest where man can't find it.
A path lays where time sits, patiently taking itself on many trips.
space walks with his kids, sulking over  everything he did.
Nothing leaves prints in the dirt, and follows a love of his
its said that the path isn't from earth, that it came here to leave a purpose  
It refuses to leave until the world gets it and luckily its very patient.
It doesn't end and everything shares it, with a group of friends.
I found the path inside a drinking glass, full of water from a stream crossing a path.
The water looked clear as glass as I drank it i started to see black
It seems i fell asleep  so deep i immediately began to dream. I stared down the path in awe over what i saw.
My gaze  didint change from straight untill i walked by hundreds of Buddhists praying.
there chanting was my everything and welcomed my energy to stay.
phobe k
After a life of welcoming i walked on the path and couldn't will myself to leave
And after i had walked with the universe looked inside and saw myself  I fell back to myself. Woke suddnly feeling perfectly fine

Can anybody hear me....?
Is anybody out there listening....?
**** it I'll talk to myself then....

Walkin around in all black late at night
With my hood up and my laces tight.
I ain't got a reason to wonder dark streets,
Under every street light I see stage lights and hear a crowds scream.
Quick glimpses of my dreams flashing on the corner of every street.
Wearin the same clothes I had on when I fell asleep.
My name being screamed by thousands just like me.
Can't keep cool in the heat with a black hoodie on over my black T.
Lyrics flowing from me to a microphone teachin audiences  how to act grown
Turn no money into mo money than one man should own.
Show em how to lift the rocks off an climb to top of the mountain on they own.
Seein all this on a late night stroll
Through a hood Iv shown how to be ghetto on they own.

I drop my head and pray to something I don't know  to help me through what I'm about do.
I don't belive in god, I don't think that the Bible's  true
And evil is in you we just named it satin so we could feel pure
But as I hold my pistol between my hands, I can feel the earth  
Gather energy, sit with me and watch my life from every angle.
As Soon as pistols start to light the night with art sparks from every angle give me a glimpse of my next mark
Aimee and fire, no remorse but silence brings another course
Sit and pray that I shot  someone who needed to die today
I didn't see there face  but I saw my bullet reach in and quickly grab there souls and pull em out stand em up and have em watch as there bodys  fall limp
No life left in em, only take a quick glimpse while your arm is reaimin when the bullet falls and you hear casings clinging don't stop till there all shot an you winnin then ask again for forgiveness to feel pure till you look at yo hands and blood runs in river that forms a tear and takes years to wipe away the stain you cant see but causes me pain  every silent night every bright day

****....
                You really wanna know??.....
  I can tell you but you better sit And listen.
                             (Chorus:)
See.... growin up I liked to climb trees  
Sway in the breeze.
Somethin bout high places always helped me think.
does anybody understand that I am what I've seen??
I feel alone and different cuz the other kids don't understand my life's position.
All alone on a farm with my grandpa takin my parents position.
Independent and good in the kitchen,
I spent most days learnin how to fit in.
Playin ***, drugs, and prison.
I was to well educated in the art of sinnin
3 years old an adults had my head spinnin
I had trouble sleepin,
I'd stay awake and listen, wishin I could party with the big kids.


I think I'm kinda crazy. I don't show it but-
  I'm always thinkin bout the wrong things.
Hustlin ****** fightin and drugs,
Acted like a ****, i was shown no love
I didint have friends when i was growin up.
Nobody liked me, cuz I was to busy fightin the ones they loved.

I chose to be the most wanted outlaw in history....
I Taught myself to live in the streets.
When no one was lookin I was always crookin.
Looking at life from a delinquents position.
I dreamed of drug dealin, sellin and, cookin.
I saw myself as a gangster in prison.
Practiced cuz I figured that a menace needs
To know what he's dealin with if gonna
Grow up to be a street soldier.

Yea.... Look.....
              Every lesson i learned burned me till it stuck in an hurt
Started out as a kid searchin for the place i fit in
Saw broken souls young and old   healed what i could, learned how it worked livin in sin
started playin games as a  way to train for a life in the game
Till one day an O.G showed me a mans brain splatered like rain on a dark night one may.

