Caleb John

Caleb John Nov 2018

Eyes

I can't tell you how many times I want to say

If you saw me for who I am you would never want to stay

I doubt I'm the only one feels this way

But Jesus doesn't see us this way

He saw every thing we ever did wrong

He knows every little fault

Every little lie

Every lust filled night

Every bit of human filth that fills this world

And he saw it through a different pair of eyes

He saw what he loved

He sees through eyes of love

If not there would be no reason for the dove

Jesus eyes are filled with love as he looks at this world filled with filth

He saw what he loved

And he came to save an evil world

That He loved

I wish I saw people through those eyes

Caleb John Nov 2018

No Man Left Behind

He sent us into this world to spread his message

He sent us as warriors

Soldiers

To penetrate and pierce the horrors of this world

We were called to work together

As a band of brothers and sisters

What do I do when my brothers are shot down

And my sisters are set on fire?

Caleb John Nov 2018

The Little Things

Days in and day out

I stay holed up in this little routine of mine

Sometimes I get bored and start to pout

Inside behind closed doors

That's when the rain begins to pour

It gets kind of sad behind walls of loneliness

Sometimes you have look past walls

Sometimes you have to crawl

But the little things bring joy

Don't be coy

Go outside

Enjoy the breeze

Enjoy the fresh air

The birds flying in their dance without care

The trees swaying to the wind

It's the little things that make me smile

God's great creation of the ant

Beautiful green grass

Leaves changing colors

Playing games and hanging out with my brothers

A quiet morning with a cup of hot chocolate

It's the little things that can bring much joy

Caleb John Nov 2018

This Healing in my Side

Jesus you put your hand in my side

And gave me the strength to walk again

You know this thorn that's lodged in my side

You know the pain it causes

But I know you've given me the ability to move forward with this thorn

But sometimes I look around

And I hear people say that I'm something spiritual or something special

Then I turn to the other side

To people who think I'm crazy or offensive because I stood up for the unborn

But that wasn't me

It was you

You give me the healing

You give me the strength

But people just don't know the battle I face

My flaws and impurities shine so bright

I don't know where people see your light

Cause it sure isn't from me

I am the chief of sinners

This thorn was my own doing

But you gave me healing

Caleb John Nov 2018

This Thorn in my Flesh

Some nights I wish I would meet Jesus early

This pain is too great for me

Jesus take it please

It's too much for me

These temptations scream in my ear and can't wait for me to to fail

I've started so many poems like this

I'm just so sick of the same lack of bliss

This is a thorn to my flesh Jesus take it!

But if I must

I will walk with this spike driven into my side

Even if I hobble I can only make it on your strength

I don't even have this strength to grovel

This thorn

It causes me pain

It makes me wain

I feel like I sit here behind this screen

And rewrite poems that I've already wrote before

But every time

I face similar demons

I know millions across the world are staring the same ones in the face

We all have thorns driven into our sides

Caleb John Oct 2018

Directions

When I'm lost and confused

And I'm just tired of being abused

By this world

It leaves me breathless without a word

I will look to you

But when I miss your cue

And keep taking a beating

I'll break through my mind

Some may call it cheating

But you gave me a free will

I may not know your will

But I know what in my heart I need you to ****

Sometimes I need direction

For reproof and correction

But when I can't hear which direction I need to go

I will make my best decision that I know

If I make the wrong decision

Push me to the right one

Caleb John Oct 2018

Sufficient

Me:

God I can't do this anymore

You sent me to do an impossible job

It's too hard

These temptations will **** me

I don't feel your power

I cry out to you but hear no reply

Where are you?

I need you to remove this adversity

I can't do it

I don't have the strength

This is too big

Jesus:

I told you I am with you

You're right these adversities are too big for you

But they're not too big for me

I stand beside you

I am the breath in your lungs

My power runs in your veins

These temptations form a thorn in your flesh

My Grace is enough for you

You haven't scratched the surface of the power you have at your call

I am enough for you

My Grace is sufficient for you

I am sufficient for you

I commanded you to keep going

What made you think these struggles were too big for me?

You stopped and questioned

You stopped and doubted

But I tell you

My Grace is sufficient

For you