Everyone will be okay
Everything will be alright
Another day to get it done
Somedays have some fun
Not stress worry or care
Be careless with no regret
Dream big without doubt
Always pretending it's real
Anxious for it all to come true
Haven't give up still striving
Working behind the scenes
Finding peace within it all

Time is a monster,
that eats away your soul.
A nibble here.
A nibble there.
Until it takes its toll.
Unstoppable.
Unmeasured.
Undeniably the truth.
Time is a monster.
And it's favorite food is youth.

.
And then you were there
your presence touched my dream
I recoil at the beauty of it
unfamiliar with the feeling of love,
I feel your confused hurt
and wish you would withdraw
and wish you would stay
because the emotion scares me,
somewhere, somewhere in the night.

And then you were there
your fingers brushed my skin
I recoil at the softness of it
unfamiliar with the touch of fondness.
I see your confused hurt
and wish your eyes would laugh
and wish your eyes would cry
because your heart calls to me,
somewhere, somewhere in the night.

And then you were there
and then you were not,
and I yearn to find you,
somewhere, somewhere in the night.



© Pagan Paul (19/03/19)

I want to be able to love again
   as if the pieces of my shattered heart still fit together
Before I knew the empty numbing sting of betrayal
   Of those I loved and trusted.
Hurt-beyond what the senses were meant to endure
   Crushing, overwhelming heartache and despondency
Replaced by nothing
      Emotional vacuum
          A ghost in a shell
The windows of my eyes drift farther and farther away
    I sink deeper and deeper inside myself.
                 
I just want to be loved
I just want to be loved without fear
Without regret
Without the promise
of tomorrow's
cold debt