To give away a child is the bravest thing a mother can do
for a better future and education too
but to waste the sacrifice of mothers decision is the worst thing a child could do
instead of going to class and completing the work
it gets thrown in the trash by going to parties and getting drunk
due to wanting to have some fun
Now is that being a good son?
It's selfish and disappointing at the same time, in fact, last time I checked being smart and attending classes is not a crime
but stealing money and duplicating your parent's keys is a felony
although you refuse to take a session of remedy
it wouldn’t hurt to sit down for an hour and reflect on the decisions you’ve been making
because it’s not my heart you're breaking
it’s the women who sacrificed you because she couldn’t provide a life worth living for
in the hope that her child wouldn’t put in a drawer
yet you did the opposite and many more

For the tears that fell and crawled down my cheeks. When the weeks felt like years and the years felt like weeks. You held on me so tight but it was never enough. Now you lay down on the grave of your mistakes with a dead faded rose by your side.You seek for her lust but it's buried below. Deep down in the soil is where a rupture heart is held with sorrow in it's veins and broken promises with no tomorrow.

I feel like once I realize what I have
it will be too late
they'll be already gone because my love couldn't wait
and I had wasted my time on someone who couldn't  manage to change
because it was difficult to arrange
It feels as if everyone will have to pay for his mistakes
and I'm well aware how much it aches
It seems as if everyone will have to pass through a lie detector
which is now my protector
yet its never enough
especially when my heart had been rebuffed
they'll have to prove their loyalty
to earn their royalty
and prove me something real
to fix something that once been healed

Whose friend were you when you decided to walk out those doors and into his arms even when you knew how it gave me pain.
Did you use your brain?
And stopped for a moment
To think what will be broken
After you come back into my arms
With a bed of thorns
Did you expect me to be oblivious?
Or delirious?
Till this day, my mind is still reminiscing
Trying to think of what is missing
You never told a soul
Because it meant losing control
But look where that has gotten you
You would smile on cue
And mimic the perfect daughter your parents have wanted
Yet that’s what left you unwanted
Your too afraid to fight off your demons who live under the same roof
And turn over the bad guy with your living proof
For the sake of not shattering the harmony between your family
But who’s winning and losing their sanity?  
Let me step aside and write about another subject
Who blamed themselves for every sin that happened?
Me!
But that’s what I do
And ya’ll don’t have a clue
How the **** was I supposed to know when you were about to fall down on the ground?
When you never made a sound
So don’t call me inconsiderate and say I used you as a door mat
But don’t worry, I got used to it
Just like you did