This year
my greatest accomplishment has been staying alive
My greatest regret has been wanting to give up
And something i will change is the way of looking at every day to come

One day, you wake up just another day
Going to school,
Studying and learning
Christmas is almost here you know
And a man, a crazy man who apparently did not have any proper teachings, who was crazy enough to pull out a gun and point twenty children until they were dead
What kind of man was that
What kind of creature
Because that was not a man
A man has a heart and feelings
That was not a man
That was monster who destroyed an opportunity to 20 kids 20 hopes 20 miracles
20 new lives...
God, take them with you
Make them your young angels
And show them a better life
In your city of peace and joy
The were ripped away but we know they are with you, they have you...

Some people leave your heart, but when they come back,,,
What do you do?
Do you welcome them back
Maybe interview them see why the're back
Do you turn on them like they did on you
Do you run towards or away from them?
Are they worth more time?
What should I do,
Wait and expect another heart broken or instead expect a better ending?
How do you deal with a person coming back to your life!

life takes away the most important things to you
"its to make you stronger"
Puts in your way the worst obstacles
"its to make you stronger"
separates you from loved one
"its to make you stronger"
And gives you the best people in the end
"Its the reward for patience

Blind people can't see,
Yet they notice the difference from real and fake
Other people can see
Yet they decide to ignore reality and keep fake
How ironic!

Deaf people can't speak
Yet they fight for their beliefs
People that can speak
Decide to stay shut and wait

Paralyzed people can't walk
Yet they get up and run to their dreams
Some people can walk
Yet they decide to stay and forget their dreams

Is it just me or is this wrong
Both types of people should
See
Speak
And run...

I want to survive
I wont give up
I'll keep trying
But the question is FOR WHAT?

For the crumbs
For the waist
For an impossibility
For something that doesn't exist

I don't want what's left of it
I want it all
Yea it is true:
I won't be easy
But you bet I'll try
An if I don't make I'll keep trying
And if I never make then
I wasn't meant to be.

But
I don't want to waste my time
How do I know when it's time
To leave and not turn back
How do I know if I'm doing the right things
How can I know

I'm trying to forget
Forget that I fell for you
Forget your sweet smile
Forget that tender light in your eyes
Forget your glorious voice

Im trying to forget that
You are there
And not here
I'm trying to forget that
Everything I do
Has nothing to do with you

I'm sorry for feeling thus way
I never asked for Your love
I asked for friendship and understanding
I tried to give you
Many things hoping you could love me

But you never did
Now I'm trying to forget
That you exist
Because I'm tired of fighting
To try to keep you

I'm trying to forget that I actually love you.