I am butter spread
On beautiful toasted life
Dangerously thin

Starlight, citylight, blend into one
Our voices drowned out by music
The windshield fogged by our breath

Another year passes by me
Numbers adding, songs sung
"Friends" canceling plans
They feigned happy birthdays
But you actually stayed.

Rubber on the road
Our laugher frozen in the 19 degree air
Our faces yellow, red, green at the stoplight
You drove until I forgot where we started

Stealing bites of icecream
Dancing queens, we shook our hair
Completely free
Starlight, citylight
Our feet untied from the earth

My dear friend,
You reminded me
I AM WORTHY OF LOVE

There was a reason for him
But I can't remember what it was
He exists in me
No reason required

I put my earbuds in and sting my open wounds with stories
I wander through the library, mausoleum of time
Oldness, dust, that faint smell with no name
I open a book in Danish, squiggles and dots
This must be what a child feels like before they can read

My soul is leaking out of my sides, I clasp them tight
As I attempt to imprison my wandering soul, it slips out my mouth
Into these ancient creations of another
I must read to find it
I must find it

It weathers storms on a glassy sea
It wanders in darkness and burns in the light
It jumps off the precipice of possibility
It was screaming and I forgot to listen
I just put in my earbuds and stung in with stories
Until it became one

*Oh my soul I must honor thee, in black and white you illusive remain.
Constantly moving but staying the same.
Freedom you found, freedom these pages contain.
But I am not with thee in flesh I remain.
Sorting through words for which I have no name
Lost in the translation that made the mundane

I am awake.
Silence fills the chaotic air
A flurry of purity, my vision is blurry
I am still.

The world is dreaming of everything beautiful
Breathing together in separate places
And dancing through worlds of perfection
Completely unaware

They missed the magic of real life
At 3 am
At 0 degrees
When the stars decided to kiss the earth