Fit body
Nice height
Great hair
Broad shoulders
Smooth words
Cool guy
*** smoker
Blunt roller

You're so hot

I don't understand
How I've looked over
You for so long

You were right in my face
But I never realized
You were everything I wanted
To find in a guy

It truly amazes me
That after so much

All the words you said
All the things you did
All the feelings you caused

That you can just stop
And you can just leave
And, to you,
I never meant a thing

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It truly amazes me

You are nothing
That I'd fight for
Why?
Because I already fought.
I did all I can do
So now I give up on you.

He told me that I
Was his little secret  
I told him that he
Was worth the pain  

He told me that I
Could hold his hand
I told him that he
Could bring me shame

And I know that it's wrong
And I know I should change  

But the words that he said
They drove me insane  

And I know that it's wrong
And I know I should change  

But  

He told me that I
Was his sweetest pain
I told him that he
Was my best mistake  

He told me that I
Could be his favorite lie
I told him that he
Could make me cry..

You're gonna regret leaving me
You'll miss me
Just you wait and see

It's danger
So tempting

A stranger
Still willing

So open
Enclosing

So weak
Imposing

Just words
Life altering

Only letters
Heart-changing

Though scripted
Flow free

Never ending
Finally

It's not being sad
Or crying all the time

It's not being lonely
Or staying up at night

It's being numb
And feeling hollow

It's being empty
And drinking endlessly

It's grasping desperately
At what you used to be
And clinging to anything
That gets you through the day

It's depression.

Society.
Sometimes it sickens me.

An infinite well of effort
Something only dedicated to a select few

Refuse to exhaust myself
For anything lesser

No work to right a wrong
That doesn’t include myself

Never again will I cry
Over a loss of love

Relationships
Deserve no time and
No energy to mend

There’s no value found
In self pity
Or in the arms of men

"I'm supposed to be in love
But I'm numb again"

That love was
A broken symphony
A cracked melody
One with which
Not even we
Could compete

I love you.

Sadly

Your smile is beautiful
Your skin is the smoothest
Your voice is calming
Your living makes me happy

How can I be myself
When I don't know who I am?

I fell in love with you.
But then you took that away.
And gave that "in love" to her.
And left me with blank lines.
And empty dreams.

Have you ever been so heartbroken
That you literally feel the pain in your chest?
That your heart actually aches?
That you feel like throwing up all the time?
That being alive just seems wrong?
Welp.
That's where I am right now..

If I could do it all over again
I'd choose *you

Oh, so fleeting were they
The years we spent together..