His thoughts were scattered
His walks were like thunder
Blood boiling like a tea kettle
Eyes pierced like fire
Like the Sea before lava
The one he Loves has transpired
Heart dropped in his musles
He's tired of people looking over
Ashes of rain as he thinks about his friendships
He's broken and he just now noticed..

Life is a journey and I'm not talking about the band.
People Pointing fingers in this life like Uncle Sam.
But who's den with the dragon?
We need a swordsman to defeat this beast man!
Run forest! Just to show you you can do it!
No question the answer is in Gods hand.
The fat lady sings and the curtains begin.

I lift my eyes for I don't have nothing but ashes, dirt and quicksand.

One day I  will have better then ashes dirt and quicksand.

Watch.. I clock the time it's ticking man

I'm taking sweet precaution
My heart is like a roaring ocean.
***** like a dead possum
The stinch of my hands make me so noctious.
I'm sick of doing what makes me foolish,
Sleeping with myself got me waiting for hell in a hamachi.
That's suicide well...if I can manage.
Please all my friends have walked out on me! Please don't leave me you complete me like meat in a sandwich.
These days are full of poor people counting there talent.
But what's talent if you don't have nobody to count on to see it?
Forgive me for everything I have done I need you more then I know it.

I'm my on poison,
And I know it.
God you wasn't joking when you said I can't help it but you can help me..
Even if I do everything for them,
It pleases me but it's not pleasant

Lessons always there less is always more
When you’re alone with me you’ll never come up short ,
If I give it to you would you. Leave?
If I tell it to you would speak?
my emotions kinda deep
Ride my heart or you will sink
Cause I’ll take you high that you never seen
Low as Lucifer dreams

Picture you on a beach where the breeze is tangle and the sun is smooth get Lost in these words we traced don't worry I will patiently wait for you here like a frame hanging on a wall we have taken to another place.

Some how some way I can control the sea but I'll die before I count the sand
What am I is who I am is better then what they want me to be.
I can speak to the mountain and it will run in the sea..
So why am I still fighting over me?
Hell seems like it wants me but heaven went to go die for me just to see!
Indesicive will literally be a knife
And Love will be the death of me
In a strange land away from home
Locations around me are fading before they do without a trace I'll be gone back to my first Love you see I can control the ways of my life but counting my Sins I have already commited my trail is set in the heavens I bow my knees today to toss my mountain my life my gold my silver my things to stay ...

So cold but I am colder now
So froze My heart is frozen now
Who knows where we go from here
I was on the edge but I find myself on different pier.
Asking where
Where do I go from here ?

His pants half on, his tie is crooked.
His hair is done, but his mind is racing.

His eyes are focus, but his hands just won't stop shakin...

Then he hears a voice down the hall
It gets quiet within his heart
It's like his cares just drop
As I heard you walk.

"What is man that you are mindful of him".He said " the son of man that you care for him?"

His tears are now soaking his shirt, he finally got his tie straight l...so I've heard.
He looks at the door as a knock bleeds threw his spark.
It's his father gently saying.."he's almost here..be ready for on that Day he's coming for a bride without spot or wrinkle"....as I look up in the sky waiting for that wedding day a smile starts to sprinkle.

Stay with me and blossom my years have fell like autumn the rain and cold is timing so bring your  cotton lovelies you know the words that warm my heart I'll bring the light for the dark I know a house is not a home like frost is not the snow I came from nothing to I'll go where ever you want me to even if it's just Walmart in another news my world is waiting for you. Inhabit and leave offspring I've been homeless I hear your heart in the song it sings, I'm held by what is true "That the world I live in is for you" and I love you..

And I love you..
And I love..

Lions crouch at my pillow
Thinking in the fact that I'm wooded before the morning I'm a ******
Typical to drink the moon tonight
I just need a boat..

Take me to that place..to that secret place where I can be with you and you can make me like you.

Take me...
Take me.....far away
Oh what a place

He waits to die as he sits all alone he's man in a cell who regrets what he's done.

He utters a word from the depth of his soul,
"oh Lord forgive me ..I wanna go home.

