Tongue kissing on a chilly night
Hazy views are on my mindset
Poetry is all i feel for you
Tongue kissing on a chilly night

Back again
Speaking everything into existence
Looking for trophy’s
But will settle for real glory
If you see me
Know that I am too fighting a hard battle
Vice versa
They will never know you like me
Switching lanes
Winning games
Misbehaving politely
If you’re a true friend
Please stand up
People like you are rare
Vice versa

you sure have been misleading this trust
my house
my tears
my fears
what I do is none of your concern
I am sure she will never be able to excite you like I did
but honestly
that's not my concern
a door closed
but a million just opened
lucky
blessed
I haven't felt this light
I haven't felt this love
I haven't felt like myself
in a while
brb.
taking this time to myself.

Social media consumes us all
As if you gripping my thigh wasn't enough
I was in love once
but was it really love?
Do i even know what love is ?
Lights...camera...action...
Baby i can't stop smiling
I miss the beginning of new love
everything is awkward and sacred
The vibe of the crowd has me reminiscing
about you
about us
about what we were
about what we could have been
Rays of sunshine
as you stumble upon my weary mind
is that love ??
or is that a type of love?

My soul said to just keep writing
Words dripping down my spine
Occupied in the light
Be still my soul
Players only love you when they're playing
Sitcoms of my love story
I haven't been around much
But
Love at first sight
On & on
You say
That i'm crazy
Trying to
Write love letters to myself
Everyday

tongue kissing
I can hear the rain
reminiscing about past love
but you've wiped it all away
tell me you like that thing I do again
tell me how much I mean to you
tell me what you love about me
tell me how I make you feel
tell me you feelin me
cause baby,
I'm  feeling you too.

There is this part of me that will always remain hidden,
And that’s the world, the evolving of beautiful chaos, intertwined in beauty
Have you appreciated sympathy before appealing for an applaud?
What is reward without tears?
What are fears without goals?
Viewing things from my heart benefits the truth
Viewing things from my mind understands the truth
Running from the lack of freedom, why do we feel trapped in our own beings?
**** just got real, **** just got deep, and I just needed to stop and just feel.
I got this part of me that makes me go crazy
Smart people seem like crazy people to dumb people.
Hypocrites are overpopulating our world
Stop bashing on what you hate, yet promote what you love
I don’t want to compare your story to anyone else’s.
It was unique , I separated it from the rest.

You can half *** many things in life
&
Justify to self why it's acceptable
but the love you give
&
The love you receive should never be one of those things.

she said she's packing her stuff and leaving yours behind

This is all beyond you
Candles lit after midnight
I always seem to forget the parts
No one ever notices
Limited edition
My poems are bruised
My heart is always in battle
My mind tends to always lead
Poetry
Red wine
Jazz tones within me
Chapter 78
I often think that the night is more alive
I know I have friends
But I feel like I have no one to talk to about
The **** that goes on in my head

Consume mindfully.

Eat with awareness and gratitude.
Pause before buying and see if breathing is enough.
Pay attention to the effects of media you consume.
Pause. Breathe. Listen.

When you feel compelled to speak in a meeting or conversation, pause.
Breathe before entering your home, pleace of work, or school.
Listen to the people you encounter. They are buddhas.
Practice gratitude.

Notice what you have
Be equally grateful for opportunities and challenges.
Share joy, not negativity.
Cultivate compassion and loving kindness.

Notice where help is needed and be quick to help
Consider others' perspectives deeply.
Work for peace at many levels.
Discover wisdom

Cultivate "don't know" mind (= curiosity).
Find connections between Buddhist teachings and your life.
Be open to what arises in every moment.
Accept constant change.

All we are
Playing games
subliminal message
did I ever?
somehow in a mood and its a secret
all I ever asked for
is for you to show me so love
baby please be the painter
and let me be your muse
Reminiscing on positive affirmations
love notes to myself
while hugging my thighs tighter
we around for about decade
wondering what type of love that make us come back
however it was
I am still here for it
please stop looking for me
you will never know this misery
that grew a hungry monster
inside of me
Please don't ever forget
how fragile I am

can you hold hands with a poet ?
can you dream with a poet
can you love a poet
we cant start with flowers
but
also end with flowers
I have been in love with a ghost
i have been falling foolish on different notes
high note
low note
same keys
different breeze
somehow
I always find away back to myself

we just started having fun
I still can't get away from myself
smiles blending
here we are
ready for detachment
like we are going to war
haven't been myself lately
not sure how dismissive I became
how many questions do you need to ask
to get the right answers
still counting
heartbreaks
life breaks
rewinding everything from the start
erase.
start over.

