I get what heartbreak means now
My chest is throbbing

Seated on a bench
Carved with words
Waiting for the train
To take me away

Somewhere far from
This empty town
The streets are too quiet
Only ghosts remain now

A fireplace flickers
Somewhere down the road
Piercing the night
And the whispering breeze

Cackling relatives
Curious children
The smoke curls
As the sounds fade

Beneath my feet
A deep rumble
The train screeches
To a halt beside me

Mist kisses my cheeks
Before I step into the light
The laughter stings
My scarlet ears

I take a seat
And press against the glass
Breath painting shapes
On the foggy window

I've left the town behind
My home nowhere in sight
I could be going anywhere
Yet I'm headed nowhere

The screams have been roaring
Thriving, locked in my head
Had I done nothing
There they would stay

But a new day has risen
Change I stray from, change I seek
Alas, the scars burn
Screams merely dulled to whispers

I am able to turn my ears away
Yet they linger in my heart
So cold, an aching snowfall
On my very soul

"You still love him, desperate as always"
"Difficult, unstable, unworthy *****"
"You are too afraid to try any more"
Now be silent and perish already"

The snow dissolves to nothing
In the midst of my true flame
The screams silence themselves
For I no longer listen to deafening lies

Despite my efforts, forgetting is futile
I am still persisted by whispers to this day
I cast them away as illusions
Bringing focus to the light I hold

Mother Earth
Twirls 'round, keeping a balance
Of a calm, dark night
And a luminous day

Mother Earth
Not the fairest maiden around yet
She provides
For ev'ry one of her kin

Mother Earth
Her arms are open to those who fall
For when it's time
We'll return to her

Mother Earth
She's growing tired of our antics
Suffering day by day
On our behalf

Mother Earth
Waving the smoke away from her eyes
The heat now grows
Unbearable

Mother Earth
What have we done to deserve you?
Surely we'll
Be your demise...

A time of innocent wonder
The world flowed around me
Bright colours hypnotizing
To my little blue eyes

Before the searing pain
Or the sharpened tongues
When the people I met
Became my friends

How I regret complaining
Of the simple addition
When time was merciful to me
And opinions meant nothing

Drama spread like fire
Over toys, boys, and friends
Only to be forgotten
The following day

Life of innocence
Seemed never-ending
Oblivious and naive
I wish I could stay

On my own
Decisions have failed me
Love now a distant
Tangled lie

I walk among others
Their hearts turning over
My mouth repeats
What my eyes have seen

At last, love blossoms
For two friends close to me
As fate strikes yet again
I observe in utter joy

But I hold my own secret
For my love has returned
Back to habits long faded
Mended with pleasure

I'll be their wings
Into a new dawn
A mere shadow on the wall
But not quite so lonesome

Told to hold
My memories close
How many will I forget?

Still, I will
Set them on my shelf
Already some forgotten

Flesh unfolds
Of tinted hues
Reveals no difference
Of heart, in nature

Acts of folly
Acts of grace
What does it matter
When consumed by darkness?

Tyrants, we are
Too clever for ourselves
Yet again
We deface our own

Beasts weep before us
The ground grows bare
Alas, we build skyward
Destined to fall, the cycle of life

Clockwork minds stand in rows
Held captive by flashing lights
"I am better than you!"
We shriek in pure delight

Our pride ineffable
Forever climbing further
Scoffs of mockery slaughter innocence
Drawing blood with hearty laughter

Are we not simply ******?
Watch us drown in pleasure
And let our corpses rot!
Just for human desires

So selfish are we
Craving earthly possessions
They dig our graves for us
As we suffocate in false joy

Who are we?
What are we?
Why are we?
Human...

Help
Why do they care about me so?
My emotions fit in all the wrong spaces
By darkest, I am driven
To think bad thoughts
To say horrible words
To do terrible things
Go away
Leave me be
I can't take this
Then I'll leave
Forever
After my happiest day

Life is a gift
Of random splendour

Pain starting swift
Then the next so tender

Or so they say
Give a reason to me

Why my sweets stay
As stagnant as can be

Light whizzes past my eyes
Colliding with the next
Bright hues of every colour
Swirling, hypnotizing, enchanting
All the lies, they will not save me
Fantasies left to crumble

Crisp sheets lay in front of me
Their words scramble together in unending strands
A voice shreds my ears
Scraping lines tie me down

I can't focus
I can't hear you
I'm sorry

My chest is pierced, to no reply
Shrill laughter licks up the blood
I'll surely ignore my punishment
And give myself what I deserve

At my only sanctuary
Numbers and letters invade
Just to eat up my time to heal
My insides are twisted up and empty
Yet I smile around those who see

I am held back by myself
Chains ripping at my wrists
Pressed against a wall of shattered glass
I've misplaced the letters H-E-L-P
They've been scattered on the floor

I can't focus
I can't hear you
I'm sorry

Love can heal
A broken heart
But love takes many forms
A touch of another
The embrace of a mother
Hold close those you cherish
To a dear friend
A few simple words
Could truly mean the world