Keep it real..
dont just act like steal...
If you sayin that you down,
Better be ready for the **** that comes around.
Bluffin gets real thugs stuffin trunks with punks an fools that squeel
So you better know how down you is for real

Beatin ******* *** in class for trash talkin my broke *******
White trash on welfare and food stamps
Only ever held stolen cash, only ever busted stolen gats
But i seen a mansion and now i got all that.
**** lessons and tests, group discussions and packets
Im brillintly crimanaly insane and intend to be a **** so i stay  underground straight
Ima live till i wanna die, words only boss ****** get to live by
One shot 2 shot, im hit, your fine, ima live, you gon die.
Cant **** what you cant match in pride
Watch what you fly round me i roll unstraped Take no crap and **** all you mother ****** scraps.
Hope you like my rap dont talk crap.

I've got a story unlike most,
I'd like to start it out with a toast.
This is for the unknown, the real bosses never had they face shown.
For the young and old, grew up with no fear talking bold.
the abandoned soul with no parents to know.
for the self raised never afraid hit the end . And  go hard  all dayall day

Just another

the first time i wrote my first rhyme
was the first time i thought i could be a big star
and i knew that ****** in the game was gonna try to tear me apart
but its ight i got plenty of scars one more aint gonna do **** to me
livin death before dishonor till the death of me

In the passenger seat 5 minutes from heavenly green
I ain't watin till I get home
Brought the grinder and the papers ima roll a cone
Space cruze on a road heavily used by 5O
Who cares I need smoke
Can't think without hit so i wake up and spark it
I keep it lit till my eyes lose focus and i pass out
Inhale life, hold in pain, blow out a different mind state
One that is'nt so insane

You wanna meet a real stoner?
That smokes on the daily,
Goes to work to make money for a bag!
Stays in a mind state thats kinda hazy,
Come my way baby, I stay towards the north west.
In a mountain valley where good **** comes with no request
We don't play that midgrade, only carry the best strains.
And the best thang is everybody in town smokes down
So come to my town find a place to sit down
Brace yourself this high grade gone put you down.
Idaho is every state's joke and really we don't care
The smaller the population is  the More **** the born and raised gem state familys can blaze  




I don't need oxygen, I just need THC!!
I keep a pipe or a joint close to me.
Police only think I'm high when I'm outta ****.
My teachers tellin me to leave cuz I need to smoke
I can only see, when I'm in a cloud of smoke
I blaze when I'm broke. cuz homies got me an they know I'll always get em back fat
So no day is a clear day, blowin clouds out our mouths is how we stay
Always way too blazed, can't pass the bowl, can't wait till the high takes hold,
Puff puff pass this blunt of gold to every stoner young or old

                     ZtickZ-

Look,
      ....... I ran around with the wrong crowd,
Broke laws and snuck out, prided my actions based on if I got caught.
Taught myself how to act, stole what I needed, and always wore black.

...... I had a hard time with rules I compulsively acted a fool, stole food, smoked **** and did it all on my own cuz I'm cool.

...... black hoodie an a snap back, white boy with a chest tat, unforgettable menace to
.

Got alot ta think about,
19 dealin wit the **** grown folks stressin bout
I got the only girl whos right for me, I'ma stay davought
Baby on the way ima be a father an im proud
But growin up without parents got me scared now
How, do I raise a baby when my role models taught me the hustle
I dont need help to make it I was born with the brains of a genius
Product of a cupple horney teenagers
Questions in my head if I let em see my child

I know that I'm a peice of ****,  an thats ok I can handle it..
But the 1 thing that was keepin me here,  was the though that some1 cared..
now i see... that all the time I, spent chasing you was 1 big game
And thats ok it was fun 2 play... but now ive got a say good by to the fake embrace the pain...
Pleasee lord send me on my way, drop my body onto the floor... I have never fealt this way b4.. but I know it'll be a better world with out me wasting everybodys ****** time.
A tool is only worth. What it can do and I don't see What the point is in going a broken one 2 you....