These feelings are bottled in.
You stay on your prime,
I'm being too available
My bad for being ferocious
These Heartaches have me feeling
foolish
Hats off to the magic wand
it swiped  me off my feet
when it met with cupid
and shot me stupid
I fell in love
****...I felt stupid
I can't feel the same with another
Had me judging all the others
Don't know what you did to me
Had me twirling purposely
Changed me for love, it was all for love
I started to love you
You're in my mind, floating around my fears
Cant fully breathe,
You have me floating
Fairytale hosting
You belong to me
You deserve my loving.

what makes you feel safe ?

honesty
loyalty
seeing me
understanding me

nothing is more attractive than someone who you teaches you things

you don't know what others are dealing with
you dont know what others are going through
look at what you are dealing with
look at what you are going through

be kind, that is what i want to be remembered as

raison d'Être

Let's stay inside
I am sorry to break it to you
but you haven't really been on my mind
I just started regaining my worth
self love
baby
self hope
imagine a world where I stopped loving myself
picture perfect
you never even fit my image
startled
but I wept
rendezvous
you were the reasons I hurt inside
I am so happy to have escaped heartache in one piece
I don't want you, and I don't need you.

good luck.

mORE
TELL ME WHERE YOU HAVE BEEN LATELY
YOU PROMISED YOUD BE MY BESTFRIEND
forever
whenever you were lonely
I was always there for you
I don't even know why or how
give me a reason to let go
if you know me then you know I know
I want mORE
and you gave me less
and I wanted more,

It's lonely at the top
so be prepared for your circle to be small
speaking up shouldn't result in treating you unfairly
you should never correct your boss in public

what does being happy mean to you ?

I have become Hermetic

HYPERBOLE

What ever you wish for
speak it into existence
pray for your dreams
people like you deserve blessings

MY ENERGY IS CLEAN
I do not condone negative conversations
Don't update me
I'm out of the loop

those kisses you randomly place on my cheeks
resemble
a warm hug at the right time

thank you for making me believe in love again.

what a world
baby the way you kissed me last night
what a word
poetry after dark
secrets
started as lovers
no need for pressure love
our passion is keeping me up a night
thank you
for letting me sway my hips
thank you
for loving me in the dark
thank you
for kissing my back at night
whatever it is
I am down to play with lust.

YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID!!
- Even if you are not the one suffering the most in the situation
- Even when other people also have valid needs or concerns
- Needs and needing to be heard are not exclusive to one person at a time. All needs and voices are - equally - important (including yours)
- For your brain health/development your voice needs (and deserves) to be heard.
- If you ignore/hide your needs and/or feelings even for the sake of others it does not end up “just fine.” In fact, these hurts/unmet needs stay and you WILL have to deal with them someday. And if you don’t, you will eventually get scarred or crashing because your brain and heart need health and healing too!
So, don’t keep silent. It is still “nice” to allow your own existing and needs.

What is my biggest insecurity?
Not giving enough where I can
and know I should.
Some insecurities
I am still trying to find words to
Maybe some light too
Being loved can be scary,
and I shy away from people who love me
too quickly
You ever been heart broken?
betrayal is universal
I have felt the teeth of love for sure
Spiritual awakening is about surrender
we lead most of our lives trying to control outcomes
and in doing so
we inject and project ourselves into other peoples choices
to secure the narrative of control
but when you let go of this desire to be right all the time
or control outcomes
something else seeks you
manifest within chaos
emotions are my identity
just please adore me when
I cant love myself.

I have accomplished plenty
I have been blessed plenty
thankful, I pray daily
what you put out - you receive
watch your tongue
you build and fail this way
mesmerized by romatasizing my own life
Its been a while since I've let my mind spill
lingerie - red to be exact
what it feels like to feel **** in private?
everything that we do
should be between me and you
I don't have much to say lately
I've been observing
i vibe on a different frequency
I know I'm chosen,
I've been through hell and back and
Im
                                                                                              still
solid.

I'm terrified
I mumble  
And i reveal
Protesting my emotions
Was I keen to learn too quick.

flip the page
hurry up and change the script
no one cares if you’re struggling
shake away your demonic feeling
and find a way out
do not let life make you cold
Never discredit your gut instinct
simplicity is the ultimate sophistication
you’ll wish you did me different one day
God will come through for you
just be patient.

poem - i lost count
i write for myself
not for self - pitty
I don't speak on my struggle

Hotline bling
however it was
however it is
here i am


thats how love is made

Overplaying magic
All these comical signs
but I'm blinded by things that disturb my peace
Frequent
A lot of muses and tunes later
I twirl in lust with a man that's in love with my highs
I'm always in my zone
pretending one day my mother would call
I have been through enough
That's why i tend to always
Reflect and reminisce on what's left

I didn’t need saving
I simply needed healing
Amused by this wicked downcast
Soft tones are for those who don’t feel the music
I’m liberal on this journey filled with beats
I glanced at my past
It startled me so I hustled
I dashed, I fled.
I exclaimed my love, and that should be desired.

