I'm questioning my sanity
questioning me,
questioning why i like this person
I like them for hopes and personality,
not for their looks and beauty,
she likes to dress up as other people,
and go party with her friends,
but i'm always here when she comes back,
and the cycle starts again

my mouth seems sewn shut
im becoming quiet through the noise
the world is loud and obsessive
i cant look now
for my wings are already out
spread out, shadowing others
my mouth is quiet
but my actions are loud

Never been a fan of this holiday,
always lookin at the lies and troubles
I'm suppose to be happy this time of year
so why do i feel this empty?
where is all my cheer?
The cold hits like flash,
last leaf falling from the tree
It's that time of year

What happened to my mind,
when did i fall down below,
how did i not realize,
that you are leaving me
to stay here alone

I can't hold it together
any longer and i'll break again
i'm gonna fail, we all know
that i'm just a mistake
i'm falling down
into the unknown
as i fall, i see your face
and know its going to be ok
but the stone walls, cave in
and tumble over
down on my knees,
all i can say is
"don't leave me please"

no bounds on humanity
and i can cry
"don't hurt them"
as loud as i want
but no one will respond

I'm feeling entangled, snared by the life.
I can't see to breathe, even though i have the breath to,
I want to become somebody else, even though it's a new year,
I can't help but seem so down, so low.
I don't want to be here, but i need to stay here for them.
them isn't a person who i can feel,
it's the person inside who doesn't want to give up,
i don't have much this year,
just a lot of untangled fear

O' little one, tales of old and new,
shall tell you of our history, whether fake or true,
there's always two sides to a stories,
perspectives unknown,
would you be our savior,
with love we haven't known,
for when people have self doubt,
we will never grow,

O' growing faithful one, your stories appearing
you fought others for glory,
but is it who you're meant to be,
follow the path of your mind,
and do not stray,
for you shall be the one to save the day,

O' youngster of my brethren, you have turned wicked
and your heart is now cold, where did you wrong,
have you no pride, for what you've created
have you no sorrow for those killed,
whist your knives be stained with red,
and your clothing wet from those tears,
that they shed, for you have no mercy
and we have no hope

O' old soldier, do you see what you made,
a land of horror and pain,
children and men are scare all the same,
and you are the cause of it all

do you feel pain
or do you feel happiness
do you feel pride
or sorrow
do you feel nothing
or everything
I'm sorry you're helpless
You fool of mine

I’ve been lookin’
I’ve been searching
I cannot find my senses
All I feel is emptiness
Corruption is here I guess
Though I will never admit it
I should have loved you
Instead of them
Thoughtless and loneliness
Can I get an amen?

Claws of polished nail
Skin of false tone
Words of deadly poison
Pushes of brute power
Rope of release
Shouts of sorry
Hung from the tree
Of apples of blood
What have you done
To cause it again?

Deep inside another level, my character swings a sword
of bravery and hope, death to the dark that scorns us,
while some might run and hide away, from this adventure
I wish to stay and fight another battle, to help save the day
I wear armor of some degree, of steel and golden chivalry,
Walking along a path of stone, untold and unconfined  
as weary as i am, and how sore i am, but can hold me back
as i am a soldier, to fight my own battles and protect those can't
I am a warrior for peace and hope, something i don't know about

Why do people hate?





When it’s just another form of love?


Why do people lie?



When it’s another’s truth?


Why do we all live?


If we are just made to die?