Please just take me down a path of nothingness.. I relze that you've lost your sanity waiting on this kind of **** but i won't be around much longer now ...  please take my words 4 what there worth.. and remember that I was born a curse ... unwanted and probobly better offending it all so as a load i can fall from  somewhere that never end..losing myself in the darkness of my own sin

Baby can you handle this
Life on the edge I see the end with every kiss
Baby will you die for me
If I die will you ****** scream
Needle in my arm
Love note saying that I'm sorry i just loved you to much
I'm just ****** up now I'm gone
I know you don't like it when I'm on this ****
I got so much music in my soul maby I can sell it to the world
My words in there steros and I'm telling em all
**** it live life to the fullest till you ****** die
It could be tommorow
Baby I just wanna smile
Baby will you smile
Baby ****** smile with me
Theses wounds cut deep
I live a life you don't understand
I'm what you want but can you really handle who I am
I want shiny things and tattoos on my body so I ain't gotta say **** I can talk with my skin
Tattoo ink like a script you gotta question
Take a minute and get educated
Go to the left hand find the *******
Now notice how there's no more ***** for me to give my finger is feeling limp
So I'll just use my lips
**** society please baby run away with me
we can make each other's happiness a priority
First goal every day is to see your beautiful face lookin at me smiling
Xanax takes my memory's so baby please stay next to me
my vibe is heavy in my soul like a cupple tabs of lsd
I can feel you brightinin my world
Can you see me changin
can you see me changin
I'm trying but **** chaingin causes pain n I'm in the passing lane lookin out my passenger window
At myself
I can see the past in my face and the pain ive felt  
My life been ****** up who shuffled this deck what kinda hand I been delt
I got every thing I ever had,
and every thing I'ma ever gonna make, invested in this life
How they gonna stand there and watch me burn it like dryed leaves soaked in gasoline that we stand around in the fall to stay warm with homies while we kickin it
light some **** an have a cupple drinks
80 on the freeway we ain't speedin cuz honestly I got some product in the trunk
Selling ain't cool and it ain't easy
Even tho I know I could just go to work an make that cheese extra cheesy just cuz I got a lil guzmen in me.
These streets stay yellin at me in my daydreams
Talking bout the city in a drought flip a brick make a grip  
and get some fiends to rely on your buisness
At least when I'm weighin the work someone gonna be expectin me
and they smilin when I arrive
**** people been dreadin my presence my whole life at least drugs make me the one they wanna see
Baby im alive right now
I cant speak on next year **** I can't even promise you next week
Cuz when it comes to being about it fo yo homies yo family and yo friends then they say anything disrespectful and they likely ta catch lead
Body shots are Target practice we aimin for they head
Twenty five to life is what they tryina give us in tha 208
Half a zip of Crystal and they talkin life with without
man I was ony 21
Said if I told em three dealers above me I could catch probation and go free
**** that **** I run around with real gangsters take yo head off your shoulders
If you got loose lips round us you gonna learn
We catch an OP we spread the word
That black and white already been sent ta everyone ya heard
you aint aloud to play no more sorry but you broke the rules
If my mouth woulda opened right now I wouldn't be breathing
My paper work come correct you better believe it
**** y'all draggin my name in the mud
I been solid since I was to Young to be doin this ****
Girl if you wit me you gotta stay solid onehundred percent
Everything is handled in house we don't dial 911
unless we need a doctor or somethings burnin up
**** twelve they wanna see me hurting
**** twelve
They want wanna catch me serving to
these fiends but just these crack heads waiting till I can't supply
then they giving up my name to 5-O just ta keep themselves on they level
Chasin that high is like running from the devil
But he got a leash chokin you till you bowin down at his knees
Life lived
life wasted  
Life on the edge
**** it let's see the world I wanna make it
This my world I'ma do what I wanna y'all gonna know my name I'ma top shotta dumb dotta
**** around fall in love with the life you see around ya
Stay with me girl we gonna take a million dolla
Make it 4 times that over night
******* that grind baby so you can kick back and enjoy life
Shoppin in hollywood on rodeo drive
red carpet pictures capturin the moments we together in life
I'm fascineted by your body
Far from ordinary baby your unique
Can you handle this
Life on the edge I can see the end with every kiss
Baby will you die for me
If I die will you ****** scream
Baby will you live life like the end is already happening
Treasure every moment **** what ever all thoes losers think
They say I'm wastin away
Druggin my life down the drain
Well let's be honest here my name is Dennis drain so pour your liquor dump your dope out let me take it all to the head
I can barely breath I might have just OD'd
I think I just OD'd
If you find me and I can't breath
