I'll take one more sip, keep drinking to feel good
I say like I'll stop when I know I never could
Poison In my veins making me feel this way
Keep drinking and drinking is all my head can say
Trying to numb the pain of daily life
Drinks getting stronger and stronger, stabbing me like a knife
I start to stumble and stutter
Regretting words that I mutter
Spilling thoughts that I keep buried inside
Wake up and realise what I've said, wishing I could just hide
Thinking the liquor was my friend, well I'm guessing it lied
Back in reality and now I want to just cry
So I'll return to the bottle and drink till I die

I miss you so much, and it kills me to say
I've started cutting myself almost everyday
I hate that we cant talk and hate myself so much
All I want is to feel your touch
I know we toxic and argued a lot
But it kills me know another guy is in my spot
You probably hate me and I understand why
But there's no point living without you, I might as well die
Just want to here to tell me its going to be ok
Because I'm really struggling to live another day
I'll keep pushing in hopes we'll get back together
But if tomorrow doesn't come then just know I'll love you forever

Real eyes, realise, real lies
Stuck with a man whom you really despise
I know how you feel by the tone in your voice
Maybe picking him was the wrong choice
Or maybe I'm wrong and just being confused
I just don't want to see you hurt or used

I danced with the flame knowing I'll get burned
The same old lesson I never learned
Playing with fire is fun till start to feel pain
Trying to hold onto something you can never obtain
Once the ash settles you'll never forget
Dancing with the fire is something you'll regret

I tell God I love you, more than life itself
Rich, broke or poor, I'd love you more than any wealth
I'd hold you hand no matter what
I'd kiss you here right now on the spot
Because I love you so much, you're my one and only
Please don't leave babe, I'd be so lonely
Just give me you're pinky and hold it tight
Because the love we share feels so right

I don't know why I fell so hard over you
But you unlocked feelings I never thought I knew
You may not be my first love but I hope you're my last
I want only you in my future and not in my past

Stepped off the train and saw the love of my life
The second we touched I knew I'd make you my wife
Cuddled in bed kissing and talking
When I'm with you I'm on the clouds walking
You're so beautiful, even though you say you're not
But honestly babe you're so so hot
I've never felt this way about anyone before
I want you for the rest of my life and even more

And just like that I turn 22
Yet a month ago I didn't think I was going to see this year through
Coming to terms with my own mortality
I never thought this would be my reality
But here I am now, still alive
Years of pain I'd never thought I'd survive
Though the pain may never truly fade away
I'm glad I get to live to see another day

I confessed my feelings to you on the phone
Laid out everything that I wished to be know
I cried my heart out, I couldn't take it no more
You're the person I've always been looking for
It's always been you and you said the same
I told you I loved you and felt no shame
My night look dim till I heard your voice
I couldn't ignore if I wanted to, I don't have a choice
You hold my heart with the tightest grip
A girl like you I'd never let slip

Do you treat him like you used to treat me
Or is he a better guy than I'll ever be
I used to drive hours just to get yelled at
I bet he doesn't ever get that
Have you realised what you did and finally changed ways
While I'm all alone lost in this scary maze
Because now he's got you and living a perfect life
While I'm looking at my wrists holding a knife

All of these feeling finally off my chest
Now I know I can lay to rest
I told you I loved you and you said it back
Hearing those world almost gave me a heart attack
Can't tell you how happy I feel
I've honestly never felt love this real
Say it again till it's tattooed on my heart
Because I've loved you since the very start

I'm not good for anyone
It's clear to see
You know I'm a ******* drunk
Just look at me
I just keep sipping
Till I hit the floor
Stumbling and tripping
I can't even write sober anymore

I am a poet
That's lost all meaning
Words come together
Like a child crying, screaming
Dreaming of a way to make these words feel new
I am a poet
That doesn't know what to do
Writings not the same
It just feels different
Maybe the passions been tamed
Or maybe I'm just different
I am a poet
Or maybe I'm not
I used to write loads
Now I can't write a lot
If you were to ask me what I am I'd tell you I forgot
Am I a poet?

