I promised
That I would be back,
I held you in my arms
And whispered so softly
Ran my hand through your hair
And murmured promises
I promised
With my soul
And my heart
That I would come back.
No matter what
“Nothing will stop me.”
I had whispered
But mum and dad knew
They looked so sad
Tears in their eyes
And you
Oh hon.
You looked so hopeful
Waiting for your older sibling
But the adults knew the truth
They mourned and cried
For the war had come
And your older sibling had to go
But I had held your hand
And told you I’d be back
And I don’t like breaking promises
Not to you
Not to those big eyes
And small hands
Not with how you cried that night
I soothed your fear
And worry
But I would break your heart
Because death isn’t picky
Death came for the good
And the bad
And death wouldn’t show exceptions
So you waited
Years
And years.
Till you finally understood
That I wouldn’t be back
I’m sorry,
I know apologies won’t mean much
Not unless I came back.
I cried though
The last day I breathed
I was held
And I cried
And I whispered regrets and apologies
Because I broke your promise
So little sibling
I’m sorry
But I’ll be here, even in death
You will always be in my heart
And I in yours
I have spilled my blood
So you may grow old.
And I won’t be able to see you grow old
But I’ll greet you in death
And I’ll be there for your wedding
Or not. If you choose to live in a mansion with pets
I’ll be there.
Wherever you go
In the wind
And in your heart
You carry me with you
I may have said goodbye
But, goodbye isn’t forever
Not in life and death
So remember me, little sibling
Please don’t cry
Celebrate the times we spent
For I’ll always be in your heart.

In death
I will die
And my body will rot
From the rot
Flowers shall grow
Piercing through my skull
And my blood shall seep
Deep into the earth
The flowers will hold me
My very essence
And my soul shall rise
A creature of shadow and stars
Bones and blood
Dark as night
Bright as the North Star
I shall walk among humans
Unseen
But there I will be.
Like the stars
No purpose
No reason
Just being.
And you will hear
My songs and whispers
Every time you visit my grave
I will greet you with the wind
And with the foxes that come by
My body is not buried under stone
It is forgotten in a forest
But not forgotten
For the trees will forever remember
For the grass will have intertwined
For I have sunk into the earth
And with the moon I will glow.
So when I die
Please do not cry
Do not fear
For I will be here
Watching over you
And it will be hard
To move on
But you must take that step
And take a big breath
For I will be here
Guiding you from the stars
The moons
The planets
The cosmos
The skies
The earth
The wind
The plants
My body is one with the world around us
And when you die
I will greet you with open arms
Dressed in the forest
The same familiar face
The night in my hair
The shadows in my eyes
The seas in my tears
The sun's warmth in my arms
And we will walk
The earth
The skies
The cosmos
Hand in hand
I will hold the world in my palms
And show you the beauty of life
In death.

I want to burn for you,
Like the sun does for life on Earth.
I want to you to orbit around me,
Like I am your whole world.
I want you to watch me set and rise,
and glow with my light.
I want to burn till there's nothing left,
and all you remember is the warmth of me.
Until you can't find what you need in others,
until you need me to breath.
Like we need our trees,
until other lovers stop satisfying you.
For in this universe, and every other.
I am meant to be yours,
As you are mine.
So don't ignore me,
or brighten around someone else.
They are not your sun.
I need you to live,
I need your salty pain rolling off my cheeks.
I need your burning love,
I need it until I can no longer breathe.
Please don't leave me, my darling,
I can't walk this world without you.
Your soul has a thorned grip around my heart;
it bleeds.
But the wounds still heal,
because the blood is proof of our strength.
We're still standing, together.
Hand in hand, even if I have to beg you to stay.