Thinking of you
Makes my heart swell.

Not in a bad way
but also not in a good way.

There are times when I know what to say.
And there are times where I feel so far away.

Lost.
In.
Thought.

Dreaming of possibilities that could be.
Imagining a world painted with you and
Me.

I am still waiting for the day that you come back.
It might be never.
But I can't wait forever.

It scares me that I have such
Deep.
Feelings.

I want it to go away.
Please go away.
I want to be free.

Free from this ache in my blood.
It sings to me.
Everytime I think of you.

This digital world kills me.
Slowly.
Feelings of heartbreak, loneliness,
Laughter, happiness, and excitement
Swallow you whole.

You can’t trust them.
It feels real, at first.
But this isn’t reality.

You must know that.
She did know.
But she dove right in, anyways.

The problem with being different...
Is that you look elsewhere for friendship.
And love.

It’s not all bad.
But mostly, it is.

She was curious, at first.
Simple conversations.
So genuine.

So, when it happened,
She felt nothing.

Deep in her heart,
Perhaps, she felt something.
Worry?
Care?

She never dared to show it.
Because she believed it
To be a form of weakness

That will consume you
And bury you
Alive.

Lonely.
So helplessly alone.
Wishing to be freed
From this misery.

Only God can help me succeed.
I pray
And pray.

Trying hard to believe in myself.

But it is hard to find hope in a world
That has tasted evil.

A boy with no soul.
A girl with a soul.
Wishing to converge as one.

The boy has a dark past.
Listens to no one.
Is stubborn and foolish.

Will he listen to her?
Will he change?

His past haunts him so.
A mother.
A tragic ending.
Death.
All too painful for the boy.

He tells her nothing.
She is scared to understand him.
There is something soft about the way he wants you.

Reciprocating the same feelings?
No...
Not at all.
The boy wants something.
You want something else.

Fall leaves change.
Winter comes and goes.
There are no feelings for the boy anymore.
He doesn’t reach out to her.
Her words do not comfort him as it once did.
She finds it easy to walk away…

The boy sinks into the darkness
As time passes…
Without the girl, he is dust.

Lies.
Many lies he has told.
This is what happens when digital world comes and goes.
Through your life.

Both boy and girl find it easy to forget.
Living as if they never existed.
Promises of a new beginning uttered never to each other.

Feeling lost.
Frightened
By the terrible
Fate that awaits.

What is that fate?

Your imagination runs wild
Like forest fire,
Consuming the greenery.

Or like animals running free.
Toppling over hills.
Galloping across the sand,
Dangerous territories lie ahead.

Will you enter?
Will you pause.
And think…

Before diving right in
Into the dark unknown.