Baby will you scream for me
Baby I'm sorry this is how you ever had to see me
Live life like I showed you **** what hurts deep inside
find beautiful places an people with smiling faces integrate with there minds to create a place on this world to sit down and just think
Even in the darkness of what comes after my last heart beat
Your memory will keep
My soul feeding off your energy
seeing you and me close
back when it was back then
Ya know not just in my head
But here in reality baby this is where I can feel your every breath
In a mansion smilin with cash
dressed in the latest fasions
Millions of people saying they fans of what I create
I changeed they lives with the music I made
I hope that this dream comes true cuz I'ma promise you that when it do
I'ma bring you wit me we gonna be rich like we filthy
swimmin in bills wit blue faces all hundreds no 20s no 50s
But if these dreams come up short and I'm stuck in this place will you stick with me
here on this dead end street
Is a 9 to 5, Makin 17.50 enough for your beautiful body to wanna come closer to mine
We might rent forever may never own a house
and I might go away for some time you might have to wipe them tears from your face
It's ok still crying
I love you
your mine
Put a smile on you mouth
Even when it hurts girl
If I'm wit you or i bounced
In the penatentry or on the couch
you what makes me smile baby girl and don't you ever forget that
Be mine till the end of time
But only if you won't regret that
When we find the end we can build on till infinity can't streach any more
Every moment till the moments finley find the end and we are no more
In reality or my memory cuz time took what I love away from me
baby you best
Baby  come close  I'ma hold you in my arms untill you tell me to let go
keep ya warm like toast  
butter yo bread when we in bed
hope you like the way I make you feel when I give you my passion
hopefully you see that this kinda ectasy don't just happen
I'm tryin my best to keep you feeling happy
Mind body and soul
Make yo body thirst for me
Girl I know yo smile only works for me
I see theses other women they looking good
but you the only one I wanna dance for me
Stop doubting your beauty it's not attractive to hear such a goddess of a women doubt the power of her attraction
Yo eyes catch mine and the police might as well of pulled out a 9
Cuz i cant move
I'm stuck on you
Baby can you handle this
Life on the edge I can see the end with every kiss
Baby will you die for me
If I die will you ****** scream
If I die I swear you'll be my endless dream
Baby baby please let's take life like it's drugs and do this **** together
feel the euphoria like we the same soul forever
They can't handle this **** that we doin
We don't fit the mold so baby we just out here bein different
They don't like that
they stay trippin
Can you handle me baby it's ok if you can't
Just let me know what it is you looking for in a man
If I can't give you what you want than I'll let you go
Cuz your happiness is what warms my soul
Even if it ain't with me
Every time I wake up weather its late afternoon or early morning
Depending on what I been dosing
Depression holdin on to me an I know I'm hard to love
But even when you with some other man if you cracking a smile
Everything goin good
you got money and a place to live
Then I'm smilin wit you I hope one day I'll meet yo kids
The world could die if you and I could float forever in space
with each other in the endless expanses of space
I hope we float around an never age never feel hunger
never feel pain
Fill each other with happiness an fix the broken thangs
Baby I know we just met so maby I'm crazy I really don't know yet
But I'ma offer you my heart you can have it
If the blood scares you
you can turn off the lights and feel it beat in your hand
Feel the energy and power every beat you feel sitting in the darkness
Baby I'm here for you
and every moment your with me I lose grip on reality
your the drug I want
just please forgive my evil deeds my past is full of terrible things
I try and keep that stuff down deep but it comes to say hello sometimes **** I hate it when these memories figure out how to make catchy rhymes
and when it does happen please don't think any less of me
I'm slowly changing please believe
I'ma be honest I'ma always do me
Sometimes doin me means sacrificing things
Things I love
Things I can't put a price on easily
my freedom is worth to much by itself
Now add YOU to my list of things they take from me if I go back to county and ******* I don't wanna go in that cell
"**** twelve"  police ain't **** catch me at the red light if you can
I'm quick to split soon as them red and blues start to flick
I want the love you show me to hold me when I sleep
**** thin blue mats and cold concreat
My body aches an I miss that cute twiching you do when you finally slip into your dreams
Can you honestly look me in the eyes and tell me that I'm who you wanna spend every moment you got left breathing in this life with
I know things don't always work out and we may never make to marriage and kids
But no matter what every word I've said I've meant
It's crazy cuz we just meet but I'm just kinda that way
Meet you one day the next I don't wanna let you go
I guess I'm kinda clingy but I'm blaming you an the way you sitting there with a blank stare licking your lips
