How could I just let that *** ruin me,
and make a big impact on my life.
Now he's going to abandon me,
For someone else.
******* ****.
Liking someone doesn't last long.
Yeah I ain't jealous,
I'm just disappointed.
Disappointed cause I couldn't tell him anything what was wrong.
Yes. Could say he tried helping me.
I can't open up to anyone,
Can't talk to anyone,
Can't smile at anyone,
A friend would be just nice,
someone who'd listen to a very ****** up story.
I am dieing on the inside,
I feel no happiness,
No anything,
He killed me.

I am in love
In love with his smile
His dimples when he smiles, so ****
His eyes are the most wonderful I ever layed my eyes on
His laugh, kills me on the inside everytime
All I can do is smile at him
His pure black hair. Wow. I love the way he puts his hair, under his cap, combed back
He's ******* ****
He is a lot
We will never be apart cause we're close in a very different way.
I don't know if it's love or just me putting stuff into my head.
I miss him everyday though.

I can't sleep.
I can't stop crying.
I love him too **** much.
I wished he knew that.
Very sad night\early morning.

Almost every night, I cry myself to sleep. I got told to go see the doctor today, he'll give you anti-depression meds. I told her I'll get through this myself. My uncle John came by today, he came to see if I'm alright, guess he knew. Uncle John was the second person I rejected about talking. I've been forced into a closet till I was 18, now its hard to talk about my feelings and all that. But look on the brightside I'm shutting them out. I stay up late at night thinking, its hard to go to sleep when I'm sober, or a bit burnt out. Everyday is a new day I have that written down on a note to remind myself why I'm still alive.