I cannot contain these feelings for you any longer
But I'm afraid who will get hurt if they grow any stronger
In another life you would have been my soulmate
But our paths intertwined under a cruel fate
I know what I feel and I know my feelings are true
I think God intended for me to meet you
But we met at the wrong place and the wrong time
Is loving you really a crime?
I can't think like this I can't lose what I've got
Maybe in another lifetime I would have a shot
To love you, hold you maybe make you my wife
I hope I find you in another life

I think it's time for me to sleep, it's been a long day
Wrote to many poems, ran out of things to say
But when I close my eyes I still see you there
Just out of reach, life's not fair

When I say I love you its because its true
Though we've never met I really miss you
You seem to hold my heart like you've owned it before
I think you're the angel I've been looking for

I can see the stars when I'm gazing at you
You've left me starstruck and I don't know what to do
Like I'm in a trance just by your voice
Always drawn to you like I don't have a choice
I'm so in love with you and everything you are
Whenever you need me I'll jump straight in my car
An hour and a half drive doesn't seem so far
If it mean I get to gaze at my star
Drive all night to be right by your side
You unlocked feels I used to hide
Now read this clearly because what I say is true
One day I'm going to marry you
I can't see a world where you're not my wife
You're my shining star, the love of my life
Now give me that pinky and never let go
I love you so so much, more than you'll ever know

Let me be clear, you're all that's on my mind
Looking for an answer and you're all that I find
You live through my poems, because I can't tell you to your face
Or maybe I'm scared you'll put me in my place
I want to know how you feel but I'm scared of your answer
It takes two to tango but I think I'm the only dancer
Just be honest and let me know
Or is this a place that you cannot go
Maybe one day we can lay things out
And I'll get to know what you're thinking about

I look up and the moon and only think of you
So far away but such a beautiful view
If only I could reach it and hold on to it tight
But day is starting to break so I'll wait for the next night
I'd wait for you forever because you are my soulmate
Like the moon and the earth we are locked in this fate

Ive wrote this for you to read in the morning
Now read this clear because it's your final warning
I'm begging you to stop drinking
Now I know what you're thinking
You say this to me every single night
But think about it, you know it's not right
It's slowly killing you
You know it's true
But what are you going to do?
Open another beer?
Please see it clear
I know you can escape this pit
The drink, you honestly don't need it
You've got that power inside
So please don't hide
Behind not being sober
Because in a blink of an eye I will able be over
So when you wake up with a sober mind
Read this all and you come to find
That everything I've said you know to be true
Because unfortunately I am you

The sky never ends and nore does my love
Hoping one day it will hit you from above
Because your not here, I'm living in fear
I wish you was near because I miss you my dear
I'll find you again, never let you go
I love you more than you will ever know

When the devil took me he laughed and said
"The sins of your past will haunt you now you're dead
And the sins you committed hold much weight"
I said to him "If loving her was a sin then what be my fate?"
He look down apon me and said "do you really think love was your sin?"
What I utter next took away his grin
I told the devil that my sins came from love
"I would have stole, lied, murdered and all of the above.
I showed her love in a world full of hate
She was my heaven in this twisted curl fate
Any man that wronged her I would fight to the death
I would do anything for that woman till my last breath
I know I'm not prefect and I never will be
But I loved with all my heart because that's just me
So I'm guilty of loving because my morels won't budge
Doesn't matter what I say when the devil is my judge
I saw heaven without ever going
She knows she is loved and that loves still growing
And I died a happy man, you can never take that from me
So if loving is a crime then it's in hell I must be"
The devil look angry and mumbled"just go"
A bright light above my head then started to show
He shouted as I floated away
"Once you go back this will be your last chance then"
I replied with a gin "I can't wait to do this dance again

It was like something from a film, when I stepped off that train
So so many thoughts rushing through my brain
Is this a mistake, will she even like me
Turn the corner and what do I see
The most beautiful girl there ever could be
She hugged me with a grip ever so tight
All those thoughts left me because this felt so so right
After that hug Im certain that I know
This is a girl I never want to let go
I don't need drugs because she is my ecstasy
Life won't be tough when I have her next to me

