Thirty Nine

Thirty Nine May 11

I miss when you were kinder to me
Maybe you never were
Or maybe
Maybe
Maybe
Im just too soft
And this world is much too cruel to us
...
But that’s okay because you still smell of dead roses

Thirty Nine May 1

Flowers bloom

I am a flower
And you are my sunshine
And I know you didn’t mean too
I know you only wanted the best
But still
You burnt me

Thirty Nine Apr 28

Emmett Till

He lived
But not long enough
And the world only remembers his death

He still could’ve lived to this day, he would’ve been about 83(?)

Thirty Nine Apr 13

Death doesnt discriminate

Death doesn’t discriminate
It’ll **** the richest man in the world
When he’s 53
It’ll **** the president
When they are 87

But death doesn’t discriminate
It’ll also **** the single mom
When she was only 33
And the little boy that played down the street
When he was only 7

Thirty Nine Apr 10

Glasses

Eyes are the door to the soul
Or so they say
My soul must be broken
Or out of service
Because I need glasses

Thirty Nine Apr 9

Therapy

“But you’re fine right?”
My therapist ask naively
Yeah I’m fine
Instead of drowning
I’m floating in a ocean
Surrounded by dolphins
Maybe one day I’ll sink peacefully

First time going to therapy

Thirty Nine Apr 7

Im still here

I can’t move.
The weight is everywhere.
It presses into my chest
Like even the dirt want me to stop existing.

I screamed until my throat bled.
No one answered.
No one remembered.

I guess they moved on.

one of my biggest fears is being buried alive