I have learned so much in this lifetime
#1: Fairy tales are In movies
I used to think that someday when i was stuck at the top of a tower, my prince would come to my rescue and take me to a far away land hidden in the middle of woods far from civilization
BUt as i grew up I learned that only princesses had that dream come true, I was just part of the crowd in the village who watched how happily ever after the prince lived with her lover.
Then it happened that I lost the movie and it stopped being a fairy tale, suddenly i was living in the reality of a teenager... Who's Cinderella movie got lost i the boxes of a moving truck.
#2: Families are not what they seem
Just because one family member said they will never leave that doesn't mean they are being completely honest with you
He said that no matter the hard times, and no matter the mistakes that they would be together. Maybe it was another fairy tale, maybe it wasn't nothing at all. Because he promised to take care of his little girl, but he left a soon as mom said she wanted out! Poor little one, the first promise she ever heard was a lie!

It looks like you finally found the path
You are finally walking again
It seems, like everything fits in,
Like the sun shining again
Its part of you to keep trying to cover it
Becuase you know that the truth a lie
You wanted to hear, confort in the ear
Yet, you never tried too see further than the shore
You stayed stuck on the beach
playing with sand
how could you not see, that the real adventure was
Out there, in the water, in the ocean and in the world...
It never matter to you, that the others where there
But as time came by, you finally realized the reality...

Sometimes i wonder if you are slefish
others i am a slave of your will
Sometimes i wonder if you even tried
As i realize that all you wanted was for you
You answer my questions and you try to make me confort
BUt as you try to make me better
You keep puching me down to the gutter
Maybe im not ready to go down with you
Maybe its not you,
maybe its me who sees the things this way,
But as we keep strugling i realize
You are weak
and there is no one more important for you than you
Even though you think its him\

He said one thing
He said another,
Now i ask
If hwat he said
was really him,
Now i know neither were true

He gave me that opportunity to choose, between one side or the other one,
But he did not realize that it wasn't something a person could just decide from one day to another.
He did not know how hard this entire thing was.
His words are still crumbling up in my mind and surrounding my veins!
Maybe i am not ready for this decision, all i needed was more time
Just maybe i needed some more knowledge
why cant he just understand that i am not ready for all of this?
It s not very hard to wait at least some time
He cant put all this pressure on me like if i could handle anything that comes to me.
WHat can I do to tell i am not ready to decide between mom or dad, i love them both and its not a decision of two minutes. He should understand my reason and listen to my opinions before he makes me decide

Are you tired?
-of course I'm tired-
It was only 3 laps around
-I am not tired for that
Then what are you tired about
-This, the constant reminder-
Thats who you are
-No, thats who they want me to be-
I thought it was your Idol
-It was, before it took of his mask-
Who is he now?
-He is the logo covering up the reality of the actual motto-
-It is a lie, and this uniform is a bigger lie, the coverup of the truth-
Just that, a lie and what hides our true means

I'm tired of this fight
All the scars
All the bruises
All the pain
"For what?"
I ask
"there is nothing there for me"
Yet,
There is
There might
There could
"what purpose do I have"
I'll tell you
"what do you know"
I know enough
"prove it"
I will
"what purpose do I have"
To live
This life
Before you
Die
Without
Living through
YOLO!!!!