Would you love me if
I put forth an apology?
Would you love me if
I could make you jealous?
Would you love me if
I changed my looks?
Would you love me if
I acted normal?
Would you love me if
I̸ ̷s̶t̴o̴p̵p̴e̴d̸ ̸c̸a̶r̷i̵n̵g̴?̷
Would you love me if
I̷̞̦̽̈́ ̴̖̗͊s̶̪̑t̵̼͑͂o̶̧͂p̶̈͜p̶̨̖͊e̶̙̽d̴̗̈́ ̷̨̖̾p̷̥͉̎̃l̸̯̈́͘ĕ̴̳a̵̜͘͝d̵̺̏͗i̴̩̇͜n̶̪̰̚̕g̵̡̞͆?̷͙̀̋
Would you love me if
Ì̸̱͉̳̭̄ ̴͎̜̱̍͐̕s̵̜͗t̴̩̗̟̉̔͗͛ì̵̦̘̿̾̌͜ͅt̴̹̿c̵̗̜̫̏̄h̸͖͛͌e̶̹̔́̓d̷̼̙̐ ̵̖̱̙̪̄̉͗ṁ̸̯͕͒̿̈́y̵̙̪͖̠͊͑ ̴͓̻͉̪̽͒m̸͉̙̝͒̈́̔ȯ̴̧̮̙̍̓ͅù̴̪̀t̵̨̘̘̾́h̷̰̏͐́͐ ̴̻͎͕̆͒ş̴̛̘̱̌͘͝h̸̭̊̊͝ù̸͚̍͘ť̷̞͖͍̏̿?̴̭͂͗̍
Would you love me if
Ĭ̸̻̠̱̪̞͔̰̬͖̰̳͔̅̔̆ ̴̨̛̲̺̝̙̻̩̒͒̆̽͋̆͛͊̇̓́̈́̈͂̇͌͝Ḱ̴̨̢̛̯̟̫̹̣͍̜̼̤͈̤̫́͗̊̔͋͌̐̆͒͛̀̏̏̾̀̾̊̚̕̚ͅ­͔̮̣̝̠͉Į̵̛̝̭̺̲̤̱̊͐́͌̋͆̏̒̃̂͐̎̈́̐̓̔̏̿̔̚͘̕͠͝L̸̨̢̡̦̜͍̠̗̖̜̼͔̞̗̔̄L̷͗̏͑͋͝­̡̪̲̫̥͚̘͖͓̜̰̭̔́̑́̓͐̓͂̅́͊͘͜͝͝É̷̡̛̗̍̓̾̾͗͋̽̃̿̐͗D̶̛̛̆͐́͐̈́̋̽̑̈́̈̀͑̓̚͝͝͝­̢̨̗̥̥͔̥͋͋͛̅ ̷̛̰̙̱͕̼͈͂̌̅̇̊̍̊̑͊̂̉͂̆̏̈͋̃̓͐̕̕͘͝ͅͅM̷̨͈̾̌̈́͐̀͊̌͊̓͆̈́̂̄̾̆̎̈́̌̆̆͝͝Y̵̢̨̟̏­̢̧̨̧͕͇̣̳̲͖͕͉̬̪̝̣͓͍̬̩̭̪̖Ś̸̻̱̜̞͇̬̫͔̠͓̬͕̲̥̯̬̭͖͕̣̰̤͉͇͕͗̈͗͌͆̓͜͝͝E̵̓̿̕­̨̛̛̹̞̪̱͍̤̩̦̿͒̾́̄̍́͛̏̿͑̔̀͑̀̉͗͐̍̐͝L̸̢̡̰̙͇̞̩̞̜̜͕̝̲̝̠͇̻̩̻͊̈́͗͂͆̂̀̂̒̃̕ͅ­̹̼͓̱̗F̶̛͙̪̂̈́̋͂͛͛̈̓̂̇͘͘͜?̷̪̯̤̹̱̖̇͆͂̉̈́̒̏̿́̿̐̄̎͛͒̑̔̍́̈́̿̄͠͝͝


My apologies
I forgot how much
You caused me to suffer
I'll forget you too!
It won't be long now...

The world goes cold
My heart speeds up
The snake constricts my insides
The constant pain
My legs weak
The bird pecks at my soul
The increasing panic
My vision goes blurry
The shark rips through my thoughts
The voices drown out
My hands start shaking
The cougar claws at my flesh
The darkness draws near
My efforts are useless
The wolves consume what’s left

A seed is planted.
With sunlight and proper care,
It can become something beautiful
A sprout forms
Small and weak at first, with hopes of growing stronger.
It continues to unfold it’s leaves
Gaining trust in the world
Planting roots to hold it in tough times
As another flower sprouts beside it
The new is grateful
The other is happy
…
A storm comes
Ripping other plants from the earth
Tearing apart emotions and dreams
The two support one another
Keeping each other standing in the wind
The storm ends
They are shaken and scarred
Something that can’t be erased
Days become long and dry
Bugs fly in and eat away at what is left
The once proud, young flowers are ready to give up
But
They won’t let each other
The first remembers something deep down that was once forgotten
With sunlight and proper care
It can become something beautiful
Petals unfold
The two flowers turn to the warm, welcoming sun
The promise that tomorrow will be okay
That they will face anything that comes their way

People come and go
There’s something they don’t know
The quiet ones who hide
Have the most pain deep inside
Terror and fear day by day
It’s not something that’ll just go away
The battle is one not many can face
So called weaker ones take that place
They suffer through day and night
They’re the only ones who can win the fight

The demons follow, of shadows and dust
Distant happiness left to rust
Telling of what could go wrong
Luring people with a broken song
They believe all of the lies
Feel the watch of non existent eyes
They suffer in silence, no help nor cry
Feeling like they will die
Everything cold, vision blurry
The demons follow, of anxiety