Then he hears a voice somewhere deep inside and it said

I know you murdered and I know you lied and I have you watched you suffered all of your life..and now that you will listen I .... I tell you that I  
I will love you for you not for what you have done or what you will become I will love you for you

Smile..

Struggle just to keep my car rolling,
You struggle just to keep my mind open..
The walls are sinking and I'm soaked by what we have perfect but what is perfect ...yeah who is perfect?
Kiss of ****** and the touch of black angel. I bot my myself a shirt to cry on and a thick muzzle. You're lying and I know it! Evicted now we're open! I wished it but so hated the fact that the truth is not gunna come out now I look to a boyfriend that sad and full of maverick should I let it go like he said or become his black angel and never hold my wings again?

kinda strange to show affection for a person over-seas.

Now I'm walking  threw your waves   and this pain is getting deep.

When you lie and hold the bait I wouldn't know unless you speak.

But we don't !! You act like Skype is not for free or text is miles away!
Well kik ..okay ..okay....

I been losing sleep just to tell you about my faith.

After that it's me listening to another "oh okay."...

If I had it I would fly a plane or get on to a boat, But I fear it will be the same like I was joke

Go nd laugh but my bad my bubble just broke I'll be fine even when I need you the most.

I'll be fine I'll be fine
When I need you the most

Searching the answers in the stars is becoming very uncertain,
and you sitting on Saturn is making me understand a planet that’s without motion..
I’m a moon enlightened specimen, Mars thinking exorcist, I’m a water sign shifting in my benevolence.
And yet... I walked threw all the months and found my way back to the beginning
January...
I think it’s evident
I think it’s medicine
To have someone hold your hand threw this dark world.
Knowing you you don’t need non of them
all you need is to know That I’m here to ending
If that’s what you want then I’m standing at the end of my self
Bending acceptance
Standing threw the cold excellence
I’m here

When they told me that the world was ending,
I took a breath cause it was breath taking.
I sat down cause my knees were shaking.
I looked down for all of the mistakes I have made ...naked.
Then I thought of your face and your life and asked God.
"Who are you"?
"Who am I"?
What is man that your mindful of him.
So many questions when it all goes down..
If you say who you say you are, the ones I love how can I save those who you created to be in my heart?

Then the earthquakes got stronger.
The tornados got bigger,
Destruction was weather,
My eyes saw better.
Everything was on fire!
And with a soft answer.. Everything...everything Stopped..when God spoke and said.

"This is my son(Jesus) who I am well pleased listen to him".

And for the first time in all times I timed to speak, see,walk, talk I .....I...

Accepted my fate.
At the end it's great.
But without God's grace.
You get the others place.

When He told me the world is ending..

When is it your turn?
When is it your turn to fall ?
When is it your turn to break down?
When do you get too big of a piece?
When do someone stop there schedule for you..
Tell me ...
Tell me you believe in love
Do you
Tell me
Have you ever see This kinda of love?
so tell me when is my Time to show you that I care for you

He will be there wearing white
Don't matter what he thought when he thinks it escapes his mind.

Can't look back his past ain't bright
Lost sight on what was who hugged who touched first that place is  dry.

Sand castles thats de solved by the salt in his own life, but to think about it to much sugar is not good for you....like

When I had you in my hands literally tasting sugery skin on my tongue..why
Would I go back where i was to keep making sand castles and blank trips to my life?

Darkness was his favorite color back then when his "mind" controlled his life...now where ever his Heart is there he will dwell He will be there wearing white
Don't matter what he thought when he thinks it escapes his mind.

It's a new season the leaves fell off the branches...just a minute.
Reflecting of my heart and my soul and my spirit...can't deny it.
I see a ***** sky as the ground became a fragrance...rain on me !
Feel like im dead but I'm breathin..
Where are you now !
Where are you now that I need ya?
I've tried a different pair
Cover up my smile for a reason..oh..
I don't like to lie.
So where are you now that I need ya?
Where are you now that I need you.


