"OhPlease", I say,
Looking deep into the darkest nights
Searching, reaching for the faintest lights
.
Let my downfall be my softness
Let it be that I loved too much
Let me find the beautiful parts of broken souls
And let those souls consume me.
.
Let me feed the hungry.
.
And scandalize the righteous.
To hold those deemed not worth holding
Let me become the monster
Who might forgive the unforgivable
.
Let my trust in the betrayer
Throw me from my throne
I trusted the traitor,
Let me not be alone

I thought it would be
An impossibility
That you wouldn’t inspire me
To write more poetry
But you don’t care to see
So I’m really only writing for me
I suppose that’s the best way to be
Self-inspired poetry
But unfortunately
I am mostly bored by me
How can I not be?
When I am always stuck with me
Now I’m mostly bored with you
You give me nothing to believe
Nothing new to see
And when you share the same old thing
It’s rarely

Testimony
Like a speed of light
Lost horizons

Been stuck in wanderlust

Sifting through my ashes
Judgement and jury
On day I’ll meet my maker

He’s the only one

I’ll have to answer too
When the lights
Finally go out

And I leave this earth

Will I have ever lived
Up to the life
The lord gave me

I honestly doubt it

I’ve been waiting
For the end too take me
All my life

For as long as I can remember

Living in sin
Drowning in myself
Body and flesh tainted

When my soul deserves

To fly freely for eternity
Running in circles
Ghosts haunting me

I’ve been holding on to tightly
When I should have
Just let it ******* go

The great unknown

When the sunsets
May I finally see all that
I believe awaits me

ON THE OTHER SIDE

A cognitive shift
Seeing the reality.
A state of awe
With transcendent quality.

When hit by the truth -
An overwhelming emotion.
Appreciation of beauty,
Increased sense of connection.

Shift in self-concept,
It could be transformative.
Sense of fragility
From a different perspective.