Tempered glasses
Surround my vision.
Eyes denounce the truth.
You aren’t around.
You don’t exist here.
But your shadow
Permeates all my senses.
The institution of my mind
The crazy animal farm
That cages my steeds.
My royal legion of needs
Riding to the east
Sunrises and Seas

I can’t shake loose.
The rambling jargon of my youth

I know I am not worth much on the stage.
I don’t look good, got no rhythm.
But I ain’t afraid
When the bottles of judgement
Slice the air in my direction near
I salute them with a guzzle of the beer.
Until all my feelings become sheer
See through them and I learn.
Standing tall isn’t as firm.
As all the promises that make me yearn
To see you in the flesh
But the best is yet to come.

Just a ****** for the high
That keeps me in the bedroom.
All night
I usually flee.
The eject valve always close by
Ready to launch.
Me into space
Alone
Solitude sometimes is.
The only necessity that exists.

Can you understand?
If I surround myself with only memory
And regret
And not let you in
Because you are my Achilles heel
My denouement, after the spill
Of all my blood into the sink
Brushing my teeth
Too quick to think.
I quip, prickly and sick.

I choked on life.
And threw out the bit.
I can’t be tamed.
A horse girl by name
I ain’t a leaf, falling to the wind.
I am the howl through the chimes.
The moment of rhyme
When it all falls into line

Battle my spine up to my brain.
I can show you where your heart is.

Beating in my chest of drawers
Roque style
For good ole America’s sake
You can peek.
Inside
Your own hearts desire
And see for yourself.
Who is there, in the eye,
Of your storm
I am in the valley of shadow.
I am in the sea of tranquility.

Your heart carries all seasons.
Shades
Phases
It is the moon.
Radiance in permanence
A companion
For my earthly desire
My heavenly want

I am a spiritual oasis.
And you are the tide builder.
Rippling in from the cast stone
Blame tossed.
Former lover
Disbarred from passing judgement.
Cruel and unusual punishment

I am sure that I can break you free.
Of chains you created
Once you are able

Rather than like Cain
Giving into the rain

I shatter the staff
that emotional crutch of other drugs
upon the bridges you burned.
We burned.
To watch the wood splinter
Embers floating into the sky.
Flickering out
As a lightning bug passes by

I got your current.
In my hair
I got the shake down shimmy.
I can jimmy loose that locked up blood pump.
You ***** little punk
I got your sedation.
Stirred into my milkshake
**** it up, its extra thick.
Spill some on the table,
I’ll make you lick.

You ain’t gotta shimmer.
But surely you shine.
If only you saw the colours
Sparkling through the vines
growing around your chest
where once a heart laid to rest

I know they killed it dead.
But I got a certificate.
In CPR
I can resuscitate.
Make it beat.
Make the heat.

sink or swim.
trial by fire
flight, fight, run, or hide.
seek destroy.
isolate
terminate
whatever man
as long as it’s not the status quo.
the queue for owing you.
something that I can’t afford.

A moment in time
lost to a name.
a place
a stage fit for another queen.
who had set her sun.
Breaking Orbit and running
down to the moment
of separation
my trial by error
one chance
This very last breath
from my lips to yours
back to my head
inside
surrounded by dread.
but alive
instead of what else is there?
beyond the great veil
lift it.
Kiss back
fool hardy laughs.