Open the
Doors don't keep
It sealed in one
Compartment
Let the
Flood
Renew
Your house

Breathe your mind empty;
I couldn't give you
different names though your
appearances differ
I couldn't
bring myself to call you
anything
A half-hearted try
you say,
already feeling
your face radiate
this smile that only builds from
knowing
I couldn't name you
anything else

As you grew into
Your true Form the scenery
Before your very eyes,
Too,
Changes and turns
Into the live version of what you
Always perceived
As remembering forward.

You are perfect, cause time has always been for you.

❤️

The pancakes are not cooking themselves, dear. Life is not living itself, without you. Get up get going everything calls. Everything calls for you in colour and sound and brilliant movement and you shall see it -

You lift your palms shaking bring them together no idea why you see

Life

unfolding calling and you are not
doing it alone
You lift your palms hold them
to your forehead

Life

Calling

Life

Soft blue folds itself
around you
you don't need to
control it
whispers in your ear and the wave this
sound lays out for you
has your feet
trust
the path you walk on

Unbroken
Holding a green
Felt pen in YOUR right hand-

Holding it up
Like a weapon

We start, and keep, and continue drawing
Green into people's hearts
To crack them open.

My whole system refuses
categories
at this point

refuses
to opt
am I even
a girl or not

your whole system
embraces
all possible choices
within

Healing
Takes time, they say

I think Healing
Deserves time.

🌱

There's a woman sitting
on a chair in the garden thinking
is that all right are things
really going
alright thinking
there's a boy squatting
in the grass in the backyard not kicking
the football thinking
is this all going well is it
okay that way thinking
there's a girl looking
at the corn flower not moving thinking
is everything really how it should be are things
going how they should thinking
there's an old man pausing on his  daily walk squinting
into the last rays of sunlight thinking well if this is
alright and fine thinking
     there's a baby popping out of
a mother
not thinking already
loving all that offers
itself in this place already sensing
this is going to be
a hell of an adventure sensing
     somewhere an old man
suddenly feels
an impulse to keep
walking
A boy slaps his own thighs gets up howls
into the evening light kicking
a ball a woman letting out
a breath she was holding lifting
her can to water
the flowers a girl
sets herself back
into motion
a smile on the face somewhere
in space a green planet
has gained new
confidence

I took the headphones off
for you, my dear

He says
and gasps
when he now sees me fighting

Put down your arms
I cannot tell you more
how much I love you

You put down your guard
I say
how do you want me that I pray
for you?

I have no guard
just bandages
he says
and pray you only do in church

To me you just exist
because you do

no need for words, for song, for chemicals
be brave enough to be

just you.

Do you
Make Yourself
Bigger
Do you
Make Yourself the Place
That you call Home

Tugging tirelessly
at your sleeve tapping
on your shoulder knee
heart
the beat that keeps
repeating
grow
through it grow
break
the limitation

He never throws his mind too far
into the space of
calculation
he taught himself that
after every
iteration
call it back
so that it does not lose connection

The kid knows
No numbers.
Only mass.
No names of colours.
Only colours.

It walks without counting
The steps
Or if it does
It's just for
Fun.

The earth does not
Count either.

A wiser man might say
That we should be prepared.

The kid
   Looks
at the man,

Shrugs,

Walks ahead.

In the middle of the middle
of no space
a pair of yellow, childlike eyes,
innocent and with
just a trace of oblivion,
opens

On her penultimate breath she
pulls out the shiny
new old card in her deck which reads
I am sovereign
holding it up to show
to trigger
another kind of
mass-effect

Integration doesn't mean that
Everything has to blend into
One cohesive Self

Integration
To me
Means
That everything can be there with You
Without having to Change into Something else

🌼

In between the sky
and the earth

is a spot

No-one ever told you
not
to fill it.

It feels worthwhile now
Dear
to not fear
open doors and
windows

It feels
worthwhile to let
the

Sun

shine

in

A sleep
of thousand years or more
in warmth and stars and light
and before
night
was there-

A sleep so gentle
and so genuine

And yet such a huge
happiness
inside my heart
when you came here
and woke me up
to play-

How you said
take your headphones off
and how we walked
then ran
then jumped and laughed
so much-

And how I showed you
that just with a soft
and careful touch
you wake a sleeping flower
and make a million colours
reappear.

Delicate
lines of
light show
on my skin

coming from
where
exactly

Dare say
meaningless
again

You're
allowed to breathe
with everything you are
You're allowed
to breathe and
take
Space
wrap yourself around
those obstacles
like water
til they
melt

You shake of the little
That still clings
To your Form, with loving
Assertion

We can do this now

Shake of your old roles
And in this way allow freedom to become
Non-possesive

Do you like
Vanilla ice cream, Love
You nod say yes because
They have told you so they say all kids like
Vanilla ice cream, right

For years and years into
Your adult life you have
Despised
Vanilla ice cream until

One day in spring
The ice cream van comes rushing down
The curvy street
And you do feel
A twitch inside-
Step forward and buy
With a beaming smile on your face
A scoop of
Vanilla ice cream