The pondering thought of will we last floods my brain everyday
I want nobody but you

We argue so much though
Is it love or lust I cant tell

Lust rushes through us
Is that the only thing keeping us together

Or do we truely love eachother
It's hard to say when it seems we only get along every once in a while

Your words cut deeper into my ego everyday
Your actions never change

I do everything i can for you
Clearly its not enough though

“Good Enough”
You say that's how you feel because of your mom

Apple doesnt fall far from the tree..
You have me feeling useless and unwanted

A broken charity case never to be used correctly
Love or lust

I choose love
I'm not sure about you though..

Love me or leave me
You must pick

I cant stand the thought of it but maybe its what you want
The only one who truly knows is you

Is this love or lust?

“WHY CANT YOU JUST BE GOOD ENOUGH!?”
Your words echo inside my mind
How could you say those things to me?

You expect so much out of me
But get mad when I do too much?
Can't you make up your mind

You gaslight yourself into believing your a good mom
But are you really?
The things you say to me..
“I could never treat my kids how i was treated”
But you do..

You've chosen him time and time again
No matter what he's said or done
How is he good enough..
But, I'm not?

I don't think you realize
Everything you put me through is like a bullet cascading against my skin
Every word burns a new hole inside my heart
But it's still always him.

“You don't try hard enough”
Something you've always told me but
I do EVERYTHING
I never get a break

You treat me like some ***** charity case
I've raised your daughters into who they are today
I'm the one who does your duties as a mom
But  I'm still not good enough?

Had me at only 17 and you think you rule the world
You've put me through much more than I deserved..
I was just a kid and I still AM!
I just wish I was good enough for you..
Like him.

When I bite into you I cant tell if your sweet or sour
The juices flood my mouth
So addictive is what you are
You are my forbidden fruit

The temptation to keep enjoying you, every touch every taste
Desire runs so deep with in me it almost bursts out
A room of flames surrounds us but we keep dancing
Til our desires are met

In the dark i see your outline and want more
Want to eat until im satisfied
Every kiss the fire deepens
The desire in our blood is never over

Our hair is twisted and tangled together
Every breath i feel makes me more tempted
I run but always return back to my forbidden fruit
There is nothing sweeter than your taste

All my soul is being taken from me by the addiction I have to you
We’ve reached the end of every lie
We are so much stronger than anyone knows
My downfall is because of my forbidden fruit,
you.

I see you looking
Wondering when the pain will stop
Looking into the distance I see you crying and aching  

Sorrow is all you feel, you have no hope I know.
Why does she treat you that way
Why does he let her

All the questions I never really found the answer to if I'm being honest..
I wish i could tell you its all solved and I know all the answers to your whys
But I don't

I don't know why we were put through so much pain
I don't know why he chose her over us
And I don't know why mom acts the way she does.

I wish I could tell you they changed but the truth is they havn't..
You still feel, you still hurt
The feeling is much stronger now tho..

I'm sorry
I'm sorry you have to deal with this forever
Slow down stop growing up

Take in your childhood because it's not going to get better
Smell in the pretty flowers
Blow the dandelion and make a wish

Your wishes will someday find you and you will be here.
Writing this to yourself
Someday the old me will be the new me.

In the dark love and death are there:
A field of bright tulips in the depths of warfare.

Everyone has a past.
Some bad
Some great
Everyone has one though

Everyone also has a future if we let them;
Not everyone gets a future

One day you're laughing at them
The next day they aren't there for you to laugh at
No one realizes the extent of bullying until they take it
                                                                            Too
                                                                       Far.
No one knows what anyone is going through until someone takes it
                                                                                                 Too
                                                                                            Far.
Learn from your mistakes right?
Not everyone gets that chance.

Not everyone gets a future because bullies take things
                                                                           Too
                                                                      Far.

Butterflies flutter around my stomach
Your memorable rose lips pressing against mine
The passion and tension strong between us

Butterflies flutter around my stomach
Your perfect lorus flower colored cheeks
The color growing stronger with every touch

Butterflies flutter around my stomach
Luxurious red roses handed to me from you
Our hands slightly touch

Butterflies flutter around my stomach
Our kirsch red heard interlinking
Beating faster with every look

Butterflies flutter around my stomach
Because you.
You are the colors of love.