I wanna hold you by your hips
Kiss you everywhere an feel your body twitch
So I'ma stay close play it by ear till you tell me to leave or we've been a thing for a cupple a years so it's kinda clear we a thing not a fling
were long lasting not just a quick  burst of hormones and physical addictions
I wanna feel you in every way but I wanna sit down and talk about your day
You were gone and I wasn't there
I miss you no put up your hair I like it when you use words to massage the parts of me that I only share with you
No matter what you being alive makes me wanna live life
It makes me wanna see the world
Cuz baby girl you make it easier to breath  
but at the same time my breath is short
I'm feeling light in the head
An weak in the knees
These feelings are intoxicating
A needle in my vain full of quality drugs can't match the moment you enter the room
Please baby come in leave and come right back into my heart
Every time I see your face after your dose of beauty has been outta my grasp even for just uno, dos, ... ****
thoes two seconds couldn't pass fast enough
I look you up and down I love your face your body is so perfectly curvy
Your outline got me followin the lines like I'm doin geometry
Girl you could make a man fall in love with math
I wanna find the angle you at when I'm holding yo ***
You catching feelings girl yea I know
Me an you we falling hard
we so hot our passion mealtin yards of snow at Christmas time
Green lawns in the winter months
We lounging like it's mid July
Sittin in a quiet place where it's easy to appreciate our own vibes
Can you feel me livin inside
I'm the reason that your heart keeps a smile
You the reason that my days go by to fast
Every moment with you is delicious I just want an order of it
Now super size it I want these feelings ta be never endin
Takin pictures now cuz in this life don't nothin last
I wanna look back and see how we used to act
baby can you handle this
Baby can you handle me
Life on the edge I see the end with every kiss
Baby will you die for me
If I die will you ****** scream
aint pay **** for it I got it all for free
Got home opened up the bag
Looked in to see your eyes starin back at me  
Used your vibes to fill a 100 CC IV
Baby please swim trough my veins
can feel the beat to my life
can you Bob yo head to the sounds when I live and breath
the notes inside my head keep me from fallin dead  
Every beat carry's  my soul and passion can you taste it
it's thick in the recipe they used to creat me
a mixture of insanity and passion
Someone please add a little common sense to to the mix it might help make a happier ending
I got the bravery but sometimes I just do
I don't always think and that's what's gonna tear me away from you
In a concreat cell that I can't even get up in without my feet freezing under me.
I make these dumb decisions when  I'm faced with two people opposing me
Mine or there's
So either you handle business or get punked out like you was raised buy some *******
I can't sit back and let these lames run they jaw
like they about they business
we throwing hands no question so baby I apologize If they start talking that **** and I ki one of them *******
I aint askin you to lie
I'm just asking you if you really about bein mine
Cuz if you were then you would stay solid hold back the fear and uncertinty
and tell all thoes people that wanna put me away
that I ain't do nothin that I'm innocent
and I'll tell the world that I love you till the very end
If you feel like you can't keep my secrets
Plz just do what your heart tells you is the right decision
cuz the truth will set you free
in that position it'll give me 25 years to think
25 years away from you
25 years away from me
25 years that I lose myself trying to find you inside my head
25 years to replay memories from the short time you been Makin my world seem brightened like your my sun your existing  decides if I live or die
Your memories never fade
I keep them in my mind on replay
Over and over in my head
slower and slower but still they move to fast
Glimpses of the recent past  that I wish my hardest would never pass
Baby can you handle this
Life on the edge I see the end with every kiss
Baby will you die for me
Baby if I die will you ****** scream
Baby if I die tear your ****** vocal coards to peices singing this song on the top of the world
high as **** with your last **** down at the bottom in the scared little girl you left behind when you came home with me
let my name echo in the world baby
I wanna be heard
I want my memory to burn into the minds of the ones who are just like me
BHC
Black hoodie crew yea that's till death make a generation follow my every breath
I want you to be with me
when they introduce my crazy *** to the world you that's listning
When I have thousands of fans and my name they scream
I want you next to me
Baby shine with me
When it gets dark and your alone remember that I ****** love you and justbe greatfull that I was
once asked  to spread words that create lifestyles
lyrics that give people hope in the world even when your seeing shadows
I want people to wanna be me and I want them to want you cuz I have you and they can't you love me
Cuz they love what I stand for and you stand next to me girl
BABY CAN YOU HANDLE THIS????