Tell me that you love me cause I'm falling for my best friend.. Mm..
Your ex told you the same  as she left for your Woman...now you're Torn.
You know it's just a game when they tell you that "there playin"...that's for sure.
I'll be what you need but I know that you don't want it.. O Lord..
Where are you now that I need you.
Where are you now that I need you

He took you to see the world,
Knowing that you are mine, I don’t mind staying in today.
She took you to the roller coaster
But listen “Where do you want to go today?”
Where you lead I’ll follow
And when you need someone to lean on then I will hold you like The moon did Apollo.
He showed you how deep he can go
I want to build with you in love ..brick by brick.
Just call me yours and I will call you the Great Architect.

When you’re up im up,
And your down I’m around.
They gave you words
I’ll give you my step
you give me your night
And I will give my morning.
Even though you can’t see it now I’m willing to wait so you can take my eyes to see

I love you in everyway, everyday where ever will be today

Don’t look at me you seen to much already,
You learn to learn but can’t learn that Love is to heavy
And yet I run to you like there was something else to say..
If you wanted to leave I’ve made my bed in the driveway.
From past Goodbyes I sit and wait.
You take my hand upstairs and say “Rest...sleep”

Something you can never do alone,
As I wrap my arms around you you say
“Goodnight”
And I whisper
“You will never be alone”

....Rest
....sleep
It looks better on you then me.

I'm to old
He's too black
He's to white
Your to young
God this
God that
But you know she has your heart in every act.

You can
You will
She prays
Okay!
But you know he listen to you right?

This world is so messed that makes you look messed up when all you was doing is making things right,
Everything can go left in a night crap I hate how you're right crap I hate how I fight then I don't wanna do nothing I'm too busy thinking about my heart is gunna get broken one of these nights if I do or I'm keep it and someone else will lose there's if I won't.

Thanks Mom no Thanks Mom.

If your hands were a shelter and your lips was the sea,
I'm just tryna rhyme so you won't see my feelings..
If my hands was a safe place if my heart was a warm peaceful drink,
Would you stay and just Drink with Me?
You hide behind jokes you hide behind the weeks.
Is it bad to say when you crash I would like to see?
Or When you collapse fall on me ..?
Please..?
That day you will know you can Trust me.
Till then who do you want me to be?

Who are these that stand up and speak with authority?

The wind changing
Mind holding
Heart warming
Hands raising  and say to pain.
Stop right here and let joy come to embrace me.

I'll tell who we are We are The Lovers

I want the person to wake me up at 4 clock talking bout..
"I'm in love with you".

I want the world to end cause I know after this I have judgement.
You holding my hand is like my patience.
I can't lie I want to hold somebodies heart and when I step in a room they can't stand up.
A frown can't help but break up,
Cause I got keys that I tryed unlock my secrets that I only told the one that was up at 4 o clock.
Is that too much I'm too much I'm so in love with you and I haven't even met you love.
Turn on the water I got the soap.
We can get clean just by being honest and dipping our heads under and letting truth soak.
I know it's 4 o clock but who cares.
Your ready for it all to end but embrace time cause it's not broke.
Hugging you then you hold on tighter then the most.
I think about all this but I think about who don't.

Note to future self  in February…

They say never trust a cheater but what if you cheated out of fear of what’s to come?
For I was boy handling a gun
Now a man who understand what love comes from.
Even though I think it’s stupid to be dumb but the numbness that has summon is suggesting lust is better than love.
….And so I forgive you my love.
When I think about you cheating I understand for we were just boys handling a gun…
But if I was shooting my shot
Forgiveness is as a trained assassin.

Touch your soul when I’m in,
Take it out Just to mend.
Switch positions so sweetly
Eyes lock so deeply
My love is  always deep
Tatted on me so please ...
Don’t question his loyalty.

But Who is keeping score?

Watch the world just spin
Like the ceiling fan.
Don’t know where to start
don’t where to begin.
Let the Thunder roar
And the lightening begin
Did I lose you friend?
I can’t lose you again
**** the world I want him
**** the world I want him
Tell me how I can win?
Tell me how I want him
Tell me how I can win?

