I wish all your expression were so transparent.

I just smile, and the silence was the answer when you left.

What if I never fall in love again, remember you are the suspect in this misery,

One day this pain will make sense to you.

I really hate the way you make me look stupid and jump the gun,

Lonely leaf, just dancing off the pain, swinging together with the wind and rain.

Must we always have to end and say goodbye

DYING EMBERS

feeling's I knew started to come true,
in every dark corners it brews,

Screaming but the words can't make it through.

A kind of torture where you
chained the truth to create something new,

To create a contract where the night will only knew,

Where tears fall to admit it's deep sheer suffering.

May be its the smile,
The maybe's or the joke.

It's getting heavy,
It starts to Conquer me.

Part of living is giving yet deceived more often,

For a long time in my life,
    I have sought comfort in poems and songs.
To heal wounds and hide scars
     feel haven for just a brief moment
Be free of the agony and terror
      brought by a brute reality.

Cold and aching, I hid everything,
    thinking of fooling everybody with a mask so beutifully painted.
But the heart can only take too much...
So there I layed wasted, crumbling to dust.

Endured the raging trials of life, silently breaking.
Smiling so brighly to hide the aching;
I have felt solitude like no other;
I stayed and watched 'till my heart shattered.

Where do our hearts go, when our chest is too cold for it to be called its home?
Lost in this loneliness, I wandered alone...where do I find you?
I sought peace as if it was air.

-its like drowning, except you can see everyone breathing.