Today I breathed in the ocean air
Felt the salt in my hair
And drowned in the waves I wear

My sun kissed skin only wants to sleep
In water so deep
And listen to the ocean weep

I watched the sun set over the bay
Said goodbye to the day
And it only felt ... okay

Vacation is a break
But I cant seem to shake
This quake
This feeling.

I do not want this sickness
Madness & pain.

The wind burn
The stomach churn
To no return

The fear
The waves
The craves
The maze

Looking up lost
Crossed
To no cost
To no exhaust.

I give, give, and give
Hoping to receive
Is there something wrong with me?

I love to a fault
Uncontrollably
and overwhelmingly

It must be true
That I'm through
Giving to you
The love I give and never receive.

I'll let you go
Just this time

Loosen my grip
Because you were never mine

One day at a time
You'll leave my mind

And soon,
I'll forget I left you behind

One day at a time.

I want your touch
Your laugh
Your love
Your hug

I want your soul
Your eyes
Your skin
Your grin

I want your kiss
Your breath
Your lips
Your hips

I want your worst
Your hurts
Your tears
Your fears

I want your anger
Your discomfort
Your bad
Your sad

I want your stress
Your dismay
Your sick
Your ticks

And most of all
I want all of you
Here.

I've grown tired of the person I am
Pouring my all into every soul
Frightening everything in my path
I am a cold storm even I cannot withstand
A tornado that spins endlessly
Devastating the debris I pick up along my tracks
I cannot throw you out just as easily as I have taken you in
Will you spin with me endlessly?

I am trusting the timing of my life
Letting go
and letting be
For once,
I allow the waves to crash over me
I’ll hold my breath
Stand tall and still
Embrace the rough waters
And love the time to ****

The universe will speak
And she’ll say it’s time
To grip back on
When to call him mine

I wonder about his face
And the smell of his shirts  
The way he combs his hair
And his past hurts

I hope he likes to dance
And plays with my hair
Laughs at my jokes
And deeply cares

Until then, goodnight.