But who is keeping score....

You know
My heart hasn't even been home..
My mind don't won't to go..yeah..
My feelings didn't even show..hm..
Who's this man I don't know!
If you knew..
You asked me what's wrong I laughed then held you close,
Inside  these memories are cold..yeah..
So cold my smile didn't show ..hm.
Why didn't you come to the show!?
Well you only come when things are wrong..but I'm over it but my body feeling numb!!
"You know, zeal your the best brother don't you know.."
When you speak like that I know you know I don't believe in loose words anymore..yeah you know

Babe!
Who’s your favorite?
Oh we’re playing favorites...
Am I your favorite?
Yes  I do
You guessed it,
Missing you
Yes it’s true
All because I know I...
Seen what you been threw
I seen But I love to
All I know
Is
You

Hands ***** like my T-shirt,
All these lies on my t-shirt!
Holes and wrinkles..blows and regretful tears on this T-Shirt!
Who to blame when I bought it maaanee it's kinda strange to keep this up or keep it on.



"In order to clean your bad habits I learned you gotta stop picking those bad habits or they will rub off in your soul and become your actions."

This is my shelter when I hide
All of my answers will arrive
Knock on the door please come inside
Cause I’ve been waiting so long for someone to lay by

take my sweater and my heart
Bring your sun where it’s dark
Tell me stories let me soak
If I’m sinking let me drown
Cause I’ve been waiting so dame long
For someone to truely love who I’ve become.

Take the  focus off myself and place it on you, the vision is so awesome how you blow threw the trees if i could put the wind in another word of reflection it will be passion.

Blood on my Hands
blood on my wrist
blood on my pants
Oh i no i didn't
oh yes i did...

I lost my Mind
I lost my Friend
I gained a Win
when I woke up again.

Stars are to bright for the night but what happens in the morning?
I'm Feeling like they do not care about Family..
Benjamin Washington feeling like dead men are talking.

All of these babies,
All of these  bodies are dropping!
Think about Fame and It's glory
Losing your soul for injections
Losing your soul for Jet then
Losing your Soul for Eternity
but how do you ****** me in *******?
Slaves to *** looks undeserving
A pen without ink they are all empty.

Why am I playing with you?
No I'm not playing with you..
Can't you see there just  playing with you..

They Will **** me just for loving to tell you the truth,
If you know please just tell me
why are you playing to lose?

I wish I was your favorite
I wish you showed me that you were looking forward to it,
The day I ran back to your arms and we act like the titanic
Sinking back into the exact thing we tried not to be
I wish you would see this
I wish you seen what he can do then watch me closer then the mind does my conscience.
I wish i could drive by your house again
And you were waiting and knew it was with me
All I need is a smile
Just to see if you’re good
All I need is a kiss
Just to see if you still wanted it
All I need...
I wish...
All I’m asking for is...
When you see me..
I’m that guy that you let go but can’t remember why you did it.

Colorful roads and transparent rain,
Never seen these roads I thought I knew
It’s like my mind wasn’t mine
Even I can’t focus
Even my eyes can’t fit the reason I never seen such beauty
I guess it would of been vain to run into you
I wish...

Too Close to let you go too far to see you leave.
Hate to see you go but i wonder if you would ever come back to me..
But why Just for a Friendly Hi or Hug that i desperately Need?
I've been thinking that i really just need to leave..My escape didn't work forever i will be Free, bound by nothing Sometimes Don't give you a shoulder to cry on.
And My God I miss the way you sarcastically said things and I..remember the day you came without shoes to my house and we had a glass cup and i drunk Sparkling water like wine.
I'm writing this i don't know why, I'm scared not because you were wrong but because I'm maybe right when i say.

what will it change? to see you and how bad is the bump on my head to have another dream of you? and where do i go from here? and ..i just gotta ..I just gotta..Leave with or without you.

Me and the night has become one..
I feel gloomy like the stars
I feel shady like the moon
I walk under it all
Just to learn that it comforts my soul.