Burn me, so I can feel.
Give to me, so I can have my next meal.
Take from me, so I can see what I don't need.

Yea.... ztickz!.....
    It's been a minute since I could really feel it.....

I been stressing a lot lately,
my mind ain't been thinkin sanely
I ain't wrote one word to beat in months
To much stress? Maby...
I gotta baby on the way 26 weeks along and I'm broke without job

LookI've had a minute to think
I know it's only really been a cupple of weeks
But every moment I'm with you my heart feels weak
I ain't one to rush into nothin cuz to be honest I ain't nothin to keep
I got my demons and they settled in deep
I been doin time since I was thirteen
You can change me over night I'm sorry if tried
Ask anyone that knew me growing up if you wanna be by my side your really in for a ride
I know that I make life shine cuz I got a love for living life
That's what you love not this thuggin way I act or gangster way I Mac on you
Tellin you your body fine kissing on your neck holdin your *** like I'm holding on to life
I'm warning you now you gone learn what it is to live and die I'll make you smile when I'm around and when the twelve take me down I know you gonna cry
Just keep money on the books and answer the phone I wanna hear your voice your words warm my cold soul
Choppers blastin at the whip I'm sorry if I get hit
At my funeral burry me with a blunt keep polo G and ynw melly playin while they drop me in
Remember that i found you broken your ex man's is a fool
I wanna treat you to finer thing but **** theses streets have got me pinned
You ain't lived this life you that's good all I ever done is sin and rep for my homies that in the pen an for my family that believe in the cause it's can't stop won't stop till the better end
Brains blown out I'm starin this is life at it's end
Theses streets cold it's  90 degree weather an I'm shaking
My homies life was just taken that fentenal is gonna get us all RIP to the homies that lost the battle of addiction
Baby girl you don't know em but I know some real ones that lat in the earth
If you gonna stick around you need to understand
that I'ma die one day an I ain't gonna make to to see eighty three
It's a bullet or an OD that's gonna be the cause of my defeat
I'm trying change but theses chemicals balence me and theses lanes run there mouths and silent is something I can't be
It just takes that punk to nut yo and pull a trigger then boom I gone
What would you think?
I love you I truley do
I know I really barley know you and you ain't so sure about how beautiful you are but here to tell you
you got me goin crazy baby lats make one
I got a son how about a baby girl we talk about what to name our perfect peice of this world.
Don't be nervous I promise no matter what they'll be perfect
I got dreams of bein rich and famous on TV screans and stages
I don't know if it's gonna happen cuz I'm still used to trapping
beIN locked up is for the birds much love to homies behind locked doors u hope you see the gates soon
Baby you gotta understand I live one life you ain't never even heard half of I'll keep you safe ain't no man women or bullet gone graze your spirits
Gucci Loui prada baby let's get some designer on
Spend every dollar I got buying jewlery and shiny dimonds
Ten bands I'ma put that on my wrist
20 grand I'ma put that round your neck
Keep the feelings between us tight like you sqeezin my neck
In the bedroom you say I keep you wet
I like it when you keep me on the edge make me lust for your body make me fiend for your soul I swear you made the window in my heart grow whole
I can see your face when my eyes closed
Thuggin is the life I live pulling out sticks aimin at the ones that wishin us an early end
Opposition creepin round every corner man I swear
Treasure every moment this life ain't always fair
Bags pay the Bills so we living off of welfare
Felonies got the opportunities looking scarce  
No one wanna hire you when trappin is the only job you ever had
Robbin down the street man **** the other side we gonna take it all hope yall ****** die
Twenty-twenty me and my girl like bonnie and Clyde
I'ma gangsta she right by my side bands in the trunk I want my money high
Live this life with me and we can ****** shine
Trippin on these drugs I can see why my mother fried
We can smile for a while baby can you handle this

