He ****** me off
I hated him to my core
I wanted to **** him and leave behind so much gore
His head for my mantle
His heart for my stew
His soul for my brew.
But I could not
I've fought
He was stronger
My will to live I had no longer
Many attempts
And damage hidden
No I'm not kiddin'
I tried to **** myself
No one noticed
How could they
For them I was just prey
As unnoticeable as grey
But soon I saw
What I had ceased to notice
People cared
To hang out with me people did dare
I had friends
Who didn't want my life to end.
I stopped cutting
And started to smile
I swallowed my bitter bile
My sadness left
Happiness came back
But soon came the counter-attack
Junior High was a *****
Although I never had to get a stitch
Pain and Injury came abound
And my friends left me all around
I wasn't cool
I was a tool
My happiness left
Sadness returned tenfold
Someone came and made my life well...
A LIVING HELL
Back came the failed attempts.
Poisoning, Strangulation, drowning, asphyxiation  
And it all swept across my small nation
I never did have a vacation
From my close friends suicidal and Madness
Least of all sadness
But came high school
New friends
An old end
A new beginning
It got better
I never would have thought
That after I stopped and fought my feelings
That people would come back
Friends who shared my interests
Pessimistic
Yeah I still am
But I no longer wanted to be run over by a tram
People cared
That's all that it took
As if it all were from a storybook

The corpse will swing
The noose will hang and drift
Me crying oh so sadly
Me sad called maddeningly
Slip the noose over
Run me over in a rover
The knife in my chest
I was called a pest
I have failed the test
I will have eternal rest
Weep
Me you could not keep
My hill of problems too steep
Prepare the gun
For my last fun
2 bullets in the magazines
Why 2 why it seems
As if you want to give a thrill
As you and I.
I ****
The brains on the wall.
They flee into the hall.
I've given up on you all
No its not alright
I can no longer put up a fight
I want to see the light
I want to feel the fire
'Cause well
I'm doomed to hell
Until I hear the bell
To release me from my chains
Nothing more I wish to gain
My life I do not wish to re-obtain
The gun
The fun
The knife
To end my life
The cyanide
For when I can no longer confide
The noose
For my feelings I call obtuse
I'm dead
And way ahead.
I'm gonna burn in HELL
Never to see the light
Cause I didn't put up a fight.

Churn and burn
Ashes in the urn.
The stomachs will churn.
Read what I write,
And see how I fight.
My poetry is dark and gory
But tells a story
So read and listen
As the ink glistens.

Suicidal
Homicidal
Alike but different
Each is permanent
**** someone in rage
Or **** yourself and leave behind a page
Your level of madness is measured,gauged
But why do I banter
Im as mad as a hatter
Nothing even matters
My life in tatters
A knife to me throat
Toss me in the moat
A bullet in the brain
Nothing to gain
Sometimes relief other times pain
The blood will be taint
Burn and Burn
Ashes in the urn
The worlds will turn
The stomachs will churn
For all you see is fake
And they will continue to take
An illusion
To launch you into confusion
A ruse
To light your fuse
Our lifespan
Throughout man
Short and bitter
So many of us quitters
The rest of us let out titters
While they gnaw on us, the critters
Bite and Bite
Fight for the light
To die in the moonlit night
To cause each other so much fright
Our 'Gods' tell us to **** each other
Our own brothers
Let the blackbird fly
High into the sky
To cause the gloom
To signal our doom
Our demise
Of the human enterprise

Just Jesus
Save me
I'm angry and sad
No-where near bad
My clothes a long forgotten fad
Depression? Just a tad
But sometimes I'm glad
Allies and friends
To my bitter end
Making me smile
The stuff they do it biguiles
Never before
Have I felt like waging a war
But these friends keep me away
From the evil of today
The only ones holding me back
From a self attack
But its always true
When I fell blue
That life is well...
Inexplicably HELL

I'll walk down the halls
Hand in Hand
Ready to take a stand
Music of macabre origin then plays
"This dance if I may?"
I wear my best noose.
So obviously Obtuse
This ball
Is the ultimate call
For the crazy's
To have a death day party
Our lives never were so hearty.
Shoes made of razor blades
Bloodied nursemaids
Punch is spiked with cyanide
To evoke a lethal tide
Pop a pill maybe 4
That way there is less gore
Less to clean
Please don't be mean
Knives glitter darkly
Our faces grimaced tartly
Cut and slice
Stab and dice
Blood will fall
And run down the halls
For you see my dear
Do not fear
For in these halls
Lurks the suicidal ball.

Scream ******
You ******* mother trucker
My life is ****
Its up to my pits
My problems and concerns
When will I learn
My mind is fragile
So handle with care
As it seems to be filled with air
Its already so broken
So take this token
A certified loon
A watcher of toon
So don our robes
Grab our knife
To end this strife
Let it drip
Let it pool
I never was cool.
Always was a tool
So end me now
I dont care about the how
I hate this existence
Doomed to die
So might as well say goodbye
A noose made of a tie
Hangs from the rafters
I still have the look from the after
So **** me sir
Please for him and her
A bullet per
Blast my brains on the ****** walls
Staggering down the halls
Ain't this a ball
A suicidal ball.