The room was full of empty faces when I first saw you
I tried not to stare but I didn't know what else to do
Nothing but a red dress and a flirtatious stare
You saw me looking but didn't seem to care
I watched you dance under the moon so bright
Wishing to talk to you but not a thought in site
Time went slow as you walked towards me
My heart started racing ever so fastly
But just kept walking with not a work spoken
Do I risk talking to you or get my heart broken
Regretting not speaking now my mind is a mess
I will never forget you, the girl in the red dress

There was this girl who I loved so dear
When I held her in my arms I had nothing to fear
We weren't both prefect, we'd argue, we'd fight
But just her love would get me through the night
Even though she's gone I still love her for sure
But it's hard knowing she's not my girl anymore

I'm waiting for you
On the other end of the phone
It's weird when you don't respond
I honestly feel so alone
Just a simple text makes my day
Added to all you type and say
Lost in your words
And all you write
Waiting for you
On this lonely night

I'm not just for Christmas, I'm for life
And I can promise you that I'll make you my wife
I'll be here forever and keep hold of you heart
You already stole mine from the very start
My soulmate, my true love, my very best friend
I'll keep loving you tilly very end
Kisses, hugs all wrapped in a bow
I love you more than you'll ever know

I'd rather tell drunken truths than sober lies
Endless poems you've come to despise
Words without meaning, words without rhyme
Words thoughts, words lost in time
Hold my hand and never let go
My sober feelings you will never truly know

I don't sleep like I used to, nights have come cold
Thoughts always clouded with the memories of old
My beds so soft but I can't seem to rest
My beds so empty without you laying on my chest
I close my eyes but never feel at ease
My body's so worn just let me rest ....... Please

Whenever we call I always get butterfly's
Don't know if its the same feeling for any other guys  
I cant top smiling whenever I see you face
A beautiful site I never want to replace
I wish we could share these moments in person together
Memories that I will cherish forever

Drinking myself numb again
Night after night
God I know this path is wrong
But why does it feel so right?
Sat here alone
Slowly going insane
Drinking to just try numb the pain

If I hold onto a moment and keep it forever
It would be us laying like this
You ask if I'll let go and I reply "Never"
For you are my haven, my eternal bliss
I'll love you forever if you hold me like this

You're everywhere in this garden
I cant escape your sight
Your the grass by the path
The Moss on the stump
Leaves raked up into a little clump
Algea on the water
Adding life to never-ending blue
Even the depths of that void cannot contain you
For you lay upon the riverbed
Dancing with the stream
You're the weeds in the cracks
Poking through my drive
You embody life in every single way
We'll miss you come winter
When your influence fades
When life feels ghostly
So we wait until spring
And watch you bloom again
You're the colour in this garden
Green Green Green

Inside my heart melts a orange-gold hue
Spreading so far
Like a love flood for you
Inside my head crashing thoughts, bouncing feelings
Left down up right
I can't hold the mind still
Inside my soul a holy light reigns new
You are my glory my spirit
Bound with everlasting glue
No word describes this euphoria
As it exploded inside me
A crescendo of ecstasy
I am but a puppet
On your string
Strung on your love

I'll never be a perfect man but you make me want to try
I can't promise I won't fail, get knocked back or maybe even lie
Till my back lay broken and I'm falling apart
I will keep trying with all my heart
Fueled by love that you provide me
For you I'll be best version of myself that I can possibly be

I think I love you to, skipped through the like stages
I want you to be my last chapter filled with all the best pages
I hope you feel the same as I do, because I've got nothing but clarity
I second without you is like an endless reality
So dark and cold when you're my warmth and light
Hold me close dear and we'll make it through the night
See I write not money, recognition or even fame
My words just keep pouring because you're my eternal flame
There's a tattoo on my heart and only spells your name
If lifes single player not co-op then I don't want to play this game
Thinking about you alone gives me a reason to write
I hope you never let go of my words and keep them held tight
Back to my original point if I can remember it clear
But I'm drinking and driving, I think I need you to steer
Oh yeah I remember now I think I'm love
Must thank the God above when he sent me down this beautiful dove
Its just a feeling I have and if you'll be my queen I'll be your king
Because I'm sick of dreaming about this, I need the real thing