Crept in with the wind
                                        came and went
   Came back and never left again
Till the loose ends were tight
A demon in the night who....
creeps around the bad parts of town
Stays outta sight
                                an outta mind
But handle any business I'm a part of
You won't leave my sight
I got my eyes on you
I'm watching from all side  
In front and behind
360 veiw and all the time

Bring me brighter days, offer me a chance to change.
Im a father to 2 kids, stress N' pain  keep me up late.
All threw thenight there cries shake my brain. N' cause pain.
Broke every day, hungry while I slave to make money,
So I can pay the government until they dig my grave.
Corners ain't the place to be, when you lookin  for some extra green.
Sitin in the ally, Post up  in the shade, and i stay late
Money and weight stay behind the gate,
Can't afford to go jail, or lose the product that's paying for my food.
Treated like I'm rude cuz I learned young to mug and my face got stuck that way.
When I got stuck paying  nightly for a place to lay.
Food comes from my pockets  I got a 5 finger store in there cuz its more convenient.
I don't even buy **** no more.
Riskin prison for a pack of blacks that keep idiots from gettin ***** slaped when they lips smack askin for bag of smack.
Hands out holding change askin for whatever they  can get with that.

I keep my.. game peice in the..
winnin position.. game called ghetto broke livin..
My strategy a secret so... I'm in first position yo..
Hustle my livin from.. dealin medicine and sellin everything you own... till I got a cash enough, to buy a bank you know. I plan to rule the world with... the knowledge that.. gangsters loaned me way back when I was a kid. Now I know I'm destined to, make Dimonds out of ashes that.. I saved from bowls I smoked alone.


Took years and im still broke, grew up and learned I had Hustle to smoke, now I'm top bound,
smokin hopein for a chance to see a better life than I've had given

What are the chances that romance is pain and hardship, and that good times and dances are metaphors for the hard work they take to make them work?

Nothing i try is ever right in her eyes as hard as i cry she only sees me being angry
Her point is never wring i swear i can give her the world but  it's impossible to make her see
All that i do to keep us living and happy
Stressed to the max but she doesn't understand  and it doesn't matter what i try to do i am never going to be what se wants me toooooooooo.........

roll that big blunt get up in car and drive stunt
got my girl in the front seat  maby we gone drive drunk
takin **** rips in the 86 ,engine don't work but we ride *****
trip shrooms in tha livin room

I'm a stone, from my head to my toes, from my clothes to my skin down to my bones.

