It’s almost been a year—
a year since I last saw you smile,
since I talked with you,
since I heard your voice,

A year of crying,
a year of trying to understand,
a year of sinking into silence and grief—
a year since you breathed.

"She loved the embrace of nature,
and so did I.

Perhaps that is why we never met —
for the earth can never touch the sky,
even though their names
are always spoken together."*
✍️ Usha Maniar

I wish I could stare in the mirror
Look back at that haunting reflections
The long, dark shadows, lying behind my eyes
I want to tell myself to live—
To finally learn how to smile, genuinely, for the first time in my life
But deep in my heart, I have always been a coward
And I could never forget you
So I hide away from the truth, sinking into oblivion
"Things will get better."
But that's just another lie, isn't it?

when I married you,
it’s as if I smashed a mirror
that punctured me
with seven years of bad luck

Am I finally going to heal?

I feel anemic of this relationship

I have lost a lot of ****** time

I am still bleeding

non- stop