The girl by the window,
You remember her,
I thought she was kind and good
But I guess that was a lie
I didn’t know I told
She used my faults against me
And turned me inside out
My pride, still unbroken
My trust, smashed down
If this is what she wanted
Guess what?
You succeeded
Guess what girl by the window?
I’m still sour; I’m so sour
Wanna use my disease against me?
And then apology like it was nothing?
Complain to one of our mutual friends?
About how “you don’t understand”
Clearly you don’t,
You underestimated me
I may be over dramatic,
I may be careless,
I may be senseless,
I am faulty
I am diseased
I am broken
Yet I am me

I don’t wanna back down,
but I have too
You broke my trust in you
And my love and like in you
I didn’t dislike you,
I didn’t shame you,
I didn’t do anything,
I was playing around, joking
And yet you think I was serious.
I understand it was fine,
But for now I want to be alone,
I want to think
I want to feel again
I want to be able to trust again
Thank you,
Girl by the window
For making me think again
For making me feel again
I feel myself grow
I feel myself again
I feel whole and broken again
I feel free again.

there's a reason why i don't like to smile
it's because i'm scared
i'm scared of the results
i hate the idea of being disliked
so i'm guessing it's better to be still
i'll stay in the back of class
i'll be quiet and strong
maybe unseen, but who cares?
one day i'll get past this
itching fear of mine
but for now
i guess it's ok

As the bells rang across the land
and people fell down on knees
He took them by the hand
and stood them up
and the declared
"Oh you are free, hallelujah"
with ****** swords on the ground
and hands of guilt all around
they stood and said to the rest
"Hallelujah"
but with power given back to them
one stood alone and spoke
"how do you trust them"
"we don't even know them"
he shouted and stood his ground
before looking at the battleground
and he rang his warsong bells
above everything he lost that day
he stared out at the men stilled
and he stopped and said
"Hallelujah"
with people freed and war derailed
everyone just sang out
"Hallelujah"

I'm going insane on this
holding in things that i miss
never admitting to anything incriminating
nothing can stop me now
but as i dream on
with a needle in my arm
i'll just focus on you

to bury this love
is to sacrifice
but still i make the choice
to stick in the pain
and the inducing nightmares
take over as i sleep

but it worth it
to do things in the light of moons
and the caves of crystals that i dream of
and the habits that i have
just hold on me

lacing me with poison
do anything to help
but you do nothing
you just look at me

burning symbols into my skin
you left me burning with my life
and i barely did anything while i was alive
just hold onto me
till my last breathe please

they give us some titles to represent us
stereotypes to build ourselves into
yet you have given me more to see
less to eat, less to explain, less to say
control me, use me, do whatever
i will never build into a stereotype forever

I wear bright colors to feel noticed
I wear clothes to cover up things people don't like
I wear things that I want to wear.
Sheer, ripped and beautiful

I choked on my fear
I fell to my knees
****** and bruised
But don’t make my mistakes
Seem like flaws
For my mistakes
Are what I love
About myself

in my hands i can hold
only a few items
but will you give me
the thing i want most
can i hold your heart

Morning’s light
Night’s dark
Bird’s call
And wolf’s howl
Predator’s bite
Prey’s cry
Sun’s might
Moon’s glare
Flower’s bloom
And tree’s sway

Why did you leave me
Your the one who got away

stars fall apart, and i want to fall
if i go to Mars, will my gravity hold me still
tie a rope around my waist
let me float in outer space
i wish to be like a supernova
i want to be a known person
but i'll disappear
almost immediately
so i guess
earth is ok to me

feeling obsessive over myself,
i don't have time for anyone else,
can't i feel anything else,
what can i do to help out,
i put others before myself,
way too much, and i hurt myself
i'm becoming unstable,
even though i do everything else

The world in the eyes of a child is bright and pure
The world in the eyes of a teen is dark and sour
The world in the eyes of a adult is fruitful and deadly
The world in eyes of a elder is silent and peaceful
The world in the eyes of the dead is nothing.

