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4d Mimi

yes i cut

4d Mimi

jay

yes i cut

never to deep
never enough to die
but enough to feel the pain;
enough to scream inside

4d Mimi

Depression Is...

4d Mimi

Chloe

Depression Is...

Like an old friend inviting you to come inside.
Familiar. Comforting.
It will grasp you in its arms and hold you close;
And when you're ready to leave, it wont let you go.
You will beg and plead to be happy,
and it will put up a fight.
It will make you think that the only way to escape it is to take your own life.
If you are lucky, you can break free;
and it will sit and watch you from afar.
Calling your name.
Welcoming you back into it's arms.
It will intrude your thoughts.
Make you think you are worthless.
That you're better off dead.
Just keep telling yourself that it's all in your head.
Keep moving. You will get far.
Depression is not who you are.

DISCLAIMER: This is only from my personal point of view and how my battle with depression has been. Even though I am trying to recover, the battle gets very difficult for me sometimes and I have to remind myself that I am not my mental illness. My mental illness does not define me.

#depression #mental #illness #bipolar #bpd #recovery #struggles

4d Mimi

Me

4d Mimi

Raven

Me

No food
No sleep
I can't let these things reach out and speak sweet lies
I can't let food call my name
I can't let sleep drown my thoughts

I shouldn't eat
I can't sleep

This is me

I am broken girl
Who can't eat
In fear I weigh too much

I am a broken girl who can't sleep
For my thoughts and memories
Haunt me too much

I am a broken girl who answers 'how are you?'
With 'I'm alright' even when I'm not even close
Because I don't want you to worry
I don't want you to fret
Over a broken soul

I am a broken girl who says 'I have been busy'
when someone asks me why I haven't done something
I have been busy just not in the way they think
I have been busy trying not to give into hunger
I have been busy fixating on how I'm broken
I have been busy
But not in the way they think

I am a broken girl who has let her demons
creep up on her too much

I am a broken girl who has surrendered
her soul

I am a broken girl who dates so she feels
worth something because I don't when I'm alone

I date because I need to depend on someone
Because I am not dependable for anyone
Let alone myself

I date so I can hear someone say I love you
So I can hear someone call me beautiful
Cute
Amazing
And so many other things
Even if I don't believe it

I am a broken girl who has lost so many relationships
Five to death
And so many others just because they left
I was no longer good enough
No longer happy enough
No longer
PRETENDING

I am a broken girl who pretends
And when I stop people leave

Because I am too broken

I am too clingy

I am too demanding

I'm just not enough

Or I'm too much

THIS IS ME

But no one sees
Until I let them

And when I do they worry

But please don't worry
Because you didn't when you didn't know
So why worry now?

I'm still the same me
You just couldn't see all the flaws that my eyes do

You don't see the way I do

I see a girl who's eyes are too big

I see a girl who isn't thin enough

I see a girl who's hair doesn't suit her no matter what

I see a girl with too many scars

I see a girl
But I don't

For all I can see now is a walking flaw

And no one knows that
THIS IS ME

April/ 19/ 2018/ 10:19 AM

#broken #invisible #worthless #depressed #lost #faded

Jul 10 Mimi

A spark

Jul 10 Mimi

Nosy

A spark

You wanted me quiet-
A flicker in the dark,
Something trilling
You wanted a spark

I was your secret,
Easier to keep alone
Because secrets rots,
When kept for too long

You wanted my all, my devotion
You paced around it, like a dare
Like a truth, not to be shared

You don't think I feel,
But it's all I felt
Yet I stayed silent,
I am my own personal hell

I self sabotage
Knowing you wouldn't care
I didn't not want you,
You just wanted-
What can never be fully touched

Never to be fixed,
And never undone.

#selfdestructive #spark #sabotage #secret #silent

Jul 10 Mimi

Happiness

Jul 10 Mimi

Kezexxe

Happiness

Sampling the taste of happiness,
But too bad I dont have enough money to purchase it.

Jun 22 Mimi

Our Poets

Jun 22 Mimi

Maddy

Our Poets

Soulful
Searching
Word Pioneers
Ever creating
Crafting
Originality beyond compare
Members that have a depth and imaginations others wish for
Tney are the most special group I have ever encountered
Our Poets
Proud to be with you

Jun 22 Mimi

One hug

Jun 22 Mimi

Liana

One hug

I would climb mountains
Hijack cars
Walk 26 days
And almost die
If that meant I could hug you
Even one time

Lyle, I love you so much and I want to write you so many poems (I have a lot of drafts that I feel aren't good enough, but I just chose two for now). But even more than that I just want to hug you.

Apr 7 Mimi

...

Apr 7 Mimi

alison

...

my vision is blurry as I type away,
making several spelling errors.
I miss you, and I still love you,
but I know I shouldn't.

#hurt #soul #foryou

Apr 7 Mimi

Dreams

Apr 7 Mimi

Maddy

Dreams

Memories are lovely but can’t live in them
There is magic around if your heart is open and your mind wide
When readers react to your work regardless of origin and they are taken by it
Dreams long forgotten come true
When I say I am a writer
The eight year old me remembers all the old notebooks she still owns
I have taken my own breath away when I say I am a writer
Some dreams come true when you don’t expect them to happen
Later than expected but happening now
Still don’t believe it