I don't feel much, but I  certainly don't show what I do feel and I dont talk enough to anyone.

But I must admit that im scared as ****!

In 2 days I'ma be 19, my only love is 8 weeks into carrying my first child, I work hard as hell in dangerous situations and I dont get paid half of what I'm owed so I'm always broke.

My father just got out of prison 3 days ago and 2morrow im going to introduce him to my girlfriend.

Im gonna break the news that even tho he was never there for me hes 8 month from being a grandfather.

And I just don't know how I feel about allowing a man that I barely know having a part in my child's heart, when he could leave at any moment hurting my first born.

I smoke dope and it's what helps me get things done an work hard.

It don't make me tweak but even tho I try not to spend money on what I smoke sometimes I lose motivation and sit around so 20 or 30 bucks now and then could make me broke and leave my family without.

Im excited to raise my own child, I'm sure I'll be good but I'm young and don't know the half of this **** that I say do.

What do I do when I have no money I've already given up on drugs cuz I have no funds and   my family's hungry.

Im so proud I never ask for hand outs, I chose to rob and steal for a meal rather than ask the people willing to help for a loan to get me and my girl along.

Im scared for the future,... I raised myself and taught myself how to live without **** but I based my life off of street principals

Steal to eat, sell what you don't need, rob cars to support problems that scream till I feed em with drugs and bad habits

I won't let my child need to do what I had to do cuz I'll be there to make ends meet, but what lesson can I teach.

I could tell you *******, do drugs, steal and cheat. I could form a real gangster out of a white boy that's never Felt the pain you get on the streets.

But I stopped listening to teachers in the second grade cuz I yearned for an easy life and quick pay.

Im smart but as far as school im brilliant in an evil way

How can I help with homework when I don't know anything about half of what schools are teaching

I can show them how to work hard and build things, all the odds and ends to creating a building.

But what if they don't want to labor for a living? What if numbers are what there dream job requires?

What I even if I'm around my child resents me cuz they learn and think differently?

Im so excited to have a child of my own that I've already started talking to my girls stomach.

Im sorry if I rambled on or didn't rhyme the whole time but I needed to babble for a while about how scared shitless I am for tomorrow, 8 months from  now an the next 18 years that follow.


I promise I'll do all I can to give my child every opportunity the world has. I know I won't teach my child about my past or allow them to follow. I just don't know how to stay hallow when tears keep fillin me up and leaking out creating a a puddle I wish was shallow.

So every night before I sleep or at least by midnight I will repeat to my self the words that follow.


You are a good man with respect and courtesy.
In hard times you make ends meet and support your family with hard work and honesty.
Respect, honor, and hard work are all things my child will learn by watching me.
Sarah can teach school and other things, and I can teach hard work and Practical things.
Fear is natural an good when contemplating raising a child!
Atleast that means I want for them, better things.
I will be a great father among other things and I won't always be correct in my teaching, but BUT I SWEAR BY MY HONOR THAT MY CHILD WILL KNOW ME, LOVE, HATE LEARN FROM AND GROW TO BE RESPECTABLE, HARD WORKING, DOWN TO EARTH INTELLIGENT, AND ABOVE ALL THINGS HAPPY AND UNDERSTANDING! All because I will raise him with LOVE give TIME to LISTEN and TEACH HIM WHEN EVER HE FINDS REASON TO QUESTION A REASON.
I WILL BE A GOOD FATHER AN I WILL NEVER LEAVE MY LOVE OR MY CHILD BY CHOICE. I WILL FIGHT TO MAKE  MY FAMILY A GOOD LIFE, UNTILL I DIE...!!!!!!!!!!!




Sorry I'm just so nervous to raise a child, I had no parents, my mom and dad abandoned me and my grandfather left me to raise myself while he locked himself in his room UNTILL he had a reason to yell at me for another way I've ruined his life.
So with no money as a small child and nobody to support me right, my habits formed to insure i survived
I feed and clothed myself before I was 5. I just can't stop worrying about how I will raise a child and if I'll even do it right.