It follows me it follows me,
Why you follow me?
I can't run to fast or go to slow without it following me..
The funny thing is I should be chasing it,
I should be...
It let's  me know, it let's me know
It won't let me be...why you want me?
I can't go so high or go so low without it flying high or going deep..
And The funny thing is I should be embracing it,
I need to be....
I need you please I need you please
Please run to me.
And the funny thing became my serious refuge
When I stopped and waited for you..
I'm glad you came to join me
Because foreal I couldn't do nothing without you
Mercy...
Don't leave me don't leave me
Please I need you

If you had a question for me what would it be?
If you had my love and you had all my trust would you comfort me?
Well if we stop talking but you really missed me would you contact me?
And if somehow you knew that Someone you knew didn't like me would you leave with me?

If I kissed you just to kiss you would kiss me?

what makes a lie a lie?
When you find out the truth.
what makes a Dream a Dream?
Only when you wake up...right?
what makes love well...Love?
when you have completely gave somebody your all and trust that person fully with a intimate connection.

Sweet heart I lied to you and I slept with your best friend,
I broke our Dreams of being trustworthy to each other  will you forgive me?
would you trust them again?
Would you let your emotions blind you from the Dream ya'll have had together or better yet...
Would you love them again?
Would you

I want you literally by my side when lay down in my bed.
Forget the lust forget the ***.
Have you ever just wanted to lay down and rest?
Wake up with a individual saying "hey are you up"?
As you turn over you see they made you breakfast.
You smile and say joking word like man I hate your runny eggs..
Minute you smile and then they laugh and what happens next.
Is greater then the rest that you had.

They reach to get the plate but you pull there hand instead..
As y'all sit there smiling and you say man I'm glad your my friend.
As both of y'all are startled cause the plate rolled off the bed.
Then they say " I'm glad that you can clean up cause I'm going to bed"....


Wow did my imagination go there?

I must be blind to the T I forgot to dot my eye,
If that  mirror was Me I'm only a reflection of the sky.
These clouds rain these clouds hold Life
Why can't I see why can't I fly?
We really did fall further then our skies
Hells boundaries has taken Most skies
I've stopped looking up to the stars at night cause most are angels that lie
So I bow my knee and Pray head down that's one way of reaching God staying with him I have given  my life

I hear you calling my name but it’s faint
And the taste of you’re presence is turning to fate
What must I do to enter into your gates?
Confess that I am a wretched man ?
I can say but my actions don’t hold enough weight..
So I go to the gym in vain and lay here and think of you’re magnificent face praying that I may I get it right and that you will sustain before it’s to late
My Lord
It’s not easy reaching for something in me,
I can’t lie ... I’m not strong if there was a name I was some may call me weak

Now in life like what do I do?
Tried to fight but love is bleeding threw..
Hide in lies I'm looking for truth.
Layed with mines my mind has lost to.
Wars inside these thoughts have killed you.
Tried to fight  but love is bleeding threw...
Now in life like what do I do?
My life is world war you..

Tired of listening to silence when I does this thing to accomplish what I been with!

Feelings is feelings I filled you with a couple of feelings to care about me.

It don't work I work just to see me not co-opporating.

You’re my first and he is the last,
I Never liked  girls but that’s my bad.
To tell the truth I  was tired of ***
And she like every drop I guess.

He loved me and I continued it.
Was i wrong for alittle kiss?
I was wrong should of never text
Now you’re gone that’s word to my Ex

Look into my eyes and they will testify that
I have been alone feeling so useless and so dumb.
and I know what I’m missing !
Noo I’m not drinking
Oh there’s a difference
Wish u we’re here but understanding that you really weren’t with him...

Look into my eyes and they will testify that
Rather feel alone dame you really got me feeling numb.

Feeling it
Needing it and wanting it is so different
Some how I merge that
My feelings and my love is different
One stays the other only for a moment
If it’s time you want
He’s bending to your degree
If it’s me you want
I’m here to see what you see
Give me you
In all your glory
With wrinkles, with spots and specs
And I will show you
With me your slate will become clean
Just love me the way you do.