My heart is in pain
Im not sure if its new
And i'm not sure if its old
But its receptive
And comes around quite often
Sometimes I want to be alone
Sometimes I cant be left alone
My dreams
My goals
My fears
Swim through my brain intensely
I miss those who never recognized my aura
Im just in a place in my life
Where peace is very important to me.
I need the moon to give me permission to the stars
So I can refrain from underestimating my pride
That’s why I try to find god within myself


Don’t every trust those people


That never answers your texts back until the next day,



But when you’re around them, they are glued to their phones.

You were never and will never be a priority
In their life.

Romanticizing my life
I deserve fresh flowers by my bed side
one of one
I mingle with the stars
and slow dance with the moon
I twirl in the rain
and i connect with the thunder
comfort calms my sanity
falling in love with taking care of myself
I bask with my emotions
every sadness comes with feeling
who i am is deep
intense even
dramatically poetic
i say how i feel
and i feel what i say
my story just started
i said i was getting everything i deserve and desire
I am a good person
and i strive to be one.

I am pretty sure i did not meet you for nothing

The rest I can do without
Your future self is watching you right now
Through your memories
Make me proud
Make them proud
Make god proud
Children of darkness
You’re the kind of soul
That stirs up magic in others
Maybe 10 years from now we’ll meet again at a coffee shop down the road
And start over
This is not a love story
It’s a tragedy
It seems that every time I have lost myself
I end up coming back
With more of myself than before

Who knew all you needed to do was a bit of self-cleaning
A bit of self-healing
Woke up and I took a deep breath
My god this life is a catastrophe
It’s so unpleasant
I launched a substantial amount of smoke in my lungs
I flew away, in my brain
I was gleaming
I roared I wept I bawled
I wanted to settle
I wanted more.
It was never enough

We either become sadder
Or our heart beats become louder
My heart,
My heart is eating so fast my bones are tingling
Vibrating through my veins
My blood stream is failing
I think too much
I don’t pray enough
Lost touch with the angels
The angels lost me
Forgetting this
Words are words by choice
Awkwardly complicated
Passionate souls intertwined in chaos
Beautiful chaos
My hands are shaking, they can’t stand still
I overdo it with coffee, I over did it.
Can’t handle my life sober
So much ****** up **** in the world
Smart people seem like crazy people to dumb people
And if you believe you can change the world
You’re one of a kind.

What goes on in my mind is quite absurd, yet breathtaking.
hopeless feelings, errors, and honesty give me meaning.
A proper gentleman mixed with some sweet wine
I pranced along the journey of lust and faithful lies
Floating on cloud 9, or somewhere many clouds ahead.
Everything is not lost, but I am.
Mind is wandering along the negative sea.
I’m swimming along the shore of dreams
shaken,
I Cherished these wicked falls
They have thrilled my gigantic heart
And I treasure them as I giggle at the wrongs and make things right
I am only human baby let me **** up

The girl who lost things
why is money always such a sensitive topic
researching ways to not let things get to me
whats mine is mine
I need to pray more
I need to hug my mind
and let my creativity pour up glasses
thirsting for the wrong love
every wrong is a lesson
truth be told,
I'm being tested from above
Ive got to cultivate my light
real recognize real
poetry since the morning
my love,
you inspired me.

My favorite  forms of intimacy
consists of
vulnerability between a soul you can trust
showing up when needed
spending time sharing ideas
watching  films/ reading books
speaking openly
asking questions
sight seeing
kissing and cuddling
and wherever that leads
sharing and creating
not forgetting where the love is no matter the space or time
I love a man that can touch me without using his hands
help me learn ways to love myself
I think I've just learned to trust my tongue
more than I am interested in protecting myself from being judged
I don't overthink when I write anymore.
I just write.

I must learn to be content with being happier than i deserve.

it took a romance movie
to unlock these heavy emotions
currently mourning a heartbreak
before it has even begun
I wish I could
conclude this love story
but I'm personally speechless
at the thought of the end of this love story
for the first time in my life
love found me in ways that has helped me
find myself
forever more - if I died today
I was able to experience this love
tears overflowing
I wish I knew how to block away this
love notes
every reminder of how romance met me
my dearest
I never knew what love
until you loved me.

Jazz
Jazz
whatever it is
It sprinkled unexpected doses of wisdom and insight
Can you focus on just me?
I am not allowed to beg you to stay
But i am allowed to show you what you should settle for
the rest can expand within us.