Death is sweet to some, flowers all around
For others, their names are gone, unknown to the world
The flesh on bones, wearing away
The blood ****** out
Bones wrapped in vines, awaiting
The flowers to bloom
Herald of death, Herald of heaven
Argue over souls
The souls weep tears of sorrow
As they are taken away
Herald of death,
Your methods dark
Torture and pain so true
Your words so hateful and deep
**** me now
Herald of heaven
Your methods light
Love and respect so true
Your words so sweet and careful
Revive me now
Either way of passing, go into
Your life is on their hands
Young, old, and dead

My ginger house is breakin
No feeling left for the oven
Might as well burn it all away
Honey fixes everything
But this isn’t any sweet thing
Flowers always wilt away
Vanilla loving, nothing like the past
Hungry for a new taste

My lover is the Earth and I am her moon,
I’ll circle her till the end,
Protecting her till then
Her eyes are as cool as water
And her skin a lovely tan
Her hair is like fire,
Her clothes green as trees
She holds me like the atmosphere
She brushed me like the wind
And as she leans close to whisper
All I hear is crackling of lava
As the breathe hits my skin.

She loves the sea,
Clear and blue
Like I will never be
But she carries me across
The blue as she has me
She loves me
She cares for me

Every day is pointless
Unless someone wants me there

I didn’t wanna tell
I didn’t want to break it
But my love went down the well
And I can’t ever recover it

Yesterday I saw you
With your new man
I wondered how
You let him hold your hand

You said you loved only my love
And would never betray it
But then you left me down here
And continued going above

Your love was false
A hoax for golden bars
But what is gold worth
If it is wasted and rusted
By your unclean soul

It’s your fault
Not mine
You put my life at a halt
Your sweet words mesmerizing me
You shouldn’t be there with him,
You belong to me

Do you here me
Love of mine
You can’t escape
My little game
You started it
Not me

Lost long love, where did you go,
are you out in the winter cold,
the fire can't keep me warm, no more
Can you just come back to me,
I promise, honey, i'll set you free
I'm just lonely without you here with me
Back to the fire, I trying to warm up,
I miss you, lover, why can't you be here with me
I know that you, are fighting for me,
But please come home, i'll be here waiting
Lost long love, i know where you went,
You crawled inside my heart, and won't get out

Mad hatter’s lost his mind
Spilling tea like it’s water
Tea cups shatter, already battered
Oh god, why am I here

White Rabbit’s time is out
Gonna lose his head now
Time doesn’t wait even for the strongest
Oh god, why am I here

Cheshire’s claws painted,
Stained with red blood roses
Killin’ butterflies with no mercy
Oh god, why am I here

Caterpillar’s pipe is out
No more drugs now
His mind breaking down
Oh god, why am I here

Queen’s dress, tattered in pieces
Who could’ve done this
Was it him?
Oh god, why am I here

Flower’s wilt, food is gone
Go back to the original
Lost land, wilted down
Oh god, why am I here

Trapped inside the clam shell,
Waiting for sweet release,
Oh god, why am I here
I’m not Alice in this story

Burning light,
Through the night
Keep me warm and safe.
Though you burn me,
and I ought to run,
I will stay forever

Your skin is cold,
But your heart is warm
And beating fast
Fighting the shivers of the cold

The day arises, from the eastern coast
The sand of black hatred
Turning white
We have conquered the dark
And we shall live together

Tea is a wonderful thing
It warms you warm
And calms you down
The aroma is electric
And the feelings are great
But one thing about tea
That we all hate
Is that tea can burn

A fool is one who cries
When they are rejected
The fool is the one who lies
When they are affected

A pit of fear and conquest
A place where demons thrive
A place only for the best
To arrive alive

One will overcome fear
If one doesn’t hold something near
The gates of hell awakening
Pray for us
As we are all weaklings

I wish i was Icarus, brave and bold
Flying towards the sun with no worries

I wish i was Psyche, soulful and proud
With butterflies and her silver crown

I wish i was Pan, wild and free
with animals and nowhere to be

I wish i was a Muse, talented and seen
with a voice of careless beauty

I wish i was a legend, old and wise
with stories to tell and no binds

But i am myself, loud and spoken
I'm taught by stories, and i want to be one too