giving
loving
smiles
laughs
hunger
eating
... too much
more sleep
yet so tired
gloomy days
yet happy feelings
missing the family
then shortly going insane from them all
all of this
comes from this holiday season

our story was erased
by the way you left
and how you stayed
our story will not be told
by who we were
and who i am
our story will live
by the emotions
and the facts
our story
will only be known
by me

i watch
and wait
wanting you in my arms
i sit
and tap
on the bed which we share
i sigh
and forget
the memories from so long ago

not that i have you
or had you
or will ever have you
all i know is that i've thought of you

how can you do this
leave
the way you did
how can you do this
not say goodbye
and not show your care
how can you do this
your gone
and i ******* hate it