People speak lies just to ruin another's day
Ruined me and now I don't know what to say
Going to lose her because of a stupid lie
All I want to do is cry
When I said I loved you it wasn't fake
No other girl I like you, I'd never make that mistake

Perhaps I got attached too quick
But when I first met you I felt a click
Something in my head made me want you more
The most beautiful girl I've ever seen before
The way you make me laugh is second to none
Who knew falling in love could be this fun
I'd give you the world and more if I just knew how
When I look at you I can only think wow
Hearing your voice makes my heart skip a pace
You're the girl I never want to replace

I think I miss you
But you were never mine
I hate that's it's true
But I'm honestly not fine
Because even though you're not here
Im missing you everyday
Wishing you were near
Why do I miss you in this way ?

The more you make me jealous, the more I want you
The bruises from these games are starting to show through
He's a lucky man, I wish we could swap shoes
But when I came down to love he was the person you wanted to choose
Maybe another time I will be in his place
In this game I love I have lost the race

We walk a dangerous line when we start to flirt
Because someones feelings are bound to be hurt
We can dance over this fine line
But in the end I just want you to be mine

We were toxic, yes I know
A love that we should not have let grow
But why am I finding it so hard to let go
I still hold so much love for you
I honestly do know what to do
We weren't perfect and we both had issues
Shed so many tears and used too many tissues
You know if you called I come back straight away
Because you're all I want at the end of the day
I wish we could have worked on our problems and solved them together
Because I still love you and I'll love you forever

I wish I was an artist
I wish I could paint you
Using every colour known to man
And hang you up on my wall
For everyone to see
I wish I was a singer
I wish I could write you a song
Play it on repeat
For everyone to hear
I wish I was a poet
I wish I could write about you
People need to know what these feelings mean
For every drop of blood I bleed
Is a drop of love that I hold for you
I write and I write
Because I cant contain this
I wish I wish I wish

Skin to skin, we join as one
This forever lasting love has only just begun
Felt like I've know you a lifetime the day we met
I wish I could have loved you longer but I'll take what I can get
Our souls collided and formed into eachother
I honestly think we were made for one another
No girl other girl could hold my heart like you do
I'll hold you forever and you know that to me true

A heavy weight has be placed apon my head
A dark twisted sickness, I don't want to leave my bed
Thoughts keep growing leave nothing but pain in side
I wish to escape my mind, to run away and hide
How did I got from happy in the morning to almost crying tonight
My minds at war and I'm loosing the fight
I can never tell anyone now I truly feel
Because opening up makes them all too real
I don't want the label that's given to people like me
If only I could open up for people to see
Someone to talk to but I cut my self off
Because if I'm seen as week I'm scared they will scoff
I'm the big strong man that's not afraid of dying
But in side this man is a young boy crying

If you ever feel sad you can always come to me
I'll pick you back up and cleanse any insecurities
Let your tears flow down my chest
And all these demons we can lay to rest
For you are perfect in every single way
You're the only trophy I'd put on display

Tears leave my mind and heart
But not my eyes
How did this all start?
Through deceit and lies
Lying to myself about how I truly feel
You told me you loved me
Was that love even real?
Or was I blind and just couldn't see
Until I realise all my fears
Were clouded by my falling tears

I sometimes feel like giving up but don't want to lose hope
But I'm already half way through tying my rope
I know I'm not him and probably not the one
By my feelings won't change when it's all said and done
What do I need to do, or do I need to change?
Because I'm getting mixed feeling and these feeling are strange
Guess I just have to wait and see
Maybe the answer is right Infront of me

I keep drinking every night
I need a drink just to write
The words of a drunk man
To the same bottle he ran
Sip after sip he would write some more
Sip after sip the words did pore
Reading these words the truth I know it
I am the alcoholic poet

I found love and now I cant let go
From a seed to a flower my love did grow