I have never felt more alone, gripping this coffee mug,

sat up in the center of my queen sized bed.

And it never gets old, choosing the cutest coffee mug that no one will see me drink out of.

I could just sip from a plastic cup but I don't think I'm ready to give the act up.



I have never felt more alone, microwaving cool coffee in a cute mug.

Because, the truth is I could only drink from Styrofoam,

But the roses painted on the warm ceramic in my hand make me feel like the kind of girl you'd wanna lay in bed with all day,

So, for now, I won't have any,

I'll just keep it warm

until you call to say you're on your way.

You sat with your hands wrapped tight
around your knees like safety bars
& hopelessly whispered
"nothing lasts forever"
over and over again into the
chaotic sea of tears, I was
emptying recklessly all over
your bedroom floor
I don't want to lose you

I could feel you imagining
your voice lost in the waves
of my raw hysteria;
drowned instantly
in the rip tide
of my shaking wrists
and growing headache
God ******
I don't want to lose you

You are water
washing rapidly
toward my vulnerable lungs
You are filling me
and I like the way it tastes
but I know
I swear to god
I ******* know
that when you get where
you're headed
I'm not going to
be able to breathe
Still,
I don't want to lose you