Y Rada

Y Rada May 2016

I was eleven when you left me here
To have a human contact again
You said it was for my own good
Yes, I do understand your decisions
No matter how hard it was to accept.

You visit me oftentimes my lord
And my heart sings with gladness
You go out your way and come here
The past eight years you’re consistent
But there are changes in me now.

Are you going now my lord?
Oh you have not touched your tea!
You are busy on your empire you say?
J told me I don’t have a position in it
Because I am just a mere mortal girl.

May I say something before you leave?
You see I am not the same as I was
Living with humans made me think
Being with them made me realize
That I want to follow you everywhere!

Each day and night I think of you
Adoration blossomed into something
Green demons are attacking me
When I imagine you’re with another
And tears fell before I go to sleep.

The spring comes into my heart
When you come and visit me like now
The sakuras of my soul are dancing
It is quite difficult to contain it
I might explode of longing for you.

Wait, what are you doing my lord?
Why are you stepping towards me?
What do you mean I have to say it?
I can’t hear what you are telling me
The beating of my heart is too noisy!

You really want me to say it my lord?
I love you like a woman does for a man
I love you romantically for years now
I keep on wishing that you feel it too
Even if I you will not recognize it.

Oh, you’re arms are around me now
And you are whispering something
Say the magic words again you insist?
Alright, “I love you forever my lord S…”
Why are your eyes twinkling my lord?

i re-watched inuyasha and i always find the relationship of rin and sesshomaru a very interesting one. i always imagine this scenario when rin becomes a woman :-)

Y Rada May 2016

Kimono

The texture reminds me of you
Soft, silky fragile yet durable
The design makes me think of you
Very flamboyant yet inspiring.

I kept these gifts for the past years
Eight summers to be exact
Cherishing them like you cared for me
Afraid of losing the scent of you.

You’ve come and go like you always do
Leaving me waiting and craving
Please don’t bring kimonos anymore
Your presence or your heart is enough.

Sesshy x Grown up Rin :-)

Y Rada Mar 2016

Athlete of the Spirit

My arms you cannot touch
my voice you cannot hear
my tears you cannot wipe away
but my heart is pierced by your cries
my ears hear your silent wails
on the other side of this world
i know your pains but
i do not feel you -

oh faceless one!
oh persecuted one!

do not lose yourself because
of these deathly struggles
do not let the fire burn down
finish the race sweet sibling of faith-
get your reward at Jesus' feet
receive the applause of the
myriad of angels
and let the heavens embrace
you in its bossom

#faith #christianity #martyr #persecution

Y Rada Dec 2015

Red Bean Bun and Meat Bun

Red bean bun and meat bun you always share
With me when we were young
When we sat at the sidewalks and
Watched the world passed us by
Talking different things under the sun.

Red bean bun and meat bun you lovingly gave
To me when you prepared to leave town
When from seedling you you grew into a tree
Testing your wings to fly like a bird
Wanting to see the whole universe.

Red bean bun and meat bun now you shared
With me when you came back home
When my heart fluttered to welcome you
At the same time crying when you found her
Realizing that you only treat me like a lil sister.

inspired by kimi ni todoke..
i know luv the feeling...

#unrequited #one-sided #girlnextdoor

Y Rada Dec 2015

Bubbles

I sent a letter through the bubbles
It said that I miss you terribly so
I wish you were here for holidays

I sent a letter through the bubbles
They will burst before reaching the skies
I wonder if you ever received my mail...

My dad died in 2012... I miss him sooooo much...

Y Rada Nov 2015

Twenty two

You held my hand when I was two,
Securing me with your love so true.
A world of beauty and heart so pure,
To my silly pains your smile was cure.

Years flew so fast and I was thirteen,
I was young, impulsive and mean.
Hurts and scars were emotional,
Your soothing words made me well.

Now that I am already twenty two,
I'm miles and miles away from you.
I oftentimes think of your embrace,
Every thought is a moment's bliss.

I have my own battles to fight,
You taught me to cling to Christ tight.
When tears fall because of missing you,
I just remember how you held me when I was two.

It' s been a week since I got confined at the hospital and yet I am still unwell. I'm so far away from home and I miss my mother so much. As I recuperate, I found this old poem of mine (written 5 years ago) and I realized one thing: no matter how old I am or will be, I will always look for my mother's touch. :( wish I were home...

#mother #daughter #homesick

Y Rada Nov 2015

Be Still and Know that I Am God

In Silence and in Darkness
In Grief, Chaos and its likeness
In all the Tears you ever had
Be still and know that I am God.

In your Heartaches and Pains
When you feel your prayers are in Vain
And when your Soul is covered in Mud
Just be still and know that I am God.

In times when you are all Alone
And when you are Far away from Home
When your Spirit is Tempted in Loveless Fad
Be still and know that I am God.

#fear #anger #doubt #hate #sadness #